Here's to another birthday,

waiting for a phone call that I'll never receive.

31 years and it's a shame that you have no idea

how incredible I turned out to be.

It's probably your loss but it still hurts me.

I didn't deserve to grow up with this hole in my heart.

Searching for trust in every man that wants to love me.

It's fucked up that I'm still torn apart,

But all I've ever needed was proof that I was worth loving.

Here's to another year wasted on hope that one day you'll accept me.

I don't even know why I still care for someone

who was okay with neglecting me.

It's sad how the mind plays tricks on the heart.

I thought I needed your love,

But I think we're better apart.

'Cause I'll never understand your decision

To walk away and just leave me.

I was your child but I guess you didn't need me.

I could never imagine turning my back on any of my children.

I don't care what your reason was;

It was fucking selfish!

You saw that I was suffering

and you just let me suffer silently.

You knew what I was going through

and you never even looked back at me.

Maybe if I was a boy you would've loved me.

I'm sorry that I was born a disappointment to you.

But that was never my fault.

All I ever wanted was love from you.

I desperately needed your approval

and I still don't know why.

I still crave the kind of protection that I never got

from my father when I was a child.

That was never fair to me.

Do you even about what you fucking do to me?

Not like this is something new to me,

But that doesn't make it hurt any less.

The hardest pill I ever had to swallow-

Was growing up fatherless.

Here's to 31 years and making it on my own.

I guess I never needed you after all.

I think it's time I let you go.