I probably should've seen this coming.

I've been numb far too long;

To ever think that I'd be full of breath when I stopped running.

I ran for miles,

As far as I could get.

I ran so fast that I had no idea I was even doing it.

Subconsciously I guess I did.

I just couldn't stick around and wait for the pain to resurface again.

So I closed the curtains

And I locked all the doors.

I said prayer for my soul to heal

And I ran away from myself until I could no longer feel.

I knew it was naive of me to think that I could escape reality.

But I had nowhere else to turn

And no one was ever there for me.

I felt my whole world shake when I hit rock bottom.

I just needed to erase the pain

And leave the memories forgotten.

I always thought you'd miss me in the same way that I missed you.

There I go, being naive again;

'Cause you didn't even want me when I was with you.

I hope that you find happiness somewhere, someday.

I truly mean that, I swear.

I only ever wanted the best things for you, in all of the best ways.

I just can't help but feel like it's a shame

Because I used to want you to have those things with me.

But now that I stopped running

And I'm accepting my fate,

I understand that no one can depict my happiness but me.

I should've wanted that happiness for myself.

Instead, I put my entire soul into loving you

And I went wherever you guided me until I finally fell.

Now that I've reflected on our history

In the years I've spent alone,

I realize that it was never you that I needed to make this house a home.

I was happy with you but I wasn't myself.

I'm not the person you remember,

And I'm pretty sure you can tell.

Your disregard for the pain that you were causing me,

Opened my eyes in unbelievable ways.

It took me a while and I wasted a lot of years.

But at least I can finally say

I made it here.

I still love you and I always will.

But I love a little differently now

Because I'm not the same girl.

I hope you find peace within yourself

And one day you see that this is for the best.

I don't think we were meant to be forever.

But I'm thankful for the lesson.