The heavy metal door opens with a squeak and I hold it up for Kevin before entering the cold hospital room. I gasp when I see my mom laying in a bed with wires all over her body. There's a stool next to the bed so I sit down, taking her hand in mine. It feels cold and... lifeless. Kevin looks at me with an apologetic face.

''What should I do?'' I ask, sighing. Suddenly, Kevin grabs a stool as well, sitting down next to me.

''You know what? One time, my grandpa fell from a ladder when he was painting his house and he was just like this when I came to the hospital'', he says, nodding in my mom's direction. ''I didn't know what to do, but one doctor told me that I could talk to him if I wanted, and that he would maybe listen to me. I didn't believe him at first, of course, but I did try.''

''What did you say?'' I ask.

''I told him about my day in school and a test that I had. I remember telling him that I got ten out of eleven points'' he answers, smiling. ''That was the first time. The second time I talked about something else. The point is that he actually did remember everything that I said when he woke up. He remembered that I got ten out of eleven points on that stupid test. It was insane. You should try talking to her. I'll be outside'', he says, sqeezing my shoulder before leaving the room.

Was that true? Or was he lying to give me hope? I have no idea, but it did inspire me to try. I move a bit closer to my mom before starting to talk.

''I don't know if you can hear me right now, maybe you can, maybe you can't. If you do hear me, I want you to know that I am so sorry for not being here for you. I get if you don't want me to talk about this, so I thought that I could talk about what I've been up to the last few days. I was hanging out with my new group of friends that I really like. I'm here with one of them, his name is Kevin Williams. I met him on that party I was at last sunday and he is really nice. I don't think that I've ever met someone who is as nice as him. He's dating Julia. You know Julia already, so I don't have to describe her, but she is really nice. Travis Mason is also a part of our little group. He is probably the sexiest guy that I've ever seen, but I don't like him like that. He is really funny and he never fails to make me laugh.''

I pause before I start to talk about Billie. Some people are hard to describe.

''And then we have Billie. I know that she's not your favorite person, but I just want to say that she is really nice. She is so incredibly understanding towards me. I can talk to her about everything, you know? She is a singer and she is actually pretty famous, not that it matters, but you get it. Her voice is so beautiful, you should hear her sing one day, your ears will become blessed. She wanted to try out school for a week, so she started going to our school and we worked on a group project about penguins together. I know it's weird, but it was funny. Billie is fantastic, one of the best people that I've ever met. She is caring, kind and really beautiful.''

After that, I kiss my mom's forehead before leaving the room. Kevin's sitting leaned against the wall, looking at me.

''How did it go?'' He asks, getting up on his feet.

''Good, I think. I told her about you guys'', I explain, smiling a bit as we walk back to the elevator.

''That's amazing, I'm proud of you. Do you still wanna go to the lake?'' He asks, pressing the button.

''Sure, let's pick them up!''

Later

We squeeze into the car and I sit next to Travis and Billie. I lean against her shoulder, feeling exhausted.

I wonder if my mom heard anything of what I said. I decided not to tell her about my and Billie's... whatever we have. To be honest, I'm scared to tell people and I don't know why. I guess that I'm just scared of peoples opinions and that sucks. Right now, Travis, Julia and Kevin are talking about something but I don't know what because I'm not really listening.

''How did it go?'' Billie suddenly asks me, making me look up at her.

''I don't know. At first, I didn't really know what to do, but then Kevin told me that I could talk to her. So I did, and it actually felt pretty good'', I answer truthfully.

''See? I told you. You are strong'', she says with a smile before giving me a side hug.

After a while, Kevin stops the car at the same stop as before. I immediately go to the water, the others following close behind me. When we approach the shiny water I sit down on a cliff and Billie quickly joins me. I lean against her shoulder and grab her arm, holding it tightly, as if I'm scared of her letting go. Kevin sits down as well, Julia snuggling into his side and Travis is left alone again.

''Join us, Trav'', I say, not wanting to leave him alone. He grins before sitting down next to me, messing up my hair.

''I hate being cheesy, but I just wanna thank you guys for being so supportive and nice to me'' I say, breaking a comfortable silence.

''You don't have to thank us, man. We'll always have your back'', Travis says, patting my back.

''Exactly. We're fucking bros!'' Billie says, making the others chuckle.

''Not all of us!'' Julia says, acting as if she's mad.

''Oh I'm so sorry. I think that I forgot to attend your wedding'', Billie says, grinning and we all laugh a bit before entering another comfortable silence. I just keep leaning against Billie, breathing in her scent. I do feel really safe when I'm close to her.

Am I a bad person for not crying right now? My mom overdosed, and I'm hanging out with my friends, watching the sunset. I'm probably the worst human ever and I'm pretty surprised that I'm not dead yet.