I wake up, feeling how the sunlight is glowing against my skin through the window. The car is pretty cold, but Billie's warm body is pressed so tight against mine, so there's not a big problem. Carefully, I reach for my phone and I discover that it's only six am. I try to lay back again to get some more sleep, but it just feels more and more uncomfortable so I carefully open the door to the trunk, thanking God that I slept closest to it. After closing the door, I put Billie's black hoodie on, walking to the peacefiul water. It's still a bit dark and cold outside, but I sit down by the water anyway, plugging my headphones in and dreaming away.

You've been up all night, so you don't wanna wait on me

I'm 'bouta catch my flight, so you don't gotta wait on me

No more, you don't wanna, you don't wanna

You don't wanna, you don't wanna, you don't wanna

You don't wanna, you don't wanna

I've been up a very long time, wonder why they hate on me

I don't wanna love myself, I'm praying that they all love me

'Cause you don't wanna, you don't wanna

You don't wanna, you don't wanna, you don't wanna

You don't wanna, you don't wanna

Mornings are so peaceful, especially when I'm outside. It makes it feel like I'm all alone in the world and that calms me down because I hate people. Sometimes, I don't believe that there are good people in this world, because we weren't really made for this world that we live in today. Aren't we like... animals that are supposed to kill each other and try to survive? Instead, we're living this insane, high tech life that we weren't made for at all. So, why would people care about each other when we weren't made for that in the first place? As it lightens up more and more, I hear steps behind me. Turning my head, I see that Travis is the one who walks towards my direction.

''Good morning'', he says, running his hands through the black hair.

He bends down, giving me a side hug before sitting down by my side with his hands on his knees.

''Slept well?'' I ask, not moving my gaze from the water.

''Actually, yes. It was uncomfortable but I somehow managed to fall asleep anyways'', he answers, shrugging. ''How about you?''

''It was good, me and Billie got to sleep in the trunk so it was enough space'', I answer, smiling when I think about her.

''Definitely. How is it going with you two? Are you together?'' He asks.

''I don't know, man. I literally don't know anything about us or what we are. I just like her a lot'', I answer and Travis nods. We stay quiet for a while, probably thinking about our problems. I think that Travis may be going through something hard, considering that he's either quiet or super happy and filled with energy. Maybe it's a coverup?

''What are you thinking about?''

''Are you like... Okay, Trav?'' I ask, turning my head around so I'm finally facing him and he looks surprised. ''We never talk about you. I know about Kevin's problems with his uncle and stuff but I never asked you.''

He stays quiet for a while, so I'm assuming that he's not interested in answering my question but after a while he opens his mouth to speak.

''I usually don't speak about this, because it makes me feel so stupid compared to others. I don't really have a reason to be sad, but that's everything I am. My family loves me, I have caring friends and a good life overall but it feels like there's this... darkness that's hovering all over me, wherever I go and it's literally killling me on the inside'' He pauses, gesturing the feeling with his hands. ''But I know that if I speak out about it and tell people how I feel, they won't understand, because I'm this perfect boy who has everything in the world. So, I rather keep quiet and keep it to myself.''

His explanation makes my heart break and I shuffle closer to him when I see that a single tear has slipped out through his dark brown eyes.

''Hey, it's okay to feel bad, trust me. I know that I'm the wrong person to tell you this because I've been through a lot, but everyone has a bit of sadness and darkness inside of them. It's like two sides, a good and a bad one. Whenever you think about bad things or whatever, the dark side will grow and you will just feel completely lost in yourself. You just need to surround yourself with good energy that can make the good side grow. Everyone feels sad sometimes, is a part of life, but you can't let the darkness take over you because it will kill you on the inside'', I explain, really trying to help him.

''I'll try'', he mumbles, wiping away the tear that's sliding down his cheek. I look at him concerned before pulling him into a hug and rubbing his back. Sometimes, everything you need when you feel down is someone to care. I rest my head on his shoulder, sighing softly. It breaks my heart to feel my friends being sad because they take it so hard. I should probably be the one who's crying right now but to be honest, I've been through so much that I feel completely numb. It's like I can't feel pain anymore, only when people I care about feel it. I just wish that I could take their pain away and put it on myself. After pulling away, I see how the other ones approach the water, looking really tired. I make sure that Travis has covered up any signs of crying before talking to them.

''Finally, good morning'', I sigh, realising that I've been here for two hours. Billie puts her hand on my shoulder and the other on on my cheek, bending down to peck my lips.

''Good morning, dumbass'', she grins, messing up my hair and I try to hit her but she dodges my hand. Kevin pats my back before yawning and putting his hands in his pockets.

''For how long have y'all been up?'' Billie asks, referring to me and Travis on the cliff, sitting pretty close to each other. I can see in her eyes and hear in the way she talks that she doesn't like me and Travis being like this but she doesn't say anything, probably because she knows that there's much going on and she wants to be there for me. It's nice of her but I don't like being a victim and someone that people can't be mad at. I don't know, this is confusing.

''Hello?'' She asks, looking at me confused as I snap back to reality. She almost looks a bit annoyed.

''Uhm, just a couple of hours'', I mumble. The others walk away, talking about something else, probably wanting us to sort out whatever's on her mind.

''What's up?'' I ask as she sits down by my side.

''What were you two talking about?'' She asks, playing with her fingers.

''Nothing, really'', I answer, not wanting to tell everyone about Travis confession to me. She looks at me while furrowing her eyebrows as if she tries to find out if I'm lying or not.

''Are you sure?'' She asks.

''Yeah?'' I say, a bit annoyed because I know that she's jealous but she won't admit it. ''Are you jealous?''

''I'm not jealous, I just don't like the fact that he's interested in you and you're talking to him and hugging him all the time!'' She snaps.

''What are you talking about? He doesn't even like me!'' I defend myself.

''Don't you see the way he looks at you?''

I stand up, looking down at her before answering.

''You wanna know why I hugged him? Because he's going through a hard fucking time right now, and I if someone know how the fuck it feels!'' I pause, running a hand through my hair. ''You know what? I just want you to leave me alone. I can't stand you right now.''

''Ember, wait!''

After the last sentence, I walk away to the others.

''Can we leave?'' I ask flatly, almost feeling how Billie is walking behind me.

''Are you okay?'' Julia asks.

''Can we just leave, please?'' I repeat before entering the car, leaving Julia confused. After a while, we all sit in the car on our way back to Julia's house. It's pretty quiet because no one really knows what's going on between us two. When Kevin stops the car, I walk into the house and jump onto the bed, tangling my body in the covers. Why would I do that? She got jealous, and I told her that I couldn't stand her. I'm about to fall asleep when someone enters the room. I look up and Julia stands in the doorway.

''Hey'', she says.

''Sup.''

She sits down on the edge of the bed, playing with the velvet sheets.

''What happened between you two?'' She asks, looking at me concerned. ''Billie won't talk to any of us.''

''She got jealous because I hugged Travis. H-u-g-g-e-d. I was literally just helping him out because we talked about some real shit, you know? She was pissed because he's apparently in love with me, or whatever.''

''Listen, Billie really likes you. She loves you, okay? I'm not saying that what you're doing is wrong, but if you spend time with a hot guy, of course she's going to be jealous. But, it's not okay to do it when you're in this state and if Travis is going through something hard'', she explains.

''I know.''

''I don't think that she did it to hurt you, she just said something stupid and she does have to apologize. Do you want me to take her here?'' She asks, making me sigh.

''Okay'', I answer, sitting up in the bed and running a hand through my now messy hair. Julia nods before leaving the room and I get ready for talking this shit out.