''Ember! Wake up!''

I ignore the voice, trying to go back to sleep.

''What is this? You told me that you would stop!''

The weird sentence makes me sit up in the bed and I open my eyes to see a pissed off Billie with a pack of cigarettes in her hand. Fuck.

''Billie I-''

''Just, don't. Where did you get these?''

I take a deep breath before answering.

''A drug dealer.''

She stands up and walk over to the trash can, throwing them into it before facing me again.

''Why are you so mad?'' I ask, really pissed about the way she got rid of everything I need.

''Why I'm mad?'' She chuckles. ''I'm so fucking worried about you, that's all! You're literally doing shit that destroys your body!"

"It's only cigarettes!" I outbursts.

"Only cigarettes? So you think that I didn't notice how drunk you were a couple of days ago?" She asks, making me tense. "I must go now, but I hope that you can fucking think about yorself one day, because I don't want you to die when your sixteen!''

After that, she leaves through the door, slamming it hard. I lean back again, feeling how a few tears slip out from my eyes. This is what I mean. I ruin other peoples lifes because I'm fucked up. It's not normal. It will never be normal. I let out a sob before grabbing the sheets, looking out through the window and I see how all the people that walks by on the street look happy. Why can't I be one of them? Will Billie leave me because I drink and smoke? Not wanting anyone downstairs to know about my crying, I whipe my eyes and splash some water onto my face before exiting the bedroom.

"Good morning, Em", Julia smiles as I enter the kitchen and I smile back as good as I can. Kevin nods towards me, as well. I guess that Travis is at his house or something.

"Is everything okay? Billie went out without saying anything to us", she asks, making me bite my lip, trying to find an excuse.

"Uh, I don't really know. We had a little argument, but it's fine", I simply say, trying to play it off.

"Oh, okay'', she says, not really believing me.

''So, that party. When are we meeting up at Travis house?'' I ask to change topic.

''Eight, I think'', she answers. ''You want some breakfast before school?''

''Okay, sure'', I answer, actually feeling a bit hungry. She smiles before putting some pancakes on a plate and putting it in front of me. I thank her and star to eat the pancakes that actually taste really good. Julia has always been the one of us who can cook. Soon, I forget about the food and start to think about Billie instead. What is she doing now? Should I call her? I decide to text her, not wanting anyone here to find out what's going on.

I put my phone down, sighing before standing up again.

''Should we leave?'' I ask Julia and she nods. Kevin stands up as well, yawning before we leave through the front door. As we enter the car, I feel how the familiar knot in my stomach beginns to ache as it always does when I'm nervous. I look out through the window, trying to think about the school and that it's actually better than my own. It actually manages to calm me down a bit. After a while, Kevin stops the car next to the big, modern building. After opening the car door, I pull on the cold metal knob of the glass door, opening it. The now a bit familiar hallway is filled of people that talk about god knows what.

''Hey, Ember!'' An uknown, blonde girl says.

''Hey!'', I greet back, feeling a bit confused. Are people here really that nice? Yo, that's insane. A lot of people smile at me and I don't know how to feel about it. They don't even know me, but I appreciate their kindness, I guess. Julia allowed me to put my stuff in her locker while I'm here, so I follow her before grabbing my books. I lean against the lockers, looking around in the room.

''It's dope here. I don't want to go back to my school next week'', I say, pouting.

''Go with Billie then'', Julia smirks as she closes her locker.

''You know I can't do that, man. I think that I'll just stay home and watch over mom'', I sigh. Julia stops in front of me.

''Okay, I get that you need to see that she's okay, but maybe this is your only chance to be with Billie?'' She starts. ''Your mom has been in there for a while now and she's still okay, right? She'll probably be okay for another month.''

''Julia, she's not okay. I forgot to tell you guys but the doctors called me and asked me to come to the hospital and they told me that she's gotten worse. They don't even know if she'll wake up... ever again'', I say, feeling how my mood sinks like Titanic.

''I'm sorry, Ems. I didn't know'', she mumbles before pulling me into a hug. Not wanting t get emotional, I manage to stop the few tears that are about to slip out from my green eyes.

''Guys, we need to get in now!'' Travis and Kevin shouts, making us pull away before entering the classroom.

I spend the whole hour thinking aout Billie. Why, why would I be so stupid? I've been sending so many texts to her but she won't answer. I manage to finish some works, but it's hard to focus when the blue eyes-girl is stuck inside my mind.

I enter the dining room, sitting down at a table with my food before starting to eat. I try to enjoy the food as much as I can, because next week I have to eat that gross food at my own school.

''I'm so excited!'' Travis smiles.

''Is it something special?'' Kevin asks and Travis nods.

''You know, there is this girl that will go to the party tonight and I really like her. We've been talking for a while now!'' He explains with a smile and we all smile as well becaus as I've said before, Travis deserves a good girl.

''That's amazing, Trav!'' I say. ''What's her name?''

''Her name is Emily'', he says almost immediately.

''Emily Mason, sounds good actually'', Kevin mocks, making me laugh. ''No but seriosy, that's amazing, bro. I told you that you would find someone!''

Okay, so I planned to hang out with Travis this party because Julia and Kevin will probably fuck in the bathroom or something. That plan is now ruined because Travis found a fucking girl. Nice! I'll be alone again. Fuck this, man. I guess that I still have to go, but what will Billie think about t?