"Squad Leader Hanji!!! Please don't stabbed that to me!!!" Eren complained as I raised up the serum in my hand and aim to stabbed it to him.

"Relax Eren this would be more easier if I did this! BWAHAHAHAH!!!" I said and laughed out like a devil with a huge creepy grin on my dear face.

Erwin finally assigned me to make a serum to calm Eren's tits whenever he's on his fabulous Titan form and here it is...

I tied him down BWAHAHAHAH!!!

"NO!!! PLEASE DON'T DO THAT IN THAT WAY!!!"

"Easy... Peasy..... Aaaaand-"

"Squad Leader Hanji!!!" I was ready to stabbed him with the injection until someone interrupted my perfect fit.

"AAARGH!!! I'm So Close!!! Damn It Moblit!!!"

Can they please just let me to stabbed him so freely?!

After I finished off my stupid paperwork I decided to retired to my bed , but still... I can't find a better sleep due to the incident that happened earlier it really affects me.

She bravely confessed her feelings to me yet I hurt her.

I rejected her...

Now she already knows about my hidden relationship with Petra and I bet that she's crying her ass out by now.

I don't know, but I felt a bit sorry for her when specially I gave her a false hope by attaching my lips to her.

I didn't expect that she would take it in the wrong way and maybe it is also my fault for doing it so lovingly to her.

Dammit...

I got up from my bed and make my way outside to get some tea in the mess hall.

Everyone was in their own respective rooms so it basically means that I was walking down the dark corridor alone. I saw a beam of light under the someone's door so I decided to headed into it and scold whoever it is inside that room for breaking the curfew rule.

Tomorrow is an another day of expedition so everyone needs some better rest including me and sadly I can't do it, but I'm strong enough to handle my self.

I leaned my ear closer to the door as I heard a muffled and sobbing sounds and I just realize that I was in front of (Y/n)'s door.

Does she cried for the whole day? I guess I really hurt her feelings.

Maybe I should confront her.

Or maybe not... I think I should need to gave her some space.

"I'm sorry....." I whispered then I kissed my hand and placed it to her door.

I think of her as an annoying brat before, but now I think of her as the opposite way..... Which is respectful.

She is brave enough to confess her feelings to me and yet she considered my answer without complaining, but she even tried her best to hold back the painful beat of her heart and cry in her own.

She's been so really nice to me and in return I terribly hurt her feelings.

I'm really sorry (Y/n) because someone is already owned my heart.

[Don't worry my dear readers because I'm going to make a point of view for all of the important characters]

Okay today is the day. The day were all of us are going to fight for humanity again.

We sat down to our seat in the mess hall to have some breakfast. Some of us look are terrified, anxious and determined. Any different composure was visible to the face of my comrades while me... I admitted that I was a bit anxious because I could die in any moment outside the walls, but I still have to gained a determination to fight properly.

As we chit chatted about the things that might happened to us, (Y/n) came to our table.

"Oh Hi (Y/n)!" I greeted, but it seems like she was not her self. She didn't even greeted me back and she just sat down next to me.

"Hey (Y/n) why do you look so awful? I know it's our expedition, but your not like that, Is there any problem?" Eren asked and almost all of us are getting worried about her instead of the upcoming expedition later.

Oh I should have tell that Eren chose to sit with us rather than with his intimidating team mates, but that doesn't include (Y/n) to those creepy jerks.

She's different from all of us.

"Yeah you even joined with us rather than your squad mates..." Jean said.

"Why are your eyes looked puffy? Is there someone hurt you? I'm going to beat the shit out of someone who makes you cry" Mikasa insisted while a black aura was forming on her figure.

"No... I'm fine don't worry about me. I was just worried due to the difficulty of our mission and I joined in here so I can talk to you guys and Mikasa don't worry no one makes me cried because I cried in my own reason" (Y/n) said and there's a hint of a painful sadness through her voice.

"Let's just mind to do our best for the the expedition okay?! so we can save the humanity!" She added to lighten up the mood as we all faked a smile.

We all exchanged some glances as we all know that she is a terrible liar.

I know she didn't cry about what she mentioned to us, she lied so we can't get worried about her.

There really is a reason why she was acting like that.

It was visible to her eyes that she is... Heart broken.

But whom? Oh maybe she confessed, but been rejected by the..... Captain.

Poor (Y/n) I hope she can move on as soon as possible and we all hated how she looked like a desperated soul.

It doesn't suits her.

We wanted the joyful (Y/n) to came back.

[I'm really sorry if this expedition will be so suck]

I didn't see (Y/n) anywhere... Where the heck is she? I didn't seen her since yesterday.

Everyone was on their horses as we waited for the gate to reopen. I looked around worryingly as I tried to search up for my friend's figure.

There she is! Finally I found you!

She was behind our squad along with the elite unit and she looks so..... Pathetic.

Why the heck she looked like that?

Her head was hanging low as she gripped tightly to her horse's rein. Even her eyes are so red and puffy.

Could it be...

Oh No... I need to comfort her or else she's not going to be able to focus on our mission.

"Erwin can you give me a second please" I seriously asked rather than my usual state.

"Sure thing just make it quick" He agreed and I moved my horse towards her direction.

"Hey what's wrong?" I quietly asked, but it's enough for the two of us to understand.

"No nothing is wrong" She said, not looking up forward.

I heavily sighed and nudged her side using my elbow.

"Oh really? You're such a terrible liar" I sarcastically insisted as I just remembered something.

"Wait don't tell me that..... Shorty rejected you?" I asked a little more quietly ad my face was full of concern.

"Yeah....." She sadly replied and I had a bad feeling about something might happened to her if she stays in a negative state.

"Oh... Listen (Y/n), I'm very proud of you, but it wasn't important if he rejected you, the more importantly is you already told him what you really felt deep inside you aching heart" I tried to lighten up the mood again so she could be able to go back in her usual state.

But I guess it wasn't that easy.

"Hanji..."

This makes me feel more concerned about her. I gripped her shoulder and stare deeply to her eyes.

"You promised me that what ever answer he gave you, You will still remain as positive. Now promised me that you will stay alive!" I said just like a mother to a child and I can't help, but to raise my voice earning the attentions of everyone around us.

But I don't care because all I care is to convince my dear desperate friend to stay alive.

She's more like a little sister to me so I can't afford my self to lose her.

"Hanji you are a squad leader so you have to focus"

"Your are the one who should be focusing! Just promise me to stay alive no matter what happens!"

There we go, we're arguing like shits that didn't give a shit.

"Hanji that's the only thing that I can't promised to you"

"NO!!! STAY ALIVE!!!"

Everyone was looking at us, but that didn't stop me to convince her.

"Oi Shitty Glasses! What the serious fuck is going on in there" Levi yelled out and his voice make me feel irritated for the first time.

Maybe it's because he hurt my dear friend's feelings.

"Nothing Bitch!!! (Y/n) please stay alive! I'm begging you! I don't want to lose you" I pleaded as tears are threatening to come out.

"I'll try, but I won't promise anything to you this time" She forced her self to smile for me and that's enough for me to calm down.

I sighed in relief and make my way towards my squad as the gate starts to reopen and Erwin declared his usual announcement before we could ever leave.

"We will now begin the 57th expedition beyond the walls!"

We prepared are selves as the last word that he needed to declare was enough for us to galloped our horse.

"ONWARD!!!"