Thea

It's been a few months since Zach and I have made things official. I've been waiting to have sex with him but we've done other stuff. Plus, we had to separate because of summer break and it gave me time to talk to Vivian and the girls about doing it.

They've made me confident enough to go for it, rather than feel self conscious or so nervous I'll start to hyperventilate. I think tonight is the night though. Zach has been really good to me and I trust him. I even got a Brazilian wax two days ago in preparation for today.

We've been having some phone sex where we'll masturbate to each other but I'm looking forward to the real thing, even though I feel like I'll need to tranquilize myself to calm my racing heart. Thank you, anxiety.

It's a warm August day. Just two weeks before classes start. I was able to convince the school to allow me back on campus a little earlier than everyone else in preparation for the new yoga classes I'll be teaching.

That's right, ya girl got her yoga instructor certification and I will be teaching beginner and intermediate level classes at the school's gym. I am so pumped to be making money on something that I love and that calms me. I hope to also encourage other people to feel the same way I do when I do yoga.

It's especially helped me when I moved back home over summer break to live back with my parents. I realized then how nice I had it while living independently and without the pressure of both of them constantly asking about my next semesters courses. Yoga was my way out of the stress they gave me.

I love them, but sometimes I just need a break from them.

I grab a cart from the office in my new dorm, unloading stuff from my car (yes, I was able to bring my car onto campus!) then push the cart into the elevator, hitting the seventh floor while also facetiming Kari, Sienna and Stella.

Kari picks up on the first ring because she is the most excited while the other two follow after.

"Hey bitches!" She says while balancing her phone on her desk

"Hiii" Stella, Sienna and I say

"Lets see the new place, I wanna see how much of a step up it's gonna be from last year's." Kari says excitedly

"Okay, give me a sec." I say while sliding the key into the door and turning the lock

We all lucked out on this new building because of how good all of our grades are. Sophomores with higher grades get priority pick because of it and we're right next to the school's gym. Perfect for me, since I won't have to walk far for my early morning classes.

As I walk into our new dorm, I flip the camera for the girls to see the new place. I'm also automatically hit with the cool ac air, something we never had the luxury of having last year.

On stifling hot days like this, it's perfect. I can't help but feel giddy at all the new things I'm feeling this year.

Sophomore year, no longer the babies on campus but still young enough to do stupid stuff and not be too judged on it. Car on campus, new job, and newly renovated building I'm gonna be living in with my closest friends. I feel like I haven't stopped smiling since I was offered the instructor job last month.

"Oh my godd, it's so much nicer than last year" Sienna gushes as I give them a quick tour. The bathroom is even larger and the lighting is brand new. I can see us doing our makeup in here together already.

"I get first pick of the room since you bitches aren't here. Stella and I are gonna take the bigger room this time". I say with a smirk

"Fine, that's fair." Kari says while rolling her eyes in good nature

"I miss you guys so much, I can't wait for you to get here." I say to them

"We miss you too!" Stella says

"And tell us how it goes tonight!" Kari says nosily

I smile bashfully.

"Don't get all sweet on us now. We know about all the dirty things you've been up to." Sienna states while wiggling her eyebrows

"Be safe and tell us if there's anything we need to bring over!" Stella pronounces

"Love you bitch, good luck tonight and text the chat if you get nervous. Remember, you don't have to do anything you don't want to!" Kari says protectively

"Kay, love you guys too. I'll make sure to text y'all byee!" I say before we all hangup

My life would be very different without those three.

For the next few hours, I unload my car and unpack my stuff to make the place seem more homey. At least I won't be completely alone, I'll most likely be at Zach's place anyways. Sometimes, however, I like to have my own space and come back to do my own thing.

Zach and I spent as much time as we could together last semester, but that was only for a month or two before we had to leave campus. We visited each other as much as we could over summer break too, but we were a two hour drive from each other's houses and with me trying to get my yoga certification, I was pretty busy.

Now that he's a junior, he's living off campus and moved in a few days ago with some of his lax teammates. Apparently his house is going to be the party house which sucks, but at least his bedroom is upstairs on the second floor, farther away from the party area in the basement and living room on the first floor.

Just as I finish packing my clothes, I check the time on my phone and text Zach.

: Hey, just finished packing my clothes and gonna hop in the shower and prep for my yoga classes before coming over

: Take your time, I'll be here for the rest of the day. Can't wait to see you ;)

: Can't wait to see you too, I'll be there maybe around 5ish

I have about 3 hours to shower since I'm all sweaty from the unpacking, do some yoga at the gym then come back to freshen up again before seeing Zach. I've subtly told him that I'm ready to have sex but haven't outright said it so I'm not sure if he's caught on to what I want.

After showering, I slip into a cute matching set of soft black biker shorts and a matching halter top. I put my hair up into a clip and slip on some white sneakers before popping my air pods in and heading out with my yoga mat and tote of essentials.

It's too hot to wear any kind of sweater but I toss a light cropped sweater in my bag anyways in case it get's chilly in the gym.

I'm singing along to "I Wanna Know" by NOTD and Bea Miller and walking over to the gym when a large hand taps my shoulder and scares the shit out of me.

"Hey, Thea. Sorry for scaring you, long time no see." Quinn says while chuckling

"Jesus, you should've walked in front of me instead or something" I say while clutching my chest

"Got it, you shouldn't be listening to music too loud. It's dangerous even though it's daylight." He says, while pulling me into a hug and releasing me.

"How have you been, sweetheart?"

My heart warms at the endearment. I haven't seen Quinn in months. There's not much reason since Will and I don't really hang out much anymore. We haven't been able to anyways because of break.

That is a whole other thing I don't want to think too much about. After they lost their championship, Will and I hung out a handful of times since I was busy with Zach. It was exactly what Zach seemed to prefer.

He asked how our friendship has been but to be honest, it's been kind of non existent which seemed to make him content? I've reassured him several times that we have never been anything more then friends but he seems to not like Will. I'm assuming it's because of his history with the other gender.

The basketball players are also more well known on campus in comparison to the lacrosse guys. Will is very popular, knows everyone and can befriend most people. It's why I always felt comfortable around him despite his status. He made me feel comfortable in my own skin.

They've even met each other twice but it was really awkward. Will was doing his best to act his usual charming and friendly self but Zach didn't seem to have it. Guess the charms only works on the ladies?

After that whole debacle, things between Will and I haven't been the same. We've tried our best to maintain our friendship but theres almost a disconnection between us now. Before, we texted somewhat frequently and also Facetimed each other when we were bored. I figured our summer would consist of Facetimes.

Unfortunately, that's not the case and I feel somewhat hollow because of it. I feel like I ruined our friendship. I did my best to keep moving forward and focus on who I have. The girls, Vivian and Zach.

But there are times I miss Will so much it hurts. He was my best friend after all.

"I'm good! I'm actually going to be teaching yoga. I just got certified over the summer so I'm really excited about that."

"I'm assuming you'll be doing all that at the gym? Let's walk together"

"Sure." I say with a smile

I've missed him too. He used to come to movie nights at my dorm last semester, hating scary movies as much as I do but he refuses to admit to it and I have a strong suspicion it's because it's not "manly". I internally roll my eyes. Men. Always need to make big deals about stuff.

"Why are you on campus so early?" I ask

"Practice and conditioning. I'm running a little late today because I was talking to my advisors about one of my classes. You should come say hi really quick. Coach is pretty chill about stuff now until classes actually start, then he's on our asses so he won't mind if you stop by."

I bite my lip nervously. I don't know how to feel about this. It's going to be weird if I see Will after not speaking to him in months too. It's different with him because we were really close at one point. But I can't outright say no. I don't have a good excuse other than I'm practicing some poses before I start teaching class.

"I'm down, it's been a while."

As we walk into the stadium I hear the sound of a basketball dribbling and a bunch of male laughter. I'm automatically assaulted by the testosterone and am aware of the skimpy yoga set I'm wearing. I didn't think I would be seeing a bunch of dudes today. I didn't even realize there would be a bunch of people on campus.

Thank god these aren't the biker shorts that give me a camel toe.

Some of the guys are playing on the court while other's are taking water breaks and fucking around.

"Yo, Thea!" I hear and see Devon yell while walking up to me

I wave to him briefly before my eyes flit to Will who's head turns mid conversation to look at me from his teammate. He frowns slightly and an emotion crosses his eyes. My stomach drops, I knew this would be a bad idea. We haven't exactly been the best friends we claimed to be right before his championship game months ago.

"Hey!" I say while Devon yanks me up into a tight hug

"What's up T? What are you doing here on campus so early?"

I look around him to see Will fall back into conversation with the other guy before tapping his shoulder. He grabs the bottom of his damp tshirt, wiping his sweaty face with it before yanking it off and making his way over to our little group. I take a deep and nervous breath as Devon puts me down. I haven't heard what's been going on with Dev and Sisi lately but I'm curious to know if they're still hooking up. Not that I'll ask him. Definitely a question for Sienna.

"She's settling in early before teaching some yoga classes." Quinn fills in for me as Will reaches us

"Hey, Jameson" I say with a fake smile on my face. I'm gonna do my best to not make things weird but do I hug him? Oh god this is so awkward, what do I do?

He answers this for me when he gives me a quick side hug in greeting. Nothing like how our old hugs were. Not even as personable as Quinn and Devon's. I'd almost prefer no hug at all.

"You got that instructor certification you've been wanting huh?" Will says to me

"Yep, I start next week!"

Happy to have something to talk about to ease the tension between us, we may be trying to act normal but you could cut a knife through this tension.

"I'm happy for you, T. Uh, listen we actually need to get back to practice. We can catch up next time though." He says, while pointing his thumb back and walking backwards towards the court.

His eyes still have the stonyish feeling despite the politeness in his voice. And I'm struck all over again on what I could've done better to keep our friendship alive.

"Sure, I'll see you guys." I say with a small grimace on my face and wave to them

"See ya Thea." Devon and Quinn wave back to me as I exit the gym, unnoticing of how uncomfortable I am.

I refuse to turn around as I exit the door but I can feel a set of eyes on me. I may not know what I could've done differently to keep my best friend, but I definitely do know that there won't be a "next time" for us to truly catch up. I wonder if he feel the same way that I do?