For the longest time now

For the longest time

I have been meaning

To pay you a visit.

It's not that easy, you see

To be a strong rock always

Like you and your people hold me as

I am grateful.

But I have moments of weaknesses too.

When I need to meet you

And sit with you

In solitude

Our breaths filling up the cosmos.

Why aren't you letting me, Krishna?

College assignments, physical fatigue

Sometimes you yourself close your doors from afar

Why do you

Tease me so?

You take me back home

To gardens, flowers, calves and butter

Afar, from this choking city.

You think

Your visage

Will break me into fragments?

Your charming efflorescence

Will reduce me to

Tears of reminiscence?

I've endured worse, Krishna.

When will you know me completely?

Perhaps never.

Which man has ever completely understood a woman?

Save the sweet nothings

And your physical caresses

For the night when I dream.

But when the sun hangs in the sky,

At least let me visit

your clay lookalikes?