----- Dead Apple : Without Me

|| O3. Dark Age, Brand New D. Osamu

Seven years ago...

"THIS would be the first and the last time I kill people, [Y/N]. Please let me be. I do it for you too, so you don't have to deal with him in the future." That's what Odasaku said to you.

Dazai already offered his most expert subordinates to Odasaku. And at that time you were with him. You begged him to not to go alone. But, "Kousuke, Shinji, Yuu, Katsumi and Sakura will be so lonely there without me." The five children you and your brother saved during the Dragon Head Rush Conflict two years before were the reason for his revenge. He doesn't even think about your life in the future.

You know what was the most dangerous consequences he'll got. And that nightmare became true.

"Odasaku!" You froze at the entrance, seeing Dazai running to your brother who was lying on the floor. You know this will happen, but you can't accept the fact that your only reason for living is gone. You felt like you'll die from something. You forgot how to breathe.

At least it was before you stopped spacing out and you realized what happened. "Brother!" You screamed your lungs out. "Brother," your tears broke out when you saw Odasaku's almost lifeless body.

"You're an idiot, Odasaku! You're a complete idiot!"

"Dazai!" You shouted weakly between you sobs at Dazai who kept cursing at your brother.

Odasaku's trembling hand was trying to reach out your hand. You immediately grabbed his hand.

"[Y/N], Dazai, there's something i want to say to you."

"No! Please don't! You might still make it! No, you will make it! So don't talk like-"

"Listen!" You can only hold Odasaku's hand tightly. Not even a single word can escaped from your lips.

Odasaku let his grip go from your hand and gripped Dazai's hair. [ A/N : Is it? Or his cheeks? Dunno! ] "You told me you might find a reason to live if you lived in the world of violence and bloodshed."

"Yeah, I did. But who cares what I said now."

"You won't find it!" Dazai was shocked while you looked down to Odasaku. You bit your bottom lip and gripped the fabric of your bottom outfit. You know how many times Dazai was suffering to find his living reasons.

"You must know that already. Whether you on the side who kills people or the side who saves people, nothing beyond what you would expect will appear." You can saw Dazai's regretful expression. "Nothing in this world can fill that lonely hole you have. You will wander the darkness for eternity."

There was a silence between them. Tears won't stop flowing and you can only cried in silence.

"Odasaku, what should I do?" Dazai asked him.

"Be on the side that saves people." Dazai gasped at the words.

"Brother?" And you were as shocked as Dazai. You looked at Odasaku

"If both sides are the same, become a good man. Save the week, protect the orphans. And [Y/N]," Odasaku cupped your cheek with his trembling hand. You hold his hand that resting on your cheek. "What is it, Brother?"

"I will not forbid you to stay as a mafia. Your happiness is my priority. But, you also have to be a good women. Stop your killing habit if it's not for your safety. I don't want my little sister to get hurt because of her own habit." You can only nodded while tried to hold back your tears. You don't know if you can life after that because Odasaku is your happiness too.

You let his hand go as he gripped Dazai's hair again. "Neither good nor evil means much to both of you, I know but that'd make you at least a little bit better. [Y/N], Dazai, you need to protect each other!"

"Why can you entrust [Y/N] to me that easily? How do you know that for sure?" Dazai asked to Odasaku.

"Of course I know. I know better than anyone. Especially, I know you love my sister so much, aren't you?" Both of you were shocked. You both stared at each other. Odasaku had just revealed your feeling, same as Dazai. He already know it since the first day you became Dazai's personal aide.

"Beside that, I know it because... I'm [Y/N]'s brother, and I am your friend."

Your reason to breathing was gone. But he gave you another reason for you to enjoy every breath you have. The brand new Dazai Osamu who finally can escape from the darkness.

: Are you guys crying?! Please don't cry~! Well, i was crying when i wrote this. I miss Odasaku. How 'bout you? Please don't cry! Can this picture makes you better?

So precious:( Btw, true mafia torture~

BTW, Guess what?! IT'S OUR PRETTY SUICIDE BASTARD'S BIRTHDAY~ IT'S DAZAI BIRTHAY GUYS~! IT'S DAZAI BIRTHDAY~! MAKE A WISH MAKE A WISH MAKE A WISH~! GOSH, I LOVE HIM SO MUCH~

By the way... in our calender, today, Dazai was officially 23. With this shit again, Odasaku died when he was 23. Beside, he always treats Atsushi like what Odasaku did to him. He lived life like Odasaku too. What if after this he loses direction again and actually dies. HUAA DON'T! DON'T TILL HE DO IT ~ IF HE'S DEAD, I'M GONNA DIE ~! SHIT, DON'T DIE~! I MEAN, DON'T CRY!!!

This, this, another one for you~

Better?

TBC,

Dead Apple : Without Me

June, 2020