----- Dead Apple : Without Me

|| 1O. An Assassin, Symphony of Lies

"Remember me, no time cannot erase. I can hear your whispers in my mind. I've become what you cannot embrace. Our memory will be my lullaby." -A. Walker

NO other days in Yokohama underground society produced as many corpses as those 88 did. Many organizations were involved in that bloodbath. .

This made you sick. Yes, you were an assassin, you were a killer who loves to kill anybody who tried to even looked at you. But when you looked at those corpses, it's only make you want to throw up.

"Brother, who is this?" You asked to your brother who squatted in front of someone. You saw a cute little baby crying. "Poor thing," you said.

"You're lucky to be alive in this situation." Said your brother, Odasaku.

"Odasaku."

Odasaku touched his right ear where his earpods tucked. "Dazai, where are you?"

"I have a feeling and I know what you're up to, but you need to run. It's not going to be safe there for long."

"Piss off, you scrub!" Odasaku snapped by that voice. Like a lighting, your outfit and hair were a mess because the speed of the motor that just passed you and your brother, moving beyond its speed.

"Can that idiot stop showing off?" You asked knowing that ginger human was trying to be a cool young man again. You're not said he's cool, but he was an idiot for you. Yes, to you, a Nakahara Chuuya is just an idiot. A year before this, he stabbed by his own member. And as Dazai's personal aide, you were there when Dazai and Chuuya were making a deal.

"Hi, Chuuya. You're in the range of the enemy. Takes some bullets and die, thanks!"

"Shut up!" Chuuya growled.

"And [Y/N]-chan, take that little girl to somewhere save. Be a good dog just the way you are and get back to your works."

You sighed. This what you got when you become his personal aide a.k.a his guard dog. "As your wish, Master Dazai." You answered him lazily.

You formed your knives wings from your own ability and took the little girl with you. "Be safe, Belladonna!"

You rolled your eyes and turned off your phone connection with Dazai.

[ A/N : Kaori from Your Lie in April and Yuzuru from Angel Beats will be a great cameo, seriously. ]

"Where is [Y/N]-chan?" As the girl stopped sing her melody, she searched for you.

"I'm here, Kaori."

"Glad you're okay." She smiled.

"Kaori!" A boy shouted at her. you controlled one of your knife to kill the your enemy that tried to shoot Kaori.

"My ability, Symphony of Lies!" After that, a beautiful but dangerous melody made your enemy collapsed.

[ A/N : Symphony of Lies is an ability that makes the users can control any kind of voices around her/him. The mrlody song or voice from this ability can pierce any target's ears until it hurt or die ]

"Thanks, Oto-chan!" Kaori smiled sweetly at the boy.

"If Otonashi doesn't scream like that, you're done." You said. The boy called Otonashi refilled his gun with the new bullets.

"Is it safe there?" The three of you can hear Dazai voice.

"Where are you now?" You asked.

"Look to the building at the west. I'm there. Odasaku and half of my subordinates at the building in the east."

"I think it's safe here. I don't feel there are other enemies here." Otonashi reported the situation.

"Hm, good! Beautiful melody as always, Kaori-chan." Praised Dazai to Kaori as one of his subordinates.

"Thank you, Dazai-chan!" She said it cutely.

"You can retreat now. Me and Odasaku will watch you our place."

"YES, SIR!" You guys shouted.

"I can't wait to eat some Mabo Tofu." Otonashi growled along with his stomact.

"After this, Oto-chan." Kaori ginggled.

But, you don't know it would be your last night with those two. A bad feeling haunted you.

As Dazai's dog, you need to do everything he said.

Your Sadistic Mode turned on and turned you to a demon. You stood in silence with death bodies surround you. Your hands covered with blood and it stained all over your outfit.

"As i expected from this sadistic girl." Kouyou smirked.

DEG! DEG!

"Hngh!"

Your chest felt so tight. Your breath hitched. You felt like someone was strangling you. Your hand squeezed the shirt that you wear so hard, hoping the tightness will disappear. Your head felt dizzy. Your other hand grabbed your hair hard.

Your eyes are perfectly rounded when you realized what you really fear.

"What is this? Why do I have a bad feeling? W-what will happen? Or-"

"Anee-san, where did Dazai put Kaori and Otonashi?" You asked Kouyou in panic.

"Some of our member have retreated. But Kaori and Otonashi are still on guard there." Kouyou pointed a human couple who were on guard. "Our main enemy hasn't appeared. Be careful!" You nodded.

"Kaori! Otonashi! Thank goodness, you guys are okay!" You feel a little more relieved. Even though your chest still hurts.

But then, time seems to stop spinning. You can't heard a single sound. Your vision blurred for a moment. Until-

"[Y/N]!!!"

Your eyes are perfectly rounded. A gunshot rang out, hurting your ears. But after that, you can't hear the sounds around you anymore.

The last thing you know, a red-haired man stood in front of you. He looked at you with his annoying smirk. Even so, you know he was enduring an extreme pain in his chest. "Stupid! How long will you be this careless?" Blood flowed from the tip of his lips.

"Oto... nashi." Your voice was almost inaudible.

Already lacking much strength, Otonashi dropped himself on you. You sat with Otonashi's almost lifeless body in your arms. "Looks like I have to go to Hatsune's place now. She must be getting lonely without me." He said with a gasping breath.

Without you knew it, your tears have wet your cheeks. You just realized what Otonashi just said. "Wait! Otonashi! What the hell are you- You're not-"

"Continue your life, [Y/N]."

Your hand trembled. You can't stand all the pain your heart feels. "OTONASHI!" You cried your heart out, taking out all the pain in your heart.

Everyone stared at you, not believing what they have just seen.

"Oto-chan," Kaori said softly, tears fell to her cheeks. She grabbed her own hair, feeling the sudden headache.

"What a beautiful drama." The white-haired man stood on the top off a building.

"HE'S OUR MAIN ENEMY, KILL HIM!" You heard Kouyou shouted to the mafia members.

You can only be silent, Otonashi's body which began to freeze was still in your arms. You feel that your life... is over.

Your enemy told all his subordinates to attack. Strangely, you can't heard any single bullet's sound. All the screams of pain from those injured cannot enter your ears.

"My ability, Symphony of Lies!" But at least, you could heard Kaori's voice.

"What a beautiful voice. I want her ability!"

Kaori was surprised because her voice didn't work on the person. She stood in front of you to continue the fight. Until you realized Kaori is too focused on her main enemy, and forgot the minions before her.

"Kaori!"

Before you knew it, a sharp weapon has been pierced right in Kaori's chest. Fresh drops of blood fell on your cheeks. Kaori vomited blood from her mouth. You can't feel anything afterwards.

"Run, [Y/N]-chan... Y-you need to stay a-alive." A pink-reddist-colored crystal flew toward your enemy. "What a beautiful ability."

You turned around, realizing Kaori's body would fall when the enemy drew out his weapon. But-

BANG! BANG! BANG!

You heard the gunshot three times. You looked up, found your brother already hold Kaori's lifeless body. He fired three bullets at the enemy's foot. You know your brother never dares to kill others. So the shots was just a warning to retreat.

"Odasaku, killing one person is not a big sin if it's to protect your sister."

You heard a loud shoot from the enemy's back. Not too long, the enemy collapsed to the ground. You can saw Dazai spinning his gun and put it in his coat pocket.

Dazai looked around. Many gifted mafia members died there. "Our enemy only target those who are gifted?" He asked to Odasaku. "Maybe, they already retreated."

At that time, silence surrounded you. You can even heard your own breath. The smell of blood wafted, piercing your nose. Odasaku lay Kaori's body which began to cool down beside you.

You looked at them. they looked so calm as if they're sleeping.

Guilt embraced. Your heart screamed and cursed a nonsense things. Again, tears fell on your cheeks. You tried your hardest not to make the any kind of sound. But the silence that surrounds makes your voice heard. "Damn it! This is all my fault. If I could be more careful, they wouldn't-" You cried out, cutting your own sentences. "At this rate, I should die too. Why are you leaving me with this guilt?"

Even Odasaku can't do anything. If he calmed you down, it's the same as he underestimated your feelings. He let you released all your emotions.

"They're gone. There's no point in you blaming yourself like that. They wouldn't return to this world. They've gone to a different world, far away from us." Dazai sentences pulled you forcefully out to face the reality.

You stayed still at your place with Otonashi's corpse in your arms. In silence, you lay down Otonashi's body beside Kaori's. You looked at them without saying a single word.

You got rid of the bangs that covered Kaori's face. "Sleep well, Kaori."

You looked at Otonashi's face. Your trembled hand stroked his cheek gently. "Sleep well, Otonashi."

You lowered yourself to align your face with both of them. You pecked Otonashi and Kaori's cheeks. "Rest in peace, you two."

You got up. You still looked down. Everyone stared at you, watching what you are about to do. Because basically, when you go out of control, none of them can stop you. Even with Dazai and Odasaku. If anyone bothers you, you will not hesitate to kill them.

"This isn't the time to rest, right?" You mumbled. Everyone knew what will happen. The reason they fear you. Your rage.

You turned around to face Dazai. "Dazai, Chuuya had indeed destroyed their main headquarter. If we can't defeat them, at least we will make him leave here." You walked pass him. It was your coldest tone they ever heard from you. "If we can finish off all of his subordinates in Yokohama, our main enemy will think twice to attacking us again. Does that sound correct?" You asked.

"Yeah, but they've all been scattered and hiding in places that are hard to find. Any other idea?" Dazai answered you.

"Since when did Port Mafia become a coward organization like this?" You asked, stabbed other members with your words.

"She doesn't love her live. Boss will kill her if he hears that." Said Hirotsu.

"Aren't we Port Mafia? Aren't we Yokohama's Wardens of the Night? We control the city at night and everyone feared us. Since when has this become an obstacle for us?" You asked.

Your Angel of Death's wings formed. You took one of the knife. "If not one of you wants to come with me, I'll do it myself. Even if I'm alone, I can do it by myself." All were silent, stunned from your sentences. You pointed the sharp weapon in your hand to them. "How pathetic. You all can only stay here while waiting for boss disappoint to you."

"Wait a second! Are you crazy?!" You looked at Ace, one of Port Mafia executive. "Are you want to die?!"

"That's only if they kill me. Lives are paid with lives. That's the law we know in Port Mafia." You stared at the two corpses of your bestfriends. "Not only for Kaori and Otonashi, but I'll make them pay for all the corpses they killed in Yokohama."

The flutter of your knives wings makes your feets released their footing on the ground. You flew away as fast as you can to avenge the lives of your two bestfriends.

"Damn it! I just asked if she had any other ideas. She's the real stray dog, huh?" Dazai smirked.

"You really pushed my sister too much." Said Odasaku.

"Not my fault~"

"Ace-san, take your subordinates to the south of Yokohama, Kouyou-san to the north, Black Lizzard to the west and I will follow [Y/N] to the east. GO!" He demanded it to all the members.

"She can always surprise me. That's the reason why I like her." Said Koyou and ready to do what Dazai said.

You spend the rest of night to let your rages out. You killed 80% of your enemy's troops by yourself. Dazai amazed by what you did. "Well, well, she can cut my throat with one of that knife. I don't mind it if it's hurt." Said Dazai. "That Sadistic Shadow, our Angel with the Shotgun is back."

"It's true that there's no point in me blaming myself. But still, they died because of me. I will never forgive myself. I can only try to atone for my own sins. Rest in peace, Kaori, Otonashi. Please wait me there."

Since that tragedy, since that time, you have realized your strength has weakened. You were not as wild as that time. You have become more careful in your actions. You're not as careless as before. You do what your two friends say to STAY ALIVE.

Especially, you'll always miss them. You'll miss Otonashi cold but care attitude. You'll miss Kaori's beautiful voice and melody. You'll miss them. You want them to watch you from there.

: OMG, LONGEST CHAPTER I WROTE THIS FAR. I'M HAPPY~ Is this bad? OMG I'M SORRY~ PLEASE JUST ENJOY THIS, I WOULD BE VERY-VERY HAPPY~ SEND MY LOVE TO YOU FROM DAZAI!

Dark Era Dazai annoyed mood is my new aesthetic...

By the way, young Chuuya with this reddist-pink motorcycle was hot, wish i can see it again.

TBC,

Dead Apple : Without Me

July, 2020