It's already been three months we married. We both still sleeping in bed together but Arjun will always sleep late than me and wake up earlier than me. I don't know how he can do that?.

He always exercise at gym for 40 minutes after went for jogging for 20 minutes. Then he will do yoga for 10 minutes. Later he will take bath for 30 minutes. I don't know what he do at bathroom for that long. For me it's only 10-15 minutes. He will take another 20 minutes to get ready.

Therefore, he always wake up first, with me later. I woke up at 7.30am normally and if I need to wash my hair I woke up at 7.20am.

I always use cherry blossom products. Every product of me have scent of cherry blossom. I actually fall in love with this amazing scent when I was 12 years old. From that onwards I always use products with cherry blossom smells.

It's really smells good as it's have mixture smells of floral like cherry blossom, rose, Amber, vanilla and sandalwood. Together it's essences pure delicate faint sweet floral fragrance.

I use the same products from same brand since I was 12 years old. That time I can only purchase hair syampoo, body wash and lotion.

If you see I use more products on my hair as I love to take care my hair than anything. I really love hair so much. As I work at part time job when I was 16 years old and from that time I buy all the products that the brand are offerings. So I was the loyal customer for 12 years. I have gets discounts and sometimes gift vouchers from the brand.

I still work as his PA and at work place he really treat me like his employees. I cannot disclose about our wedding because of grandma and I didn't wear sindoor and hide wedding chain when I'm working as per Arjun's order. I don't why he asked not to wear sindoor or show any symbols that I am married women.

In the house only Aatharva will talked to me and dad sometimes will greeted me if he was at home. Yamuna, she is neutral. She just don't care about my presence in this house. Grandpa even though he didn't like me but he never scold me not like grandma.

She unfailingly scold and yelling at me even for small matters. If she didn't humiliate me by comparing to that Sadhana then she won't be feel peaceful. She make sure to bring me feel very down and reminding me how uncompatible I am for Arjun.

She constantly body shaming me, she talked bad about my no more parents, my upbringing, my poor background, my mentality and attitude and mostly everything of me.

Although, I ignored her words but it's sometimes managed to pierce my hearts. Whenever, I saw Arjun I can't help to think how correct she was and will feel bad about it.

Then, I am really proud of myself because I never ever shows my emotions and cry in front of her or anyone.

Since I was kid until now, I always make sure to not cry in front of anyone even Sandya. I often cry when I'm in shower so that no one will know. No matter how hard it is I make sure to show my don't care expression and not to cry. It's always works, either they will stop whatever hurt me or admire of my strong mentality.

I don't like when someone show sympathise on me. I don't care what others think about me as long as it is not as weak person. A

Actually, I always grateful to my brain as it's has auto delete function especially on something that hurt me. I mostly can't remember yesterday's incident. I will have blur memories only except for things that my brain wanted to keep. That's the reason I don't carry baggage and forgive people easily and also trust people blindly doesn't matter how many times they betray me and cheated. This is the reason for Mother and Sandya's worried.

I have this philosophy 'To trust or love you is my decision but to break it or not it's your decision'. It's was told by my English teacher when I was in standard 3. He is my favourite teacher that's why I can remember it and it's is one of my favourite quotes.

Arjun seems like doesn't care about me like Yamuna but he will acknowledge my presence. I told you, they both are very similar to each other. I wonder who they took after?.

Vidya aunty is really sweet and kind person while dad is quiet person. He doesn't talk much but he is very sweet too. Whenever, he was at home, he would play "dam" with me and teach me how to play chess.

At first he was excited to teach me but later give up because of my brain capability. He is man with a lots of patient. He only give up after he tried teach me for this 3 months. Everybody I know even Sandya will always scold, yell and be frustrated with my never end learn brain.

Aatharva and Aleena are dating now after I closed them in store room last month. I just get irritates with them. They like each other but shy to express their feeling. For that, I received head smack from Sandya and ear twist and bonus with angry glare from my husband. Vinay is the only understanding me and supporting me.

As a good wife, I will preparing everything for him. Not everything just the thing I'm good at it. I will ironing his clothes for wearing to work, serve his food and drink, learning to tying a tie from Aleena.

Later I will the one tying for him. It is my favourite work because it's feel intimate and I can be close to Arjun. Beginning, he really hates it and avoiding me but later he just accept his defeat. I can be very stubborn.

At work Im like dead person, I will just stare at my computer blankly and also have to go through some crap works.

It's really hard to be a worker. When I was kid, I always wanted to grow up fast to get a job and money. Now, I wanted to be kids forever and never grew up. You will know how hard it is when you was doing important work and your computer just shut down by it's self without saving anything and you have to redo from the beginning or the moment when you feel like worn out by continuous work but only to see it's just 10 minutes has passed. When you were in serious mode on working but get notifications for a meeting but they only need you for the last item on agenda. This is my working life.

My marriage life on other hand is blissful when you blessed your eyes with handsome Arjun just in towel and wet hairs. You able to get the perfect pictures of his toned chest and his strong muscles. He have good skin. Their family genetic is very good and maybe that the reason they are so picky. I can ogling him whenever I wish and no need to feel bad.

I also create my opportunity by kissing him in cheeks every morning and also steal his clothes. I like to be in his clothes. It's big, comfortable and smell like him.

I will tried to act elegantly when he is around. Just to show him I'm not teenager anymore and very matured type woman. One of my co-worker said man like matured girl than childish girl.

Therefore I behave like a lady In front him but only to failed terribly everytime. He always caught me in awkward situation, something about me that I don't want him to see.

One day I was keenly watching Lion King in our room, Arjun was in his study room. I was alone at room. Therefore, after the movie finish, I took Annie with me and went to our room balcony and reenact the opening scene with Annie to know how it's feel liked. I started to laugh like an idiot because I feel I'm so hilarious. I turn to front only to shock with Arjun standing at door while crossing his arm and looking weirdly at me.

Other than that, I was at garden area talking to the plants with my baby voice and try to singing like an opera singer. I did that because I thought I was alone but everyone were sitting there and watching me like I'm a somekind of weird alien. I can't blame them as my singing voice and my baby voice is something not pleasurable to your ears.

All of this is nothing compared to today's incident. Today is Sunday, as usual I will chill out by putting loud funky type music and dance like crazy person.

Since it is Sunday evening, Arjun won't stay at room or at home and will be out with Vinay and come at around dinner time only.

I was in happy mood because grandma went to her friend's grandson marriage. I only in my monkey cartoon printed black bra and strawberry printed panty while dancing, shaking my bums and body feeling the music. I didn't heard the sound of door opening due to loud music.

I was excitedly dancing while turning around and freeze seeing at my surprised looking husband. I was in very helpless situation because I couldn't cover myself as I throw the towel far away from me and I cannot run because I have to cross him to go wardrobe or bathroom. The only thing I can do is hiding under the duvet.

That moment I realised that my guardian Angel has given up on me long time ago because of my constantly causing troublesome.

I am dying in embarrassment it's first time someone look at me in only undergarments, he now must think I'm a pervert person dancing in just bra and panty.

After feel like he was out from the room, I slowly peeked through my duvet to confirm that Arjun really went out. But to my horror, he was standing in front of bed looking straight at me. I quickly hide back in duvet and feel something has been thrown on me.

Then, I heard him saying to wear that and came out from bed now as he has something to tell me. I wear the simple looking cute night dress in the duvet and came out.

I didn't looking at his face at all when he explaining about the paper work that I need prepared tomorrow.

After he finished explaining, he said teasingly "strawberry and monkey?. I must said you have really weird type taste". Since I was really shocked with his teasing I look up at him with wide eyes and saw him smirk at me. From that moments I decide to avoid him until I forget this moments.

(Her look)

(The dress Arjun thrown at her)

It's not that every Sunday I will dance in my undergarments. I just being overly excited with the news of Grandma being away and I can have whole freedom of today. In that thrilled feeling and the music vibes made me to throw the towel around me far away and dance like a mad person. I truly regret of my unconscious behaviour on today.

I was sitting at garden running away from my husband and trying to brainwash my mind about today's incident. 'It's ok. It just your husband saw you and it's just a happy dance. Not a big deal. Don't worry. Take it cool and let's forget it'. I keep repeating it in my mind continuously until I feel better.

I coming to my room and saw Arjun was sitting at sofa with his laptop on his lap. Feel my presence, he look at me and he have that smug expression which I badly wanted to claw if from his face. I ignoring him and walked towards bed and flopped into the bed and pulling the duvet until my neck.

I heard he saying "I feel like to eat strawberry and watching the monkey king movie today. You want to join?". I pull the duvet across my head and fuming in embarrassment. He did intentionally and I can feel it that it won't stop by this. I need to prepared myself.

I was right as Arjun keep teasing me "Do you like strawberry cake?. Your favourite animal is monkey right?". He asking to Vinay and sometimes in dining table he will say let go to zoo to see monkey and also visit the strawberry farm at berry garden.

Even if I would forget about it my husband seems like have different idea from me. He always remembering me about that incident almost everyday. As he asked Vinay and Aatharva to say strawberry and monkey to me everyday. Now I'm get phobia with the name of monkey and strawberry.