I'm vidchatting with Cassidy and Carter when I hear a tap on my window. I pause what I'm saying to listen again and I hear nothing.

"What the fuck?"

"What?" Carter leans towards the screen to ask me. They are both in bed sitting next to each other against the head board.

"I'm pretty sure someone just threw something at my window."

"Call security. Now." Carter demands.

"Uhhh no. I'll give you three guesses who it is and I don't want them getting in trouble." I get up to go look.

"Take the vidscreen with you Mia!" Carter practically barks out. I laugh, but oblige and grab my screen to walk to my window.

I pull back the curtain and I'm startled because there is a giant fucking man on my balcony.

"Jesus Christ!!"

I put my hand over my racing heart and unlock the balcony door before I rip it open. I hear Carter in my hand on the screen as his voice gets higher asking what scared me. I grab the shirt of the offender and drag his ass into my room while I close and lock the balcony door. He has a giant grin on his goofy cute ass face and I'm torn between scowling and smiling.

"Bash." Carter acknowledges him. I hand Bash the screen expecting him to get a lecture.

"Where are your brothers?"

"They watched me get in and then headed back to our room for bed. We rock paper scissored and I won."

Bash is grinning from ear to ear like he should get a prize for winning and scaling my building like a burglar.

"No one saw you?" Carter questions.

"No sir, the guys were on look out and I was quick." He's still smiling and I hope Carter wipes that smile right off his adorable face.

"Ok good. Don't get caught I don't want a fucking call. Go to bed. I don't want her late for classes. Got it?"

"We will and of course she won't be late. Goodnight sir."

"Wait!!" I screech and rip the vidscreen back.

"No lecture? You're just ok with them sneaking into my room after curfew?"

"I helped them find the easiest way in earlier today." Carter winks and I just stare at him with my mouth open.

"Goodnight Mama Mia, love you! Have a great first day. Check in with me a few times please!!" Cassidy ends the chat.

"What the hell?" I ask my blank screen. Bash takes it from me and sets it on the charging pad.

"Can't let our girl sleep alone what kind of assholes would we be?"

I laugh. And laugh. And I can't control my laughing now. Bash is smiling at me but has a look of confusion crossing his face.

"You mad?"

"No I'm just realizing that no one actually intended to let me have any semblance of independence."

I stop laughing now because I'm annoyed and the reality of being coddled to death sets in. I feel so unsure about what I want. I want them around all the time, but I want to show I can do this on my own too. Bash steps up to me and tilts my chin up with his fingers. He pulls me closer with his hand on my lower back.

"It's always your choice lover. I will leave if you want me too. We spent all summer having sleepovers. We got used to it and we were dreading sleeping without you so we figured you were feeling the same." He places a kiss to my head and hugs me to just warm chest.

"Of course I'm feeling the same. I'm sorry my emotions are everywhere. I just need to do some things by myself too. I want to prove I'm an adult capable of doing things for myself. I went to prove to you guys and Cassidy and myself that I am capable of figuring shit out without all of you to help me."

I'm speaking into his chest and I feel tears tingling again.

"Of course babe. You tell us how much space to give and we will give it.. well Trevor and I will..we may have to tie Liam up, but we would be willing to do it for you." I giggle.

"Believe me when I say we all know how capable you are. You have nothing to prove to us or your family. You have nothing to prove to anyone babe. You are so strong and motivated. None of us have ever second guessed your ability to do shit yourself, but also believe me when I say we aren't going anywhere. We will do our best to give you this time, but we haven't spent much time away from you the last 9 years and we don't plan too any time soon."

He leans my face up with his fingers under my chin again and kisses my lips in a quick, soft peck.

"I can't stand the thought of going a day without you. We are selfish and we don't want to share you with anyone, but we will do as you ask. Tell us the boundaries and we will do our best to stay in them. Okay?" He kisses my lips again.

"Thank you Bash." I blow out a breath of relief and sink into his chest squeezing him tight to me.

"I do feel better with you here. My bed was a little cold."

He chuckles and starts to move me towards the bed. It's a little bigger then the boys' beds at least, but it's going to be a very tight fit.

"There is no way we are going to fit."

I watch him toe off his shoes and pull my covers back to crawl in. He pauses and sits up to take his shirt off, throwing it across the room to the floor. Now he's just clad in loose athletic shorts and I can see the band of black boxers underneath.

"You're just going to have to lay on top of me." He winks and gives me a lewd smile and I know he's not thinking about sleeping now. Annnnddd now neither am I.

"Ugh you boys are insufferable."

I crawl in and I do have to lay half on top of him. My head tucked under his neck, most of my chest glued to his and one of my legs tangled in between his two. He's so warm and smells delicious. Like his body soap I know he and Liam share and a hint of sweaty male from climbing up to my balcony. I smile into his neck and relax into him. I do feel a lot better now. I would have tossed and turned for hours trying to find sleep.

I'm anxious for my classes tomorrow and reeling from the day I had. I needed a naked chest pillow more then I thought I did. I'm wearing boy short panties and one of their shirts which hangs to mid thigh on me. I think it's Liam's, but I have collected so many of their shirts I don't remember who they once belonged too. Bash's hand behind me snakes under my shirt and starts tickling up and down my back. His other hand is gripping my thigh against his slowly hardening dick.

"Sorry." He mumbles sheepishly. I chuckle into his chest and then lean up to kiss his pec and look into his pretty blues.

"I don't mind it. You forget I woke up almost every morning this summer to a couple boners trying to attack me." He smiles and kisses my nose.

"I'm always hard around you, I can't help it."

"If I had a dick I'd be hard too. I promise." He laughs.

"Thank god you don't woman. I much prefer your pretty pink pussy."

Gaaaaahhhhh. I clench at his dirty words, which just pushes my thigh harder into his now very erect dick. He groans as he rubs himself against the inside of my thigh.

"I think my girl likes dirty talk hmm."

"I like anything you do." I reply in a breathy voice that doesn't sound like mine.

I pick my head up off his chest and seal my lips to his. I intend for it to be a sweet goodnight kiss. His hand slips from under my shirt to tangle in my hair, holding my lips hostage to his. His tongue sneaks out to meet mine and the kiss turns into a hell of a lot more. His hand on my thigh grips and pulls me over so I'm straddling him. I moan and writhe against him. At this angle I'm directly over his rock hard dick and the thin layers between us allows me to feel the warmth of him seep into my center.

I don't feel in control of my actions as I rub myself against him. He helps me by gripping my thigh harder to pull me down on his dick, and his hips rise up to meet my thrusts. Our kisses have turned messy and chaotic as we moan and breath into them.

"Yes love. Ride my dick. That feels so good."

He's broken the kiss to trail lips down my neck and the hand not gripping my thigh has left my hair to find my bra free breasts. He massages the left and then the right, giving my nipples slow tugs as he goes. My pace quickens as I feel my release coming and he can feel my body tensing because both of his hands are gripping my hips dragging my center to meet his in a frenzied thrust.

I come on a shudder as he holds my hips in a tight grip to ground himself up into me. I'm panting as the delicious tingles settle across my body and the aftershocks still feel pleasurable as he slowly grinds into me.

"That's the second time I've come in my pants today. I'm making a habit out of this and it's embarrassing."

I collapse on his chest laughing and start kissing up his neck to his mouth.

"I think we should definitely make a habit of it." I kiss his lips and feel him smile against them.

"I'm yours to do with as you please." He gives me a cheeky grin and spanks my ass.

"Let me clean this mess up. We need to get you to bed so you're rested for classes"

I roll off of him to the side and lay like a pile of mush until I hear him return. He's lost his boxers and only has his athletic shorts on now. He rummages through my drawers to find a new pair of panties. I didn't realize how wet mine were but I rub my legs together I can feel I've soaked these ones. He leans over me to grab my panties and pulls them down and off in one quick movement. He puts my feet in one at time while kissing my toes and I giggle and sigh loving his attention. He drags them up my legs and I lift my hips to help him. He settles them over my ass and then kisses my underwear covered center. I gasp and he leans back to look at me a pleased smile on his face.

"Thank you for taking care of me Bash."

"Always lover." He winks at me and climbs up to settle himself next to me. We get situation in the same position we were prior to our "activities."

"Will Trevor and Liam be upset we did that without them? I didn't really think about it at the time,"

I ask unsure.

I'm not sure how this is going to work, but I don't want to upset any of them or cause any jealousy.

"No babe of course not. We've talked about this many times before. We are all three on the same page. It's always your choice. You lead and we follow. You do what you're comfortable with. All three of us together, or individually, it doesn't matter to us Mia as long as you want it and you enjoy it."

"Okay good to know. I have no idea what I'm doing so you guys can't get mad at me if I mess it up."

"We would never be upset with you over this. Ever. We are just grateful you are comfortable enough to explore this with us. We want to bring you pleasure as much as you'll let us and yes we hope eventually that leads to sex, but on your terms ok?"

"Okay." I snuggle into his side and rest my lips against the side of his neck.

"I like what we're doing. What we did together today and what you and I just did. I'd like to keep doing this kinda stuff. Maybe you guys can show me how to make you feel good too?"

"You make us feel good everyday babe, but yes of course we can show you. We are yours to explore, every part of us." I giggle at his implication.

"Then you also have my permission to explore my uh parts too." He laughs at my stupid comment and says,

"Give me kisses so we can go to bed."

I lean up. They are sweet and slow, no tongue, just his full lips pressed warmly against mine.

"Sleep love. I will leave before the sun comes up. Dream sweet."

"Sweet dreams handsome."