You finally escape the mad house

"God why did I wanna come to this fucking thing?! And why did I let Kenzie put me in this shit?!" You say shivering as you quickly run to you car

Well running in heels isn't that fast

"(Y/n)!! Stop babe please!" Alessio says catching up to you quickly

You stop quickly and take your heels off

"Babe let me explain" he says

"Call me babe one more time and this shoe is going up your ass" you say finally getting them off

You continue walking to your car barefoot Alessio trudging behind you

"(Y/n)?!" Alsssio says

"What! You know you have a lot of fucking nerve calling me a thot and accusing me of liking Lucas when it turns out your slummin it up with some other hoe!?" You say feeling your inner bitch ready to shine through

"(Y/n) I fucked up. I know. But you and Lucas-"Alessio tries to get out

"ME AND LUCAS WHAT?! We never talked, we never kissed, we never fucked! Me and Lucas haven't done shit! I made it very fucking clear to him today that I was one hundred percent loyal to you" you say stopping and poking his chest

"Meanwhile your busy partying with some slut! But I'm the thot right?" You angrily laughed and continue towards your car

"(Y/n). That's not what I meant, that girl is just an old friend of mine. She was hanging out with me because I was upset about today." He says

"Mhmmm sure" you say sarcastically as you reach your car

"I'm serious" he says begging

You grab him and push him against the side of your car.

You bite your lip and seductively play with a small piece of his hair

"That's why you were all over her like this" you say in a high pitch voice backing away

"Cut the bullshit! You assumed I was actually being a hoe and talking to Lucas so you thought you'd be a dog and get revenge" you say

"What?! NO" Alessio says confused

"Right" You say sarcastically

"(Y/n) I swear that's not true" he argues

"Yes! I was mad about Lucas liking you. And I let my irrational thoughts get the best of me but I swear!! Could you blame me (y/n)?! So I came here to party. I didn't wanna think about you. My friend Kelsey was in town so we were just hanging out!" He says

"Mhmm hanging out" you say feeling a pang of hurt as you remember the way he hovered over her

"Move let me get in my car I'm tired of listening to this bullshit" you say trying to movie him

"I'm not moving until you stop being overdramatic" he says

"Oh so first I'm a thot and now I'm overdramatic?!" You rage

"Yes (y/n)! Your the only person I know that spazzes this much! Kelsey would never act like this" Alessio says

You want to cry.

He's hitting all the wrong notes

He's failing

He's turning into Parker

That sadness just turns into rage

Like your inner bitch eats the sadness and converts it into fuel

"Really Alessio?! Then go to your bitch Kelly! Maybe I should've chosen Lucas" you spit shoving him out of you way and getting into your car

You start the car and look out the window

Alessio stands there in shock

He almost looks hurt

You didn't care. He made you feel the exact same way

You pull away from him before you start sobbing

You had no idea where you were going

Just away

"I hate him" you repeat to yourself as you cry

you drive around for and hour before you clean yourself up and head home

You pull into your driveway and exit the car

You walk into your house

"(Y/n) is that you?" You hear you mom call from her room

"Yep" You say exhausted

You head to your room ignoring anything your mom said to you after that

You grab a pair of pajamas and take a shower

After your shower you crawl in bed and stare at the ceiling

You could feel a void already growing

You were cutting yourself off

2 weeks later

You haven't left your room

The only thing you do is sleep or listen to sad music

Your laying on your bed eyes closed when you hear a light tap on your door

"Go away" you grumble into the pillow

You hear the door open and shut softly

"(Y/n)? I know your still not sitting in bed what the fuck" Miyas familiar voice rings

"Do you have to be so loud" you say looking at her

"Yes. Are you kidding me!? Look at you. The (y/n) I know isn't like this" she says

"Yes she is" you say sitting up

"(Y/n) I love you but what the hell are you doing to yourself" she says

"You look like you've lost 15 pounds are you even eating?!" She says

"Skinny legend" you joke not even laughing at yourself

"(Y/n) is Alessio really that worth it" You say

You haven't heard that name since that night

Tears well up in your eyes

"This is way different than any breakup I've been through" you say trying to hold tears back

"That's because you love him" you hear a voice from your bedroom doorway

You look up and see Alessio's mom standing there

"Miya is it okay if I chat with (y/n)" she says

Miya silently walks out of your room

You don't say anything and watch Alessio's mom sit down on your bed next to you

((I knew his moms name but I'm totally fucking brain farting rn so her new name is: Alessio's mom ;) ))

"What's going on? Alessio hasn't been active on any social media, he hasn't left his room in weeks and I'm pretty sure he raids the fridge at night so no one will see him." She says

"He hasn't told you" You ask

"No he has, I just wanna know why you two haven't figured out what's going on" she says

"Because no offense but your son is a jerk" you sniffle

She chuckles and pulls you into a hug

You just cry into her shoulder

"I hate him" you say

"No you don't. You hate that you love him" she says stroking your hair

She was absolutely right

"And he loves you too" she says

"What do I do" you say sniffling and looking at her

"Well...you can sit here and cry about it or you can come over and do something about it" She says

"Ooo I don't know about that" you say

"Why's that?" She asks

"What if he doesn't want to see me. Your son's a dickhead, but I'm not any better" You look down thinking about what you said to him before leaving

The look of hurt that flashed across his face

((Deadass tried to type face and it auto corrected it to abs💀))

"(Y/n)..come" she says looking you in your eyes

"Okay" You say breathing out

She exits your room and you change your clothes

You finish getting ready and exit your room

When you walk downstairs you see your dad and mom standing and chatting with Alessio's mom

Miya was waiting for you

"Well you look alive now" Miya says smiling

"Mmhmm" You say giving her a hug

"I have to leave but seriously call me. Tell me how things go. I love you" She says squeezing you one more time before leaving you

"Are you ready to go honey" Alessios mom says

"Yep" You say half smiling half frowning

You both leave and head to Alessio's house silently

When you get there Alessio's mom opens the door and you both enter

You were getting nervous

"He's downstairs. I'm gonna take the family to the park and give you two some time" she says

You nod and head downstairs towards his room while you hear Alessio's mom yell about productivity to everyone upstairs

You stand in front is Alessio's room door and try to figure out what your gonna say

You ponder for about 2 minutes before you decide you'd never figure it out

You raise your hand towards the door and lightly knock

"Mom I don't give a damn about productivity" you hear him groan

The sound of his voice made you heart feel a way it hadn't felt in a while

"Uhhh it's actually not" you interrupt yourself clearing your throat

"Uhh it's actually (y/n)"you say quickly

You heard no response from the other side of the door

You finally just let yourself speak

"Look I know we really got into it a couple weeks ago but...I don't know Alessio I was angry at you. I was so mad because I felt like you had no faith in our relationship....I felt like you had not faith in me" you say

"And uh... then I saw you with that girl and..and I don't know I raged. You're supposed to be mine....and I hated that we weren't together.. and I wanted to blame it on you but now that I'm saying this out loud I'm realizing it's my fault too" you wanna cry again

"Your mom came over and we talked..she asked me to explain why this was happening and I...I told her I hated you" you look at the ground

"She said *you don't hate him, you hate that you love him*." You try holding yourself together

"And she's right" you barley let out

"And it's so hard for me to stand here right now and say this to a door but I love you and I'm sorry" you breakdown

It remains quiet for a few seconds

Then you hear a click

And the door opens

You look up and see Alessio's face red teary eyed

You stare at each other for what seems like forever until you both engulf each other in a hug.

You both cry into each others arms

"This is my fault" Alessio says into your shoulder

"I shouldn't have been such a dick and just listened to what you said. I had no right to call you a thot you've never done anything to deserve that...I guess I'm to full of pride to admit when I'm wrong....and I almost lost you because of it" he says squeezing you tighter

"I love you (y/n)" he says releasing front the hug and looking you in the eyes

"I love you too" you say

He leans down and you kisses you

You can taste the salt on his lips from where tears once fell

Alessio scoops you up and carry's you to the bed

He continues kissing you

You were feeling ways you missed feeling

Feeling ways you forgot you could feel.

"Let me show you how sorry I am" Alessio says kissing down your neck

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