Journal entry 1-

What happens when people become bigger?

Does it go through our heads making us have a big ego?

I'm scared if it happens

promise we never leave eachother?" Mark asked. I looked into his beautiful eyes feeling as if I was in a trance. I looked at the ground thinking about what he wanted to promise on. I know I couldn't keep it. I was nervous to tell him maybe later I'll tell him.

"Mark but we have to promise that we support each other, sometimes we have to make sacrifices to make those happy even if it makes us unhappy." I sighed.

I looked into his deep blue eyes seeing confusion written on his face.

"But you're my happiness." Mark held my hand.

"You're mine too trust me I love you, but sometimes we need to support each others decisions if something big happens in our life." I squeezed his hand.

"Let's go it's almost late." Mark said. We walked towards our hotel we needed rest for our 7th stop.

I walked towards my room as i bumped into Loren. "Hey!" She smiled. I wasn't in the mood of being joyful with this secret I have I felt the guiltiness.

"Girl what's a matter?" Loren asked.

"Loren I need to tell you this, I need help." I cried out.

"Tell me I'm all ears."

"I've been hiding this from all of you guys and I've been scared. Last week I had a meeting with my manager and she told me i got an opportunity to be in a music video and to join a tour which they needed a singer and she bought id be good choice." I sniffled.

" that's amazing why are you upset?" Loren was confused.

"Well I ant tour with you guys. She got me booked with many things starting tomorrow she wants me to fly out." I looked at the ground being too ashamed of myself.

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