It was evening now and everyone was just sitting in the living room, It was boring but it's not like I had much more to do up in my room. Some of the boys were playing on their phones and others were quietly chatting with each other.

I was one of the few on their phones. I wasn't really doing anything on it besides tapping through some random app since I don't use social media because I have no need to contact people and I don't have anything to post.

I could feel Anthony glancing at me every so often. It would only be for a split second but I noticed it every time, how he would slightly lift his head out from his phone to peek up and me like he wanted me to give him eye contact. I never looked back at him and ignored it but after a while, he gave up at looking at me.

I continued mindlessly tapping on my phone screen, paying attention to the prints it my fingers left behind or touching the few cracks that littered my screen. I set my phone down, quietly stretching my arms and sitting back on the couch. It was deadly silent and my ears were starting to hurt because of it.

I pulled my hoodie over my head and tightened the strings so the only part of my face that was visible was my nose and mouth. I closed my eyes and tried to fall asleep since it seemed to be the only thing that i found interesting right now.

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I woke up to someone warm pressed against my side, they seemed to be talking to someone but I couldn't see since my hoodie was still covering half of my face. My limbs felt heavy with sleep and I didn't really want to move but I forced my arms up to pull my hood down anyway.

As I did I noticed a few things; the sun had gone down for the most part and the only light was coming from the kitchen, Anthony was leaning against my side, and the few people left in the room were all staring at me. Him, Landon and Lukas were the only ones in the room with me, the conversations now halted because I did something... I think.

I looked at them confusingly as if asking them through facial expressions if I interrupted something by simply waking up.

Anthony seemed to come to his senses first and turns his body towards me. Everyone else shifts uncomfortably in their seats.

Anthony was the first one to talk, "Avery.. we need to like.. talk," he pauses then continues again, "You've been avoiding everyone ever since.. us. Did I do something to upset you?"

His eyes held a deep emotion, an apology. But there was no need for one, I was the one who should've apologized if anything.

I shook my head, still confused, "No..? I- what do you mean I've been avoiding you..? this whole time... you've avoided me, never looking me in the eye..? And-and that- everyone else too... don't you like- hate me? You know for um... intruding..? I guess..?" I know I didn't sound certain at all but I really was certain they were all annoyed by me.

His expression morphed into a confused one, "We've been trying to talk to you though, Avery. At dinner we ask you things and you never respond, we talk to you whenever your outside of your room but its like your not there. Everyone's worried, surprisingly enough even Reed is worried."

"No..? I- No ones talked to me since.." I felt my face flush bright red at the thought of what we did together. He seemed to understand what I meant, "No ones talked to me since then... an-and you all were avoiding me.. so I just stayed in my room.. so I wouldn't bother you." I turned my head down so I didn't have to look at anyone to see the confirmation their faces would've given. I didn't want to see that they really didn't like me even though I already knew.

A voice I never really heard spoke up this time, "What would ever make you think that we didn't like you?" I looked up to see Landon staring me dead in the eye. I had never really talked to him and his voice was nothing like I had expected. I expecting something soft, gentle and maybe smooth but it was really stern and low, not like bass low but low enough to make me shiver.

"I-" "I think its a mindset issue." Collin walks into the room, finishing off a popsicle. "You think everyone is judging you, right? That's what happened at the store, you thought everyone was looking at you, that they were judging you." I felt my heart start to pound aggressively inside my chest.

"No.. no no no they... they were.. they were staring at me.. their eyes agreed, they agree.. th-they know that I- no.. no." My head felt light and hands started trembling. My breathing became ragged and a burn in my eyes made me look down.

"What.. What did they agree with?" Someone asked.

"m-me.." I swallowed the lump in my throat

"About what though?" Another person asked.

My ears started ringing as the room felt even more silent somehow. I felt big droplets of water drip down my face and onto my lap.

"That I'm disgusting."