Once a teenager with Asperger’s Syndrome used a metaphor to describe the difference between him and normal people.

He said that an ordinary person operated using a Windows operating system, on the other hand the brain of someone with Asperger’s Syndrome operated in a way similar to that of a DOS*.

In addition to being slow, various errors could occur.

This was a fact that could never be changed, and it was a defect that would never be erased, following him for a lifetime.

No matter how dull Lisa was, he could still understand that Jennie was trying to help him just now. By standing up and bringing the attention away from him she had helped him prevent others from finding out about his abnormality.

Lisa suddenly thought of a line.

Reluctant to think about Shu*.

The temporary stability and intoxication that came with his new environment made him forget about everything that had plagued him before.

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During the evening Lisa’s kickboxing coach clearly felt Lisa’s irritability. Although his face was still expressionless, the strength of his hands was enough to tell the coach that he was venting at first glance.

This boy was the most ruthless and most desperate among the students he has taught. It was like something behind him was desperately urging him. The coach would occasionally ask Lisa about it, but Lisa would never say anything.

The coach didn’t expect Lisa to say anything today, but he still casually asked if something had happened today.

The young man, who had gradually lost his former thinness, continued to clench his fists, but his movements stopped.

He stood in place for a long time, before speaking in a low voice, as if he was asking himself instead of answering a question.

“If there was someone in your life who you would never be able to catch up to, what would you do?”

Someone who you couldn’t catch up to in your life?

Although the coach didn’t know what Lisa’s identity was, seeing the luxurious car that he could only day dream about drop and pick Lisa up everyday, he could guess that Lisa’s identity was far from simple.

Who was it that could make this young man feel like he would never be able to catch up to in his life? Seeing from his expression, the coach guessed that the person Lisa was talking about had to be a girl, but if it was, then was the girl a fairy or some young miss that was even richer than Lisa?

If it were him, since he knew that he couldn’t chase then he wouldn’t chase.

So without thinking the coach quickly answered, “Then don’t chase.”

As soon as his voice fell, the coach saw the face of the boy who had always been expressionless, instantly change. His breathing became heavy and the tilt in his lips held a certain ferociousness that was matched with a pair of gloomy eyes.

Even he, who has had years of fighting and muscles on him, was shocked by the sudden emotional change that happened to the teenager in front of him.

Seeing him like this the coach quickly tried to salvage the situation.

“In fact, I’m even more curious, why do you think that you’ll never be able to catch up to her? I mean look at you! You’re handsome and you come from a good family. From the moment you step outside countless girls would come up to you to ask for your WeChat. You have so many good traits, and yet you say you can’t catch up to her. Could it be that you chased her before and was rejected?”

The boy was silent for a moment, before he said, “No.”

He didn’t chase her.

Coach: So you’ve had a crush on her all of this time! Since you’ve never chased her, how can you know that you’d be rejected? Do you know?”

“Yes .”

“Then, is your relationship with her bad?”

“No, it’s good.”

“How good is it?”

“Very.”

“Then go after her,” The coach said to Lisa anxiously.

Lisa lowered his eyelashes, and shook his head, “No.”

Well, why not?!

The coach didn’t understand his dilemma at all.

“She treats me as a friend.”

“That’s completely normal!” The coach didn’t think that it was a big issue at all, “How many couples develop from friendships. Although I don’t know what’s going on between the two of you, I don’t think you need to be so negative.”

“In my opinion. you always have to try first before you can come to a solid conclusion. Since you’ve never chased her, you simply cannot conclude that this it’s impossible.” The coach didn’t know what to say. He didn’t expect that he would become so eloquent as soon as he opened his mouth. He’d turned into a love sage

“Of course it may be what you think, but what if she says yes! If I were you, and there was a girl who I like to my bones, I would still try it out and try my best to chase her just once. Even if she says no and I failed, at least I won’t feel any regrets.”

Lisa suddenly wanted to laugh.

Just try..so that he won’t feel any regrets…

He didn’t want to regret not trying, but if Jennie found out about his thoughts, she would become a stranger from then on.

Compared with the feeling of regret, this was an ending he couldn’t accept.

The coach was still talking eloquently, saying that according to Lisa’s conditions, there was no need to be so unconfident at all, maybe the girl had already liked him all along.

Lisa closed his eyes and confessed his situation fully.

The coach shut up instantly.

The coach was stunned for a long time before he said, “Ill?”

The coach was stunned, Lisa had a physical examination almost every few days. There was absolutely nothing wrong with his body.

“What’s the disease?”

Lisa held the two words in his mouth for a long time before finally saying them with difficulty, “Mental illness.”

Coach: “???”

Subconsciously the coach moved back.

Lisa looked at the coach coldly. It seems like no matter how much he said, everyone would still step away from him whenever they learned of his condition.

Although he didn’t say anything, the coach understood the taunt in Lisa’s eyes.

The coach suddenly woke up from his shock, remembering his subconscious action just now he suddenly wanted to slap himself. He wanted to explain, but he felt that it was useless to say anything at this time.

After all, a person’s subconscious reaction was their most real reaction.

So it turns out that it was for this reason that Lisa felt that the girl he liked would never like him or accept him. With this knowledge in mind the coach felt that everything finally came together.

“I’m sorry, that really wasn’t intentional,” Well, even he wouldn’t care about such a flimsy explanation let alone Lisa, the coach sighed, “So the girl doesn’t know about it?”

“She knows.”

She knows?!

The coach was surprised.

After a long while, the coach finally said sternly, “I think the girl you like so much must be different from other people. You shouldn’t use other people’s opinions of you to estimate her thoughts. Since she already knows your situation, but still treats you well and has a good relationship with you, she might not care about your illness at all.”

Lisa looked far away with heavy eyes and did not speak.

The coach sighed, “Lisa, maybe, and I mean maybe, in the heart of the girl you like, you are more important than you think.”

The conversation ended there, and Lisa stood up again and started practicing. His technique was still sharp, but compared to just now, he was finally a little less fierce.

In addition to normal schoolwork and free fighting, Lisa’s learning content has two more things.

Stocks, and emotional analysis.

Lisa came into contact with stocks after learning that Jennie was interested in it.

Jennie said that because she admired the biography of the God of Stocks, she wanted to learn it, and with that one sentence Lisa made a decision to learn it.

He always wanted to use various methods to make Jennie have more feelings for him, even if it was not love. In addition to that, Jennie was very interested in stocks, he could learn it first, and then slowly teach Jennie.

But what made Lisa feel very happy was that after he was exposed to stocks, using various mathematics analyses, Lisa found that this subject was much more interesting than he thought.

But along with stocks Lisa had been frantically learning emotional analysis.

He endured his discomfort, and began to see a psychologist again, and even accepted the advice of the psychologist to make himself more like a “normal person.”

He knew he could never be a normal person, but he could try to make others not see that he wasn’t.

But that was easier said than done, emotional analysis was a subject that was extremely difficult and required a life of continuous learning.

The psychiatrist gave him a book dedicated to the symptoms of Asperger’s Syndrome. In this book, a total of 412 human emotions were identified and all emotions were divided into 24 different groups.

What he needs to do is to memorize all 412 kinds of emotions and then keep them in his heart. He didn’t understand them, so he should remember their definitions and remember the expressions and actions that each corresponding emotion would show.

What he needs to do when a person is crying, and what he should do when someone laughs, all of it was written in the book and even if he didn’t understand or know what to do, all of it could be learnt.

In just a few days, Lisa felt exhausted physically and mentally.

Because he didn’t understand, he could only search his memory bank for how other people should react after seeing a certain expression on a person.

He must also train himself to be fast in his reactions, because if he was slow then some people might think he was dull. No one could know that he was pretending.

No one would be able to comprehend how quickly Lisa’s brain had to run for such a long duration of time.

Due to his exhaustion his nerves felt wounded up and tight. The feeling of mental exhaustion that came with his learning was something he had never felt before, but the effect was unexpectedly good.

Lisa was absorbing knowledge frantically and turning himself into a master of imitation. Soon, in the quickest time possible, he could make the correct response to all of the most conventional expressions.

Soon some people begin to say that Lisa is finally not expressionless, and some people say that Lisa was actually not difficult to associate with.

When everyone began to think that Lisa was becoming more and more gregarious, only Jennie felt a deep sense of anxiety and a feeling of violation.

Lisa began to grow so quickly that Jennie hadn’t noticed.

Only when facing Jennie, could he show her the parts of him that were still real due to the uncontrollable throbbing in his heart.

When Jennie asked him what was wrong, Lisa was already able to lie calmly.

He said that he had received treatment from a psychiatrist, and if he was different recently, then it was because the psychiatrist asked him to do so.

Even if only 80% of his words were true, this was indeed a suggestion made by the psychiatrist, but Lisa did not tell Jennie that the psychiatrist warned him about something else.

The doctor said that when adults with Asperger’s Syndrome use their imitative abilities, they can communicate like normal people, and some even do it so well that they become popular with others. But despite everything seeming very good, that was only the sign of the beginning of a disaster.

Because at that point the whole world of the person would become one mixed in truths and lies.

Soon with more experience the person would be able to quickly read the thoughts of others through their behavior and words, then by relying on that knowledge craft a perfect response.

From then on, communicating and reading others would only become easier, and with it blurring the lines of what was read and what was a lie until the person themself wouldn’t be able to differentiate.