Guns. I can't..... can't use guns. What..what if she makes me use ...another one on another person? I'm not ready for this. I'm on the verge of a mental breakdown. I'm currently in pain, with a risk of infection, and all thats rattling around in my head is exhaustion and guilt. Why? Why is this world so cruel? As i looked around, none of the other girls seemed to pay attention to me as they were all focused on their own tasks. But that was my biggest mistake.

Everything was blurry. I couldn't see, all i could hear was the sounds of guns reverberating. Tears were fogging my eyes. That's when i felt my knees knock together, and my body slamming down onto the floor. Even that pain couldn't stop or affect my emotions. Ive had panic attacks, but none have ever been like this...but then again I've never been in this situation before.

Of course I couldn't even get a moment of piece in this god forbidden place..before i felt searing pain all across my body. I couldn't rule the pain out, but it didn't have much affect on me after a while. I just knew i was a crumpled, crying mess on the floor suffering the effects of a severe panic attack getting attacked by black smudges in my eyesight. After around 2 minutes i was able to see almost normal again, and the adrenaline of what had just happened wore off, and the searing pain was all my body and brain could register. Tears started leaking again, but i could see clearer this time. I saw guards were standing above me, looking ready to strike. That is until i heard Madame B's voice

"Take her"

Take me? Take me where!? Am I going to be killed...already? I didn't even get to save my mom, or even say goodbye to her. I didn't get to live my life. I had so much planned to do. There's many things i did wrong that i need to right. Who was going to protect my hometown, there's no one. What about my powers? If I'm getting taken to my death, what's the popping in using them. That would just get me into more trouble and problems. I'd rather go out quite peacefully. With those thoughts in my head, and the previous worrying thoughts forgotten as nothing mattered anymore, more tears leaked out of my eyes. I don't care what anyone thinks of me now. If they think I'm weak they can believe that. I'm done fighting. Ive had enough.

I just hope my mom is ok. That's all I care about. But if i outed my abilities, there's no doubt she would be in even more danger.

In the next moments, my body was dragged by how many guards. I let them drag me, i gave up. Tears clouded my eyes once again. Although i did see the nerve racking silhouette of Madame B following me. I guess this creep has a liking for seeing kids die. I'm happy to be leaving this place, even if it isn't the best circumstances. Sure i hated this world at times and felt lonely, but i enjoyed the company of myself when no-one else was around. I don't want to go I've up those peaceful moment.....but of course we don't always get what we want.

I was dragged for around 20 minutes, and in that time I stopped crying and accepted my fate hoping to keep a shred of my dignity. I was then taken into to a room, which I couldn't see the contents due to my back being turned against them. I was then picked up and and shoved roughly into a chair. I glared at the guards hoping to be intimidating in my final moments to show my hatred towards them. Before i could even lift a finger more guards were strapping me down to this gurney like dentist chair. It was at that moment that Madame B decided to walk directly in front of me. Oh how i wanted to strangle her for what she caused to people in this facility and the people she had killed.

"DON'T YOU DARE TALK ABOUT MY MOTHER YOU MONSTER! You kill kids, and now you're going to kill me, not improve me. I'm not that dumb. If I'm barely an asset i can tell I'm virtually useless to you. You know nothing about me and i will gladly die with you not knowing anything. My mother escaped your grasp and now i will, just in a different manner. The only thing i regret in life is not killing you the first chance i got"

*that's not all i regret but its all I'm willing to tell this monster*

"YES I WILL! Nothing you can do will change my mind on how i feel about you, and how i want to take you down. So it will be a bit mistake keeping me alive"

With that i glared at Madame B. In all honesty I am so happy our little conversation is over. Im very good at faking confidence in stressful situations. I know even with my skill from being a vigilante, i will not be able to kill Madame B, due to the major amount of security that protects her. And my best bet is that she can defend herself pretty well if she runs an illegal killing organisation. Im annoyed. I haven't even been here long and I already want to die. What could she possibly have in mind? If this is not my end i need to make some promises to myself. I will make it my personal mission to take her down. I will save my mom, and learn to control my powers as we escape this place. That's my promise......and maybe learn how to blend in art. I bet nobody from school even notices I'm gone. Well, maybe Jeremy. I hope I get to see him again.

With that, i feel something being paced over my head. I cannot see what it it. I feel sharp things coming out of whatever the contraction is and into my skull. I start squeaking trying to not make a sound, whilst my restraints stop me from moving even an inch. It's then that i start howling in pain as i feel electricity ebbing through my body. Sure its not as painful as it normally would due to my powers having the same components, but it hurts like hell as I'm screaming at the top of my lungs. Before long, my eye sight starts fading. My last thought is if anyone has ever survived it, because even with my advantage it hurts like hell and i feel as if i am literally dying. How many others have died during this procedure?

Nat said that she's going to meet Emma's mom. Apparently they're old friends. I didn't want to remind Nat, why Emma had to have extra lessons with me along with he teams observation of her, because i didn't want to make her feel worse. As she looked pretty shaken up after talking to the woman on the phone. But the memory is vivid in my mind. Emma was struggling because her mom was never home. Now i understand that she couldn't help it due to her job obviously, but as i read Emmas mind without her knowledge i saw things. I only saw memories that had to do with her mom as i didn't want to invade her privacy. Now i could use my power for my job, but we as a team decided not to as she is a minor and we were only worried about her spreading the bare minimum secret. Obviously we cant have that but she was a minor and even Fury agreed it was unfair to look into her mind. Plus she is only a teen, so it wasn't supposed to be hard to see what she was up to. It was all going well.

When i looked in her specific memories her mom came home and went straight to bed after work and left before she even woke, due to Emma seeing her do this on a couple of occasions. She was never around. I saw Emma struggling with some stuff from school mainly art and design and technology, wishing her mom was there to help her. She also wished her mom stayed the way she was before her dad died. She's hard a pretty messed up life, and her mom ignored her for no reason at all. It was fair to say i despised the woman. She didn't even bother to check up on her daughter enough to see she was struggling. And now...now when the time was suitable for her, not her own daughter she wants to help. In my opinion it was disgusting and selfish behaviour. I don't see why she didn't stay the same after her husband died. Especially after that. It was obviously a thought time and Emma needed support which she was willing to give. I want answers, and i will get them even if i have to resort to getting them my own way.

I wanted Emma back home safely. I worry about her very night. Ive seen accidental glimpses of Nat's past. Another reason why I don't look through people's heads without permission as i never know what I'm going to see. I know Emma's probably going through hell tight now and i wish we can find the location soon. I care deeply about Emma, almost like a daughter. I know Nat feels the same, she just shows it differently.

I am currently reminiscing about our time with Emma, and how i want...need her back. She brought joy to my life, even though we only had a couple of days together.

If Emma's mom is anything like I've seen, i will be furious. If she comes in all happy and joyous, there will be carnage!