We were sat in each other's arms for a while, neither of us made any indication to move out of our hold. Theo seemed to have sobered up but he continued to breathe heavily while my own tears matted my cheeks.

My head hurt. Knowing that my family had done such things in the past, and continues to do such things til this day-- behind my back, I didn't know how to feel at the moment, I hadn't completely digested the information.

I know my question wasn't fully answered however, I wanted to ask why my father had Theo's brother captured but I didn't want to push it out of him, I didn't want him to relive any more pain at the moment.

Watching your own mate break down, despite not accepting him yet, it felt impossible to describe the feeling. I felt pain that wasn't even a fraction of his through our bond and it collapsed me. Having your mate broke down in front of your eyes has the effect to make your heart drop to a pit in your stomach, I felt suffocated by his pain.

As much as I didn't want to admit, using my mother as I reason to stay with him was a fib-- I wanted to say but I didn't want to admit it to myself, I didn't want to admit that I wanted to stay with a monster-- that I wanted to hand over my heart and soul to a man that was feared by millions.

"Theo," I was the first to speak, the silence that was once comfortable between us was now suffocating us and all I wanted was to hear his voice. He looked up from our positions, his head lulling in the nape of my neck, my neck that was once heated by his warmth breath felt instantly chilly.

Looking at his face almost broke my heart-- he looked broken.

I didn't know what else to say, so I stayed quiet. Despite Theo moving out of our position, my hands stayed put around his neck, my fingers fiddling with the hairs on the back of his neck while his arms were loosely around my waist. Something I had found my way on to his lap, straddling him as he held me up from falling on the floor.

I wanted to say sorry, I wanted to apologize for everything wrong that had happened in his life because of my family, it was my family's fault he was so broken-- inside.

But deep down I knew that sorry wasn't going to fix anything, it wasn't going to bring his family back.

"I'm sorry," I sighed, his eyebrows furrowed at my words and opened his mouth to speak but I continued. "I'm sorry I forced you do relive... that." My eye sight dropped down from his eyes and focused his Adam's apple as it moved with the way he gulped .

"You have nothing to apologize for, you had the right to know." But I did, I forced him to feel things he had blocked away for years.

"But I forced it." Theo shook his head at me before resting his head back into the nape of my neck-- as if it were it's home. The feeling warmed me in this quite chilly conversation.

"You didn't know." Again, we sat that for a moment in silence. Neither of us knew what to say, any other conversation felt tainted by what just happened.

But I wasn't complaining in a way, we stayed in our position-- holding each other. Being so close to Theo made my wolf purr in delight, all she ever wants is to be close to our mate and I made no move to change that. Being close to Theo made the tense atmosphere in the room seem bearable.

"How old are you?" I piped up, causing Theo's eyebrows to once again furrow in confusion. When he was telling his story, he said he was six when his parents-- died.

"I'm twenty-six, love." His voice was still rough and raspy from our early events, his warm breath on my neck as well as his use of pet-names made my body involuntary shiver.

Twenty-six? That meant that he is seven years older than me, me being only nineteen.

Age wasn't ever something I thought about as a deal-breaker about mates, mates could be as many years apart but the love between them will always be the same. I was taught that.

I mean, at least he isn't thirty-- that kinda sounds like a deal breaker for me,

"Is that a problem?" He asked, lifting his head up from my neck to look into my eyes-- his electric blue eyes gazing straight into my dull brown ones-- once I didn't respond instantly to the discovery of his age.

I chuckled lightly, shaking my head."Not at all."

The smile on his face brightened up the atmosphere completely, it wasn't until then did I realise that I had never completely seen this man smile properly.

I mean, why would I? The first second he saw me I had caused nothing but trouble. I didn't feel like bond at that moment and I pushed him away instantly-- believing that he was the monster that I was to safe far, far away when in reality that monster raised me.

I haven't been treating my mate as my mate. I mean, he did kidnap me-- but why?

I knew that he kidnapped me because he wanted his brother back, but how was that going to help?

Just as I had opened my mouth to ask him, the door had been swung open. I shrieked, jumping away from Theo and back in fright at the loud noise ringing in my ears. Theo, however, let out a low growl as his body protected me from the intruder. I almost fell to the ground, but Theo was quick to grab me by the waist, pulling me behind him on the bed.

"Alpha-- I'm so sorry!" It was Grey.

Of-bloody-course! I refused the urge to roll my eyes, as I peeked from Theo's shoulder to see Grey looked disheveled and pale in the face.

"What is it, Beta?" Theo's voice was deep signalling both of us that his wolf had risen, his protective stance over my body never breaking.

I expected Grey's body to shake in fear at his Alpha's body-trembling tone but instead Grey had stood his ground, while his body was composed his face wasn't-- it was clear he was worried about something.

"We have an problem--" Grey paused for a moment, his eyes glancing back at me; it was clear that he was trying that say I shouldn't be around it hear.

And in fairness, I shouldn't. I wasn't officially his Luna, but I was intrigued so I felt the need to stay. And it seemed that Theo and his wolf felt the same when he let out a snarl at his Beta, a threatening sound for sure.

"Spill it out, Grey. I'm not a patient man." Theo growled, lifting himself off my the bed. Grey visibly gulped and I knew that what was going to come out of his mouth was going to upset Theo.

My hand shot up to Theo's shoulder, gently placed on top of his skin and I could instantly feel Theo leaning in to my touch, the sudden rush of anger that spewed from his mouth had slowly calmed, his eyes glancing back at me for a split second-- I could see then that his darkened irises had faded slightly-- before looking back at Grey.

"It's about Cardella," As soon as the name came out of Grey's mouth, Theo's constant warm body had turned cold as his eyes went wide. From where I sat, I could see the emotion from Theo's face draining away from Grey's words sinking me-- however, I was overly confused over the situation.

"She's missing."

Theo jumped from my grip, a loud roar coming from his mouth as his fist had plunged into the wall beside Grey's head. You would expect Grey to have jumped back in fright but instead you stood his ground, his head down as his faced the ground.

Who was Cardella?

"What do you mean she's missing?" Theo shouted, his once calm manner that he held only moments ago with me was gone and the Theo in front of me was raging, red in his face and his eyes were now completely black with no pinch of sparkling blue, all flecks of gold.

"We went to get her for dinner but she was gone, she wasn't in her room nor was she in any room of the house. We've checked everywhere-- twice." Theo was now inches from Grey, whose head was still facing the ground as he was too afraid to look his fuming Alpha in the face.

"Then check a third time." Finally, Grey looked back up at Theo. I was shocked to see pain in Grey's eyes, worry was written over his face as he looked his Alpha in the eyes.

"She's not here, she's missing." Again, Theo plunged his fist in the wall-- in to the same hole that he had created only seconds before, his fist going deeper in to the wall that I wasn't sure if there was a wall anymore that his fist could go through.

"Call a meeting with the warriors now, I'll be there in a few minutes-- I want everyone of importance there!" Theo roared orders at his young Beta who immediately obeyed and disappeared from sight.

As soon as Grey was gone, Theo had thrown the door closed with his strength, the door flying from it's hinges and splinting from the force. Well, that's another door gone. He moved to the desk that was inches from the bed and threw it to the other side of the room-- the desk exploding into pieces on impact, the wall now having clear cracks as decoration.

I was frightened beyond belief, never in my life had I seen such rage in a person-- I suppose I've been living a sheltered life.

Whoever this Cardella person was, awakened emotion in Theo and had even caused his wolf to go into complete action mode, he was raging over someone and both my wolf and I intended to find out who.

"Theo!" My call to the one I was to call mine was ignored, Theo continued to break everything he saw in his room, everything that was in his way he obliterated with his own bare hands. "Theo!" I tried again, however once again I was ignored.

I jumped up to Theo, my hand landing on his shoulder to pull him back. As soon as my hand had reached his shoulder, his own hand shot up and grabbed my wrist-- twisting it as he turned, his teeth barring at me with his black eyes glaring at me.

Pain shot through my body and I gasped at the instant pain I was feeling coming from my wrist that Theo had captured in his hand.

"You're hurting me!" It was then that Theo had noticed what he was doing. His eyes that were momentarily black had went back to it's blue shine, his mouth popped open and he let go of my wrist as if it was burning him.

Instantly, I cradled my wrist to my chest-- an obvious darkened red mark around my wrist where Theo was once holding. I hissed at the pain that continued to rocket through my body, my eyes wet with my tears that I tried to blink back.

"Holly, I'm so sorry!" Theo called out, reaching out for me but before he could touch me I flinched back, still registering what had happened-- that he hurt me.

I knew deep down now he didn't mean to, I knew deep down that he couldn't have hurt me if he knew what he was doing-- he was blinded by rage.

The look on Theo's face pained me more than the injury I was currently sustaining. He looked torn apart that he had hurt me, that I had acted as if I didn't want to be anywhere near him-- to him, it was like I had rejected him.

"I'm so sorry." Theo croaked out, he gave me space by backing away and my wolf whined at his actions, hell I held back my own whine.

"It's okay," I winced as I made a move. The pain that was rocketing through my body slowly dulled, my wrist had already started to heal due the Alpha blood that was running through my veins, causing me to heal faster than regular werewolves. "I'm okay." I added, giving Theo a weak smile as he hesitantly looked over me.

"I could-- I would never intentionally hurt you."

I sighed, looking at the mess that Theo had made in the room. Wood was everywhere, desks were broken, lamps were smashed and there was no longer a door. I looked back at Theo, who was still staring at my healing wrist with a pained expression on his face.

"Who's Cardella?" I asked, causing Theo's head to shot up-- his eyes darkening at the sound of a sensitive topic. His eyes soon went back to normal and clearing his throat, he answered;

"My sister."