*****

After an eternity he finally gets off of me. I bury my face into the tear stained pillow as I let out more tears. He places a kiss on my neck and I cry even harder. He gets off the bed and looks down at me with a crooked smile on his face.

"I missed us, Regina. We had a great marriage until you ruined it. I can't wait to have you back." He says as he places a kiss on my forehead.

"You won't have me back. I'll never love you." I say and he laughs.

"That's alright, honey. Maybe tomorrow night you'll find your senses." He says before he leaves.

I close my eyes tightly and try to stop the tears from pouring out my eyes. I clutch the sheets in my hands as I press my face into the pillow, screaming as I drown in tears. Every part of me wants to lay here and cry but Robin will be here soon and I can't let him see me like this.

I get up from the bed and wince when I feel pain in my sore muscles. I pick up the clothes that were torn off my body and throw them away. I stumble into the bathroom and get in the shower. Water that would normally burn me has no affect on me now. I scrub my skin hard with the loofah as I cry to my hearts content. I hug myself as I lean up against the shower wall. I sigh before I get back to scrubbing my skin.

"I'm dirty, so dirty." I cry over and over again as I scrub my skin raw.

After an hour or so of standing in the shower I decide to get out. I look at myself in the full length mirror and see the bruises that are bound to form on my legs and arms. A tear manages to escape my eyes and I quickly wipe it away. I quickly get dressed and walk out the bathroom.

My eyes land on the bed that I was brutally pinned to moments ago. A shiver runs down my spine as I recall those pain filled moments. I walk out the room and down the stairs into the living room. The fireplace was lit so I sit on the couch watching the flames and thinking. His horrid breath, his poisonous mouth, his needy grasp and his disgusting body. I grow nauseous just thinking about it.

"Regina, what are you doing up?" I hear Katherine say behind me.

"I can't sleep there's a lot on my mind right now." I say as I look up at her.

"Have you been crying?" She asks me and I shake my head. "I know I haven't known you long but I can tell that something is bothering you."

"Is it really that obvious?" I say with a small laugh.

"Tell me what's wrong." Katherine says as she sits next to me.

"I really don't know you that well so it makes it easier for me to spill my guts out to you. Can you just let me tell my story and then I'll answer some of your questions?" I ask and Katherine nods.

"Of course, lovely. I just want you to feel comfortable." She says and I smile as I take a deep breath.

"I'll start with what just happened. Leopold or Leo like he had me call him while we were married just raped me. It was terrible and cruel like all the other times he's done it. It just hurt more this time because I have someone who loves me. I can't have Robin see me like this." I say with tears streaming down my face.

"Just tell him, he'll understand." Katherine says as she rubs my back.

"I'm afraid to tell him because Leo threatened my only daughter, who just so happens to be his daughter. I don't want anything bad to happen to her. She didn't have me all her life and I won't ruin the chances of her having me now." I say and she nods.

"I'm glad you told me. I'm so sorry, it must have been awful." She says as she gives me a hug.

"You can't tell Robin." I say and she just stares at me. "You can't tell him!" I say with tears in my eyes.

"I won't, I won't. You should just go get some sleep." She says and I shake my head.

"I'm not tired and I can't sleep in that bed." I say and she nods.

"Regina, just stay here and try to relax. You need your sleep and you'll feel a little better." Katherine says and I scoff.

"I doubt it." I say as I lay down on the couch.

"Please, just try to go to sleep. I'll be back soon." Katherine says as she places a blanket over my shoulder.

I give her a nod as I stare back into the fire. She gives me a worried look before she heads upstairs. It's quiet for a bit until I hear arguing. I sit up on the couch and stare at the stairs. Soon I see Katherine pushing Leo down the stairs as she spits British insults at him.

"You're like a dog with two dicks you idiot! Now, piss off you knob head and don't ever come into my house again! Had the nerve to touch Regina you arse! God, you disgust me!" Katherine yells at him and I can't help but laugh.

"She's lying! You can't trust the whore over your family!" Leo yells and I frown.

"You stupid slag she's more family then you'll ever be! Get out my house!" Katherine yells as she pushes Leo out the door of the house.

"Thank you." I whisper to Katherine and she nods.

She walks back over to me and sits next to me. She rubs comforting circles on my back. I look up at her and smile. She smiles back at me and I close my eyes. I know that I'm a grown woman but having a mother to protect you is something that everyone loves. I've never had that before and I'm glad that Katherine filled that void.

*****

Tears fall down my cheeks as I hug my knees closer to my chest. I hear his loud footsteps from the closet I'm hiding in. I try to quiet my tears as he enters the room. The closet doors swing open and I cry out when he drags me out the closet.

"Did you think you could hide from me, slut?" He says as he makes me stand up.

"No, I'm sorry I was hiding." I say and he smiles.

"Of course you're sorry. Now, why were you hiding?" He says as he pushes me to the ground.

"Please, don't hurt me. Don't hurt me." I say as I place a hand on my slightly swollen stomach.

"Are you pregnant?" He asks me in a surprisingly calm tone.

"Y-yes I am." I say with a small smile.

"Then you'll have to be extra careful not to hurt yourself, honey." He says and I nod.

"I will, I'll be careful." I say and he smiles.

"Then I suggest you lay on the bed and shut up."

*****

I pop my eyes open and sit upright on the couch. My eyes scan the room quickly as sweat pours off my body. My eyes meet Robin's and I instantly calm down. He gives me a soft smile and my breathing starts to slow down. He stands up from the chair and sits on the couch next to me.

"Hey, I heard you were sick. Since you're sick I was thinking we could go back home. Is that okay with you?" He asks me and I nod my head.

"Yeah, take me home. I just want to go home." I say and I wrap my arms around him and hug him tightly.

"We'll leave in a couple of hours. I just want you to feel better." He says and I nod my head. He tries to get up from the hug but I keep him in my grasp.

"I can't pack our stuff if you're hugging me." He says with a slight laugh.

"I'm sorry." I say as I let go of him.

"No need to be sorry. I love your hugs even when your burning up." He says as he touches my forehead. "Do you want some water?" He asks me and I shake my head.

"I can get it. Just check on the kids." I say and he nods as he gets up.

I throw the blanket off of me and wipe the sweat off my forehead. I get up from the couch and run my fingers through my hair. I haven't had that nightmare in forever, I haven't nightmares for years. I sigh to myself as I walk towards the kitchen.

"Good morning. I hope you're feeling better since you're sick." Katherine says and I smile.

"Thank you for your help last night. I probably would have lost it without you there." I say and she smiles.

"It's alright Regina. I just want you to feel comfortable in our home." She says as she gives me a hug.

"Why wouldn't she feel comfortable?" Richard says as he walks into the kitchen and I instantly get uncomfortable.

"She's uncomfortable because her uterus is shedding uncontrollably and blood is pouring out from her vagina causing her abdomen to have excruciating pain." Katherine says and I blush.

"Well, I'll be going. Have a nice chat." Richard says as he leaves and I laugh.

"It makes him leave every time." Katherine says and I laugh again.

"I'll keep that in mind." I say with a smile.

"Want some breakfast?" She asks me and I shake my head.

"No, I'm not really hungry." I tell her and she laughs.

"That wasn't a question. You're going to eat the breakfast anyway." She says and I laugh.

While Katherine is cooking Roland and Rose find their way into the kitchen. They plop themselves onto stools on either side of me. We start talking about all sorts of nonsense that the children wanted to do when we get home.

"Grandma, what's a knob head?" Rose asks and Katherine almost drops the spatula she was using.

"It's a bad word, don't say it." She says quickly and I laugh.

"Roland, you're a knob head." Rose says and me and Katherine burst out into laughter.

"What's everyone laughing about?" Robin says as he walks into the kitchen.

"Nothing." I say as I try to keep in my laughter.

"I have the suspicion that you're lying to me, honey." Robin says as he wraps his arms around me and I cringe at the name.

"Don't call me that. I don't like that name." I say in a serious tone and he removes his arms from me.

"Sorry, babe. We'll be on the next plane back to New York in a few hours." He says and I nod.

"Sorry, I'm just really cranky. I can't get a good night sleep without you." I say quickly and he laughs.

"Don't worry. You won' have another restless night again, I promise." He says and I smile.

"Good, now sit so we can have breakfast." I say and he smiles.

Robin sits down and Richard joins us. We eat breakfast and have slight conversation over small topics. Towards the end of breakfast Robin and Richard start arguing over politics, which gets boring. Katherine and I give each other a look before she starts to say something.

"Boys, quiet. You two arguing over some trivial politics is not interesting so save us the boredom and stop talking!" Katherine yells and they instantly stop talking.

"I don't know what half that was but I agree." Roland says and everyone starts laughing.

After breakfast we get dressed and start packing. Robin kept giving me glances and I can't help but think that he knows something is wrong. He's my fiance and he knows that something is wrong and I hate keeping secrets from him. Robin packs the car and we get ready to say our goodbyes. Richard pulls me into another bone-crushing hug.

"Bye, Regina. I loved having you here." Katherine says as she pulls me into a hug. "You need to tell him." She whispers in my ear and I nod.

"I promise I will. Bye, Katherine." I say with a wide smile.

After our goodbyes we get into the car. I stare out the window and sigh to myself. Robin holds my hand as he gives me a smile. I smile back at him knowing that I was never going to tell him.