It's been a long and tiring month. Robin keeps acting weird and everything is making me unbelievably uncomfortable. I have this awful feeling that something bad is going to happen and I wait everyday in great anticipation.

I've been having nightmares on a nightly basis now. I would wake up shaking and drenched in my own tears and sweat. Robin would always be there to hug me, kiss me and tell me that everything will be okay. Yet, all I ever do is push him away and say, "I'm fine."

The phrase has easily become my mantra. I used it whenever Emma came over and she knew something was wrong. I even used it when David called me, making sure his baby sister was taken care of. I even used it on my own kids when they asked, "Mommy why are you crying?"

"Regina, you're doing it again." Robin says from across the table.

"I'm sorry." I say as I stare down at my breakfast.

"Mommy, can we visit Granny again?" Rose says and I smile.

"Maybe we can visit her for spring break. It's all up to Papa." I say as I look up at Robin.

"I'll think about it princess. I'm sure Granny will love to have you stay over again." Robin says with a smile that fades when he looks at me.

The rest of the breakfast was creepily silent. I barely even touched my food thinking about Robin. I know he's mad at me but I still love him. And I know that somewhere inside him he loves me too.

"Okay, let's get you guys to school." Robin says as he gets the kids ready for school.

"Bye Mommy!" The kids say as they both give me a kiss on my cheeks.

"Have fun at school, I love you." I say as I give them each a hug.

They hurry out the door without another look in my direction. I sigh as I get up with my plate in hand. I throw out most of breakfast and start to wash the dishes. I hear Robin come back in and I feel his eyes staring at me as I wash the dishes.

"Is something wrong?" I ask him as I turn around to face him.

"We haven't kissed in a month and you cringe every time I touch you. You also never told me what was ever bothering you. I can't help but feel that you're hiding something from me." He says and I sigh.

"I'm not hiding anything, I'm fine." I say as I look down at the ground.

"You can't even look at me right now. Regina, tell me what's wrong. Please, I want to help." He says as he holds my shoulders.

"I don't need any help." I say as I shrug his hands off my shoulders.

"I know something happened in England. Stop being stubborn and tell me!" He yells and I flinch at his loud words.

"I can't!" I yell at him through my tears.

"Regina, I'm sorry I yelled at you. Just tell me, please." He says as he hug me.

"It hurts too much." I say and he wipes my tears.

"No matter how complicated it is I'll always love you." He says and I smile.

"I love you too." I say and he wraps me in a hug.

"Now, tell me what's bothering your pretty little head." He says and I laugh a little.

"When we were in England I was rap-" I start to say but I get dizzy.

"Are you okay?" Robin asks me as he steadies my arms.

"I'm fine." I say but then my world goes dark and I fall into Robin's arms.

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I wake up to a blinding light and I'm laying in a bed. I turn to see Robin laying his head on my stomach and him holding my hand tightly. I look around the room and notice I'm in a hospital.

"Robin." I whisper as I shake his hand.

"Regina, I'm glad you're okay." Robin says as he looks up at me.

"What happened?" I ask him and he frowns.

"You fainted and I brought you to the hospital. The doctor should be back with some test results." He says and I nod. "How are you feeling?"

"I'm okay but my head is killing me." I say and he laughs.

"You're starting to be honest again. You were in the middle of saying something before you fainted." Robin says and someone walks into the room before I can tell him.

"Hi, my name is Dr.Grey. You are completely fine, you just had some low blood pressure which caused you to faint. The baby had some strain on your body so you need to be careful." The doctor says and I sit there shocked.

"Baby?" Robin asks and the doctor stares at us.

"Well according to the tests we did you're about three weeks pregnant. Sorry to ruin the surprise." She says and I smile.

"We're pregnant!" I say as I look up at Robin.

"I'll give you two a moment. I just need you to sign some discharge papers and then you can leave." She says as she hands Robin some papers before she leaves.

"Regina, we're going to have a child." Robin says and tears fall down my cheeks.

"Oh, my god I'm pregnant." I say as I place a hand on my stomach.

Robin places his hand on top of mine and rubs my stomach. Tears fall down my eyes as I stare at his actions. He lifts my shirt up and bends down to kiss it. He places kisses all over my stomach and happy tears fall down my eyes as I giggle.

"You probably can't hear me yet but, I'm your daddy and I love you so so much. Mommy and I can't wait to see your beautiful face in a few months." He says and then he kisses my stomach again.

"Our child will love you so much." I say and Robin smiles.

"Not as much as they'll love you." Robin says and I smile.

"What are we going to tell Roland and Rose?" I ask Robin and he shakes his head.

"We'll tell them soon. I'm so excited." He says as he holds my hand tightly.

This is how I want to do it. I want to kiss him for the first time in weeks after finding out about my pregnancy. I grab his face and pull him down towards me. I softly press my lips against his and kiss him passionately. He pulls away after a minute and smiles at me.

"Let's get you two home." He says as he grabs the discharge papers.

After he signs them we quickly leave the hospital. Robin helps me into the car because I was still feeling a little dizzy. As we were driving Robin holds my hand tightly and rubs circles on the back of my hand.

"What do you want for brunch?" Robin asks me and I shake my head.

"I'm not really hungry. Can we just go home?" I ask him and he shakes his head.

"Well you're eating for two now so your going to eat. What do you want?" He asks me and I smile.

"I want tacos." I say with a smile and he laughs.

"Tacos. Why do you want tacos?" He says and I kiss his cheek.

"You should learn not to question the mother of your child. If I want tacos then it's your job to go buy me tacos." I say and he laughs.

"Okay, we'll stop at a place and get you some tacos." Robin says and I smile.

"Yum, can't wait." I say as I look out the window.

Soon Robin gets out the car to get me some tacos. While he's in the store I find myself rubbing my stomach. I smile thinking of the new child I'll unconditionally love. Robin gets back in the car and hands me a greasy bag filled with tacos.

"I love you." I say as I unwrap a taco.

"I love you too." Robin says as he gives me a kiss on my cheek.

"I was talking to the tacos." I say before I bite one.

"Of course you were." He says as he places a hand on my knee.

"We should have more tacos." I say with my mouth full.

"We will have many, many more tacos." Robin says and I nod.

Robin drives us home and per my request he carries me into the house. He lays me on the bed and I smile as I pull him down to lay next to me. This is perfect. I'm pregnant, I'm getting married and I'm with the man I love.

"Can you tell me about what happened? We keep getting interrupted." He says and I sigh.

"I'm going to be honest and tell you everything. Just let me finish before you react." I say and Robin nods his head.

"I'll wait until you finish." He says and I sigh rolling on my back and staring at the ceiling.

"Okay, I was married to your uncle. He's Rose's father and as you know he was abusive. So, when he comes out of nowhere I panic and drown. He just made me uncomfortable the whole time we were in England." I say with a sigh.

"Regina, I-" Robin says but I stop him.

"I'm not done. When you went to the pub that night he raped me and it was terrible." I say and Robin holds me tighter. "I was just so shocked and scared. I couldn't even look you in the eye or even touch you. I just felt so dirty and used and no one wants damaged goods." I say as tears fall down my cheeks.

"Regina, I still love you. Why didn't you tell me?" He asks me as he wipes my tears.

"He threatened Rose and I was just so scared. I didn't know how to tell you. I'm sorry." I say and I break down into tears.

Robin sighs as he sits up. He pulls me onto his lap and holds me close to his chest. He gently rubs my back as he whispers sweet words in my ear. I cling to his shirt and let my tears fall.

"You have nothing to be sorry about. None of this was your fault. I just wish you told me earlier. Who else knows?" He asks me and I laugh quietly.

"I told your mother and she kicked him out the house. In a way we became closer." I say and Robin nods his head.

"I'm glad you told someone. Now, unfortunately this causes a problem." He says and I look up at him. "Is there a chance the baby is Leo's?" He asks me and tears fall out my eyes.

How could I be so stupid and blind? The baby was conceived in England and there's a fifty percent chance that it's not Robin's. Tears fall quickly out my eyes as I ball my hands in fists and start hitting my head.

"I'm so stupid. Stupid, stupid, stupid." I say through my tears.

"Regina, stop it." He says as he grabs his hands. "Just tell me."

"Yes, it could be Leo's." I say and Robin sighs as he gets off the bed and walks towards the door.

"Where are you going?" I ask him through my tears.

"I can't be here right now. I'm trying to not be pissed in front of you. I can't show you how angry I am." He snaps at me and I sniffle.

"Where are you going?" I ask him again.

"Anywhere but here." He says and I start to cry harder.

"You promised not to leave!" I yell at him and he scoffs.

"Well things changes." He says and I sigh.

"Our love for each other never changed! You can't just leave when things get rough!" I yell at him and he scoffs.

"Well watch me!" He says as he leaves the room and slams the door.

"Robin, come back. I love you!" I scream as I cry violently. "I'll always love you."

Robin left me and I'm left alone with two children. I cry for hours as I scream out Robin's name over and over again. The only thing keeping me alive right now is the child I'm carrying that might belong to my rapist.

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