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OHM

These were the names that kept bugging me the whole day. Every time I had breaks from filming, my mind automatically shifted to thinking what in the world was happening with these people. Thinking about Fluke having a relationship with one of those guys made me restless.

I couldn't understand it, too. Honestly, I didn't know why I was jealous -- if it was really considered as jealousy -- but just like what Sammy said, I was not even his boyfriend. Shocks! Just thinking that he already had a boyfriend or if they were just his suitors, I couldn't even sit still.

Hearing those names from Sammy and P' New made me think that I should make a move now. As in NOW. But how would I do that? I couldn't even see him. There were some chances for us to meet, but we didn't.

There was one time that Sammy invited me for dinner. I was an hour late because of my commitments, I wouldn't actually come, but when I checked if they were still there, I decided to still go. Then, I knew it right then that Fluke came and he had just left minutes before I arrived. And the crazy thing about it was when they showed me the pictures they took with Fluke during the dinner. He was so cute! I even sneaked out some of his solo pictures and send them to my phone when Sammy was not looking.

Then another one, when P' New invited me to go to a ramen house. As much as I wanted to go with them, I had to go to a meeting for my new endorsement. While I was at the meeting, imagine my surprise when I saw a picture posted by P' New -- him with Fluke and Sammy! He even tagged me, and with a caption,

Life could be cruel sometimes. That feeling as if you were being deprived of the opportunity to see the person you really wanted to see was the worst. As if no matter what happened, you still wouldn't really meet. It's crazy, right? Sometimes I felt that destiny really didn't want me to see him. It was just annoying sometimes, but he was really the one I wanted. What was happening to me?

I was thinking the whole time I was sitting on a chair at the corner when Sammy suddenly sat on the other one beside me. Actually, I didn't notice her walked towards me until she settled on a seat next to mine.

"Hey! What's your problem?" she said nudging my shoulder.

"Nothing. . ."

"What do you mean nothing. . . every time you have a break. . . you just sit here and you stay quiet. . ."

"I'm just thinking."

"What are you thinking about? You know you can always talk to me."

I stayed quiet for a while and without looking, I said, "Sammy?"

"Oh?" she said and looked at me.

"I really like him." she didn't say anything, so I continued. "Is it really possible to fall in love this fast? 'Cause I only met him once. . . well, I can see him, but only in pictures. . . I also hear his voice whenever you talk to him on the phone. . . is it really possible even we only have those interactions? But I've been restless since this morning. . . thinking about what you and P' New said. . . about those other guys. . ." I said and looked at her, I know she was just suppressing her laughter, but I didn't even care about it, even if she laughed at me. Even I laughed at what was happening to myself. "I don't want to see him in a relationship with another guy. . . Am I weird? Because I'm not his boyfriend, I have no right, but I'm really jealous right now." then I let out a deep sigh after telling her what I was feeling.

She was smiling from ear to ear, and I didn't know why. "Ohm," she sighed, "You know, we can't predict when we will fall in love. Just like what they say, love moves in mysterious ways. Sometimes when you first meet someone, you immediately fall in love. Sometimes, it will take too long to know that you are in love with each other. We can't tell when your heart will beat for someone, can we? " she pointed at my chest. "It's not your fault if your heart beats for someone that fast. Maybe it is possible for you to fall in love so quickly. If your heart recognized his heart right away, we can't do anything about it. Maybe it's really like that."

"What if his heart won't immediately recognize my heart? What should I do?" I seriously asked, closing my eyes and let out a deep sigh.

She didn't answer. I opened my eyes and looked at her. She was just looking straight, watching the people busy fixing the set. "Then wait for him to recognize it. . . Can you wait if that is the case?" I just smiled at her and nodded. "People's hearts are different, not in all cases that your hearts will beat at the same time. . . there are also times when you have to make an effort so he would see that you are also the one his heart is beating for. . . just be patient. . . and if it happens that he already knows or feels that you both feel the same way, whoever those guys around him. . . only your heart will be what his heart look for. . . did you get it?" I just nodded in response.

We just sat there quietly for a few more minutes then she stood up to go and prepare for her next scene. She was about to walk away when I stopped her "Sammy, thank you. Sometimes you really have some sense to talk."

She smirked and answered, "Crazy. I've been like this for a long time. You just don't take me seriously." For the first time today, I let out a hearty laugh, "There. Just like that. You don't look good when you're frowning. I couldn't even read what was on your mind a while ago. . ."

"Thank you, Sammy! Thank you for always giving me advice whenever I need it."

"You're welcome. . . but, Ohm. Don't be too complacent, though. Remember, there are still three names around the person you love." She said and walked away.

I was left dumbfounded. What will I do now? I have to make a plan.

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