I didn't know where everyone else was. I didn't care. I needed him in that moment.

He groaned and his mouth was back on mine in an instant. He pushed me backwards, up against the wall as he continued to work me over. His hands were all over my body. I felt his hardness as he thrust his hips into mine and a wave of panic overcame me.

Suddenly, I couldn't breathe. I gasped, pushing him away. He backed off me as I struggled to catch my breath. I looked down at my feet, refusing to meet his eyes. I was so embarrassed at my overreaction but all I could think of was what we had lost and what had led to it.

"Baby" Baby. Our Baby I know that wasn't how he meant it but it hit me like a ton of bricks. I wanted to forget. I wanted to get past it. I couldn't.

"Oh Dia, sweetheart." He whispered. With a flip of a switch, Jimin went from animalistic sex to tenderhearted. His duality shouldn't surprise me anymore but it did. He came forward once again and wrapped me up in his arms.

He held me for a long time as I sobbed and I felt his tears on my shoulder as we both mourned for what was lost. After we both had calmed down, he lifted me in his arms and carried me upstairs to his room.

I expected him to set me on his bed but he walked past it and into the bathroom. He placed me on the counter and stood between my legs momentarily, kissing me gently on the cheek before stepping away and starting the shower.

In an instant, he was back between my legs. "Just let me take care of you, Dia."

I nodded, tears attempting to form in my eyes yet again.

When the water was warm enough, he stripped us both of our clothes and held my hand, guiding me into the walk in shower. He took his time, washing every inch of my body and hair. He bathed me clean as if he worshiped my body.

We didn't speak a word to each other and he didn't kiss me or make any other attempts. This wasn't a sexual move on his part. This was an act of love. We both had tears streaming down our face and for the first time, I truly felt his loss along with my own.

Why did I shut him out? He was hurting too.

Jimin turned off the water and wrapped himself in a towel, before drying every inch of my skin as tenderly as he had washed it. When I was thoroughly dried, he picked me up, leaving both towels on the bathroom floor and laid me in the bed, covering me with the covers before climbing in behind me.

We laid like that for the rest of the afternoon. There was nothing erotic or steamy about that time together. It was intimate in it's own way. Our naked skin touching in every possible way simply for the sake of being together.

It was at that moment that I realized how incredibly genuine and real this man was. I was unsure about our future. I couldn't help my insecurities after everything that had happened. But I didn't doubt that he cared deeply. He had managed to break down every wall I had built around myself in the past week. And he was healing a part of me that felt like it would be damaged forever.

"I love you, Dia. I do. I know we haven't been together long. But you have to know how much you mean to me. how much that baby meant to me. I wish I could make things different. There is so much I could give you but I can't give you the one thing I want to. I would do anything for you. Tell me we are going to be okay."

His words cut me. I laid there in his arms feeling every emotion run through me. This man was pouring his heart and soul out to me. I wanted to respond in kind but it was still too raw for me.

"I love you too, Jimin" It was all I could say at the moment. I only hoped he understood. I felt his arms go tighter around my stomach. After a few minutes, it grumbled in hunger. I hadn't eaten since I left the hotel earlier.

"Are you hungry?" He asked rhetorically. He got up out of bed and threw some clothes on. "I can go grab some food. Do you want to come downstairs to eat or do you want me to bring it in here?"

I contemplated my options. I couldn't avoid life forever. I wasn't built that way even if it would be so much easier to hide away in this bed. "I'll come downstairs."

Jimin smiled, "Take your time." He closed the door behind him and I was alone again. I sat up in bed, sighing, and thinking about the direction my life had gone in since I arrived at this beach house at the beginning of the summer. I was in love with an amazing guy. But he wasn't just a normal guy with a normal life. And in another month, I would have to return to my utterly normal life and my utterly normal college. I didn't know how to reconcile our different lives.

My stomach grumbled once more, snapping me out of my thoughts and I threw on some clothes to head downstairs. These major life issues would have to wait.