Jimin and JHope were a bunch of big kids. They splashed around and roughhoused like a bunch of kids would. They bickered and pouted like a bunch of kids would. They teased each other and pulled pranks like a bunch of kids would.

We were spending the day on the beach. Jess and I were laying out getting some sun while Jimin and JHope goofed off in the waves. It was the perfect day, not too hot or too cold.

"How are things with you and Hobi?" I asked. We hadn't really had a chance to talk about much with the miscarriage and everything else that had happened.

Jess looked down in her lap, blushing.

"Things are.....good" She giggled and covered her mouth. "What am I saying? They are more than good. Oh, Dia. I'm scared. This man is my life now. I think he feels the same but what if he doesn't?"

"What do you mean by 'he is your life now'? That's a pretty big statement."

Jess pulled her sunglasses off her eyes, looking at me. "I mean just that. Whatever happens, no matter where I go, I want to be with him. I always have. I just thought this ship had sailed."

She heaved a deep sigh. "While Namjoon was here, he found me in the kitchen one day. Wanted to talk while everyone else was gone."

Oh no. He had that same talk with me.

"He thought it was important that I knew that Hobi wanted me to see him kissing another girl."

Wait. That wasn't what I expected, "Huh? He what?"

"Yeah. He said that JHope was concerned about putting me through all the stresses of dating while he was an idol. He didn't want our relationship to be revealed and have me skewered by Army. He didn't want me sitting around every weekend, every month waiting to hear from him and not living life. So he orchestrated the whole thing."

"Wow."

"Yeah. It's why he didn't deny it. It's why he didn't fight me when I broke things off with him and left. He thought he was protecting me. He had no idea how difficult the past two years had been. How much I had to fight to forget about him and couldn't. Apparently, Namjoon said that Hobi had been suffering too. It was how he found out. He forced it out of Hoseok one night when he was drunk, lamenting over our failed relationship."

"He talked to me also. But it was a very different conversation." I stated.

Jess turned her heard towards me. "I know he seems like he's trying to control everything. He really does just care about the boys and wants what's best for them."

"I know." I rested my chin on my arms and looked at the boys as they tried to dunk each other under the waves. "I'm glad you were able to find out the truth."

Jess blew out a huge breath. "I'm so in love with him, Dia. I don't care what hardships I have to go through. He's it for me."

I envied Jess in that moment, that she didn't question her strength or her ability to handle whatever came her way. I wanted to be that sure of things. I wasn't. I had doubts.

A little while later, the boys came up and laid down next to us, drying their bodies in the sun. I couldn't help but lust after Jimin. He was lying on his stomach and the ripples and lines of his muscular back was doing all sorts of things to my insides. This was the kind of thing that I knew I would never grow tired of. Could I handle all the rest? I hated that I was so unsure of things. I hated Namjoon for putting the doubts in my head. I understood where he was coming from but that didn't mean I liked it.

Jimin breathed in a deep breath and my attention was brought back to the muscles in his back rising up and down, causing me to clinch my legs together. I wanted him so bad. He had his head turned away from me but as if sensing my ogling, he lifted his head and turned it towards me, laying back on the towel. He could see the desire I had for him in my eyes. It was mirrored in his own.

"Down, girl" He whispered. He had said that to me before. I bit my lip, not sure that I would be able to control myself much longer if he continued looking at me like that.