"You are pretty too." I tell him as we stand in the elevator together. Trev is holding Luella up, who is now half awake but I was stood happily leaning against August for support and well why the fuck not.

"Em." T laughs, shaking his head at me and I shrug.

"My mumma and your mumma Ivy always tell me that boys need to be complimented too because otherwise they don't feel beautiful and you both are very beautiful."

"Please someone get her to stop talking." August mutters, the first words of the night.

I smile.

"You spoke."

"Yes."

"Hi." I smile and he sighs, heavily.

"Were you asleep?" I ask, looking up at him and he looks down and shakes his head.

"Why?"

"Why what?" He replies.

"It's almost three, I think, why weren't you asleep?"

"Because I just wasn't."

"I wanna sleep." Luella mumbles and Trev laughs, wrapping his arm around her tighter and he whispers something in her ear.

She smiles up at him.

I look at August.

"Hello?" I say again. "We were friends earlier, are we still friends?"

He closes his eyes in annoyance.

"You are an annoying drunk."

I nod. "I also fell in the car."

He looks down at me. "Pain?"

"Nope." I say and then I pull away from him, slumping against the cold mirror and I lift my dress up a little bit. "Look!" I exclaim. "It actually burnt me."

Goodness I don't like not wearing knickers, it feels scary. I let my dress drop back down and look up at August's face. He looks bored.

I don't think he saw anything.

It's okay.

I smile. "Hi."

"Hello Emersyn." He sighs and I grin more, closing my eyes and leaning my head back against the cool mirror.

And then the doors open again and I pout.

"But it's cool in here."

"Oh come on." He says grabbing a hold of my wrist and he pulls me out. Trev and Luella already in front of us.

"I danced on the bar." I say.

Silence.

"The bouncer picked me up, I flew."

He snorts and I slide my hand down his wrist and lock our fingers together, swinging them between us and he tries to let go of my hand but I hold it tightly.

"I am a strong person." I tell him and he just nods a little.

"Also. Guess what..."

"What Em?"

Oh.

"I like it when you call me Em. It makes me think you don't dislike me as much as you say you do."

"Emersyn is just a mouthful."

I pout.

"Also..." I say and Trev unlocks the door and I walk in, taking my shoes off and walking towards the big window in the kitchen.

I dunno when I dropped his hand.

I look down at my lonely hand and feel bad for it. I link my own fingers together and nod, that's better.

"I am going to put Lue to bed." Trev says. "Please make sure she doesn't like jump out a window or something mental." He says, nodding to me and August just sighs, agreeing and locking up the flat door.

I open the window and lean my forehead against it.

"I like drinking because I am always cold but right now I am really hot and it's a nice change in the way my body feels."

He doesn't reply, just walks over and leans against the kitchen side.

Then he talks. Yay.

"You need water or like food?"

"Pizza sounds good." I try to flutter my eyelashes and he deadpans at me.

"Something in your eye?"

"I really want pizza but I want you to sort it."

He laughs a little. "Emersyn it's three in the morning."

I shrug. "It's the city. Please?" I say softly walking towards him and he extends his hand out to stop me leaning against his front, his fingers pressing into my stomach and I just look down at them.

"Pizza please."

"Emersyn." He chuckles, shaking his head at me and I just dramatically sigh.

"Fine." I mutter. "Trev!" I shout loudly and August startles slightly at the sudden change of volume.

"yeah?" He calls out.

"You want pizza?" I ask.

He walks out of his room and he nods. "As long as pizza isn't a carb."

I laugh loudly. "No Trev it's not a carb."

It is. Right? But it's just a little lie.

Oh well I just really want pizza.

"Okay then yeah, I am down for some pizza."

"Cool order me a cheese and tomato; thank you very much."

He blinks, and then he laughs, walking over to the couch and lying down but he gets his phone and I know he's sorting it out.

"You always get what you want huh?" August says and I just nod up at him.

"Occasionally not, but I try."

He laughs, shaking his head down at me and his hand closes, so his fist is now pressed against me making sure I keep a little distance.

"Hug?" I ask and he smiles, shaking his head at me.

But he does smile. Even if it's to reject my hugs.

"Guess what?" I whisper and he lowers his head to hear me.

I whisper it so Trev doesn't hear. I just wanna tell him.

"I don't have any knickers on."

His head pulls back, quickly, and he slides out from being stood between me and the kitchen side.

"Emersyn go and sit your ass down on the sofa." He grits.

I just grin, skipping over to the sofa and I sit down, running my hand through my hair and August just gets me a glass of water and practically slams it down in front of me.

"The poor coffee table." I mumble, reaching for it and August sits down on the armchair.

"She's really fucked." August says. "Like eat pizza and puke drunk."

"I can't deal with sick so that'll be your job."

"She's your mate." August says and Trev laughs, I just frown.

"August are we friends yet?"

He sighs heavily.

"Be aware I might cry if you say no."

"Emersyn..." He says.

I shrug.

"Okay guess not."

August remains silent and then Trev and him are discussing what pizza to get.

"I just would like no meat." I say. "If they do vegan cheese that is even better."

"I am not getting fake cheese Em." Trev says and I look at him.

"But it's for me not you."

"It's coming to my house. I can't let that impression be made."

I nod.

I don't understand.

August laughs, so does Trev and I just nod pretending I get it.

"Also guess what." I say and they both look at me cautiously.

"What?" Trev says as I look at them expecting an answer.

"I still really wanna cut my hair."

"Go to a hairdresser." August laughs and I smile when I see him amused. Finally.

"I don't have the dollar."

"Yes you do, you work most of the week."

"Yes but that's for the world not for hair."

They both don't really understand me.

"August can I have clothes please because I feel naked."

"You practically are." Trev laughs and I huff, covering myself with the sofa cushion and he laughs.

"Why my clothes, why not Trev's?"

"Cos I don't wanna piss off Luella." I smile.

Honestly, I just wanted his clothes more than I did Trev's.

"Also, you smell nice." I admit.

He looks at me unimpressed.

"You are too drunk."

"I feel good to be honest."

He stands up and heads towards his bedroom and I just grin, standing up too and following him.

"Did I give you permission to enter?"

I look at him and shrug. "I don't know. Did you?"

"No." He sighs, turning around. "You said you felt exposed last time I gave you the boxers as shorts but not much else will fit you."

I sit down on his bed.

"I had a good nap here the other day."

He pinches his nose in annoyance.

"You got all angry though because you snuggled me." I say, feeling his soft duvet in my hands.

"You are annoying." He mutters and I just nod, yeah, whatever.

"Clothes Emersyn any ideas?"

"I don't mind just wearing what we were wearing the other day around you and Trev. It was just the strangers."

He nods once and he tosses me the bag my dad had given him, so I smile knowing the exact little outfit I was going to put on.

I open it and slide the boxers up under my dress, not really being careful, not really caring and when I go to lift the dress up over my head August turns around quickly.

"Jesus Christ Emersyn. Warn a guy."

I keep quiet and just stare at him, letting the cool air hit me as I sit topless on August's bed and then I laugh, this was weird, shit I was drunk. I pull his t-shirt on and then I climb back, manoeuvring so I was laid under his covers in the middle of his double bed.

"Nuh uh." He says, turning around as he hears me get under the covers.

I close my eyes, warmth and comfiness surrounding me.

"No you can't sleep here." He laughs and I open my eyes.

"Why?"

"Maybe because you have a boyfriend?" he mutters. "My little brother? Ring any bells?"

"Nah." I laugh, closing my eyes again. "Raynie who's he?"

August sighs and the asshole rips the covers of me, and I just stare up at him wide eyed.

"Get out of my bed."

"Okay daddy bear." I laugh, sitting up. He reminded me of the daddy bear in goldilocks where he's like whos been sleeping in my bed?

"I need sleep." I mumble, walking out of his room and I smile at Trev when he lifts an eyebrow at us.

"You were in there for a little bit." He says, laughing at August's unimpressed glare.

"She decided she wanted to sleep."

"It's okay. I want pizza now." I smile, walking towards August's armchair and stealing his spot.

"My head feels a lot. Like it's really spinning."

"Yes blue you are drunk."

"I don't like it." I mumble and August dumps a blanket on my lamp and then sits down besides Trev.

That is when the doorbell rings and I grin, happy that we are going to be eating very soon.

"Still don't think it's a good idea for her to eat." August says and I just scramble up from my chair and they can't stop me before I swing the flat door open.

"Hello!" I exclaim, grinning at the boy with three pizza boxes. "Oh my goodness I love you."

He looks at me sort of amused, sort of afraid and August pulls me back to him, his hand clutching his top and I slam against his chest.

"Sorry she's pissed. How much is it?"

The guy tells him the amount and I just stay here, happy leant against Leo chest as he pays.

"You know..." I smile and August literally lets out a noise of frustration.

"Never mind." I whisper and he looks over at me.

"Sorry. What were you going to say?"

"Nothing."

I go and sit back down, wrapping the blanket over my shoulders and August hands me the pizza box.

I open it and it is a dream.

"Wow." I whisper and they both chuckle, Trev flicking on some trashy tv and I place the pizza on the coffee table, getting comfy and picking up a slice.

"Thank you I love you both very much." I swear to them, smiling they both just look at each other in amusement.

"You are very loving." Trev says and I nod, sliding my eyes from the tv to his.

"Pizza."

He chuckles and I eat once slice and then decide I've had enough and I close my eyes.

I wasn't even sleepy, not really, I am just the lights are bright as.

"I am bored." I tell them and they both look at me once I turn my head to theirs as if to say that that is not their problem.

I agree.

"Would you be mad at me if I baked you a cake?"

Trev splutters a laugh and he shakes his head.

"Go for it Eme-"

"You aren't allowed in the kitchen. Trev she is clumsy enough sober. No."

I pout at August and Trev just laughs, carrying on eating his pizza.

"Are you feeling better now?" I ask him and he sighs, looking at me and he searches my face for some sort of intention.

"My only reason to ask is cos I care about you. Stop it." I grumble, annoyed that I truly think he's thinks I am a bad person.

I get comfier in the arm chair and I know ima fall asleep, my head feels like it's whizzing.

I need a pee.

I groan and sit up.

"Oh god." Trev says watching me cautiously.

"Em I have a phobia of sick so please don't."

He actually sounds nervous.

"T it's okay I don't feel sick I just need a wee." I smile and he breathes again, nodding for me to go and do my business and I just wander towards the little bathroom.

I like it here. It feels so comfy.

So familiar even though it's not that familiar. After I peed for the hundredth time tonight I stand a little shakily in front of the mirror. My eyes look drunk, they are all sloppy almost but at least my makeup still looked decent. And then I huffed, wanting to take it off but not being able to because as soon as I try and wash my face my mascara and eyeliner will run all down my face and then the boys really will get a fright.

A fright like I got when August knocks on the bathroom door.

I had been in here in for a while.

I open it, stood directly opposite him and I give him a smile.

He regards me, confused.

"Are we good?" He grumbles and I nod, walking towards him and he side steps me, letting me out the room.

"I wanna take my makeup off." I tell them and the go towards the kitchen, being followed by him. I look around for Trev.

"Where...?"

"He went to bed." August tells me.

I nod.

"You can go to bed." I tell him, picking at my eyelashes because they felt so sticky, gross. "Please help me take my makeup off."

Tad contrasting.

"No." He chuckles and I just sigh, leaning against the kitchen side.

I am tired.

"Then sleep."

I slide away from his lack of patience and slump down on the sofa. Closing my eyes immediately when my head hits one of the couch pillows.

My blanket from the chair gets lifted and dumped on me and I just smile to myself, snuggling in more.

And then I am left. Which is fine. Nights here, lights switched off but as I try to relax my heart is honestly beating a lot, my head spinning and after probably half an hour of trying to actually sleep I sit up.

He's going to be angry.

But I can here him watching something in his room so....

I walk bare foot over to his door and then knock.

I hear his heavy sigh, but It makes me smile.

"Can I come in?"

"No." August mutters from within his room but then the door is pulled open and I stumble forward at the sudden change in my visual field.

Part of it being August's exposed chest and I happily, openly stare and take him in.

Why not?

"What do you want Em?" He says and I just try to slide round him.

His hands hold me still, telling me no. But his hands are on my hips, holding me tightly, harshly.

I probably shouldn't like that.

"Please let me come in."

He heaves a heavy sigh and shakes his head. "Emersyn you are being hard work."

"I will not speak to you." I offer. "I just don't wanna be alone."

His hands fall and I smile, brushing past him and I climb into bed, respectfully climbing into the cooler side so I don't take his place and he just shuts the door and turns around, his eyes stressed out as he looks at me in his bed.

My eyes are attached to the tv, he's watching me as if I was the show itself.

"Hi can you please keep me company your staring isn't fun." I say, turning my head to his and he huffs, turning the light back off and he walks towards me getting into bed besides me.

"Emersyn this isn't okay."

"Why not?" I ask, lying down more and he sighs, not replying to me but he does relax a little after a while, my head turned watching him and his eyes glued to his programme.

"August?" I whisper and he looks at me.

"You never answered me earlier. I asked you how you are."

"I am fine Emersyn." He says and he tenses when my hand slides across the bed and I run my fingers softly along his exposed side.

"Emersyn." August shakes his head at me.

I don't really know why he's shaking his head. I move closer, sliding my hand across his chest, feeling his skin, the warmth of it. He's very warm. Even in his cold mood, his skin feels almost glowing.

His hand wraps around my fist and his eyes glare into mine.

"No."

"No?" I whisper confused. "Your skin is warm."

"Stop with the touching."

"Sorry." I say, my eyes growing heavy and I link our fingers and I smile because although after every time he realised what I have done he tries to pull my hand away, he never actually stops me from holding his hand.

I bring it back over to me and I slide closer to him, lifting his hand in the air between us and I see the faint scars again. It makes me so sad.

"I never saw them before today." I whisper, looking at them with the light of the mood coming through the window behind us and the tv making it pretty clear.

"New ones highlight the old ones." He offers.

"Why'd you do it? This one?" I say my eyes looking at it and he goes silent and I turn to him, our sides pressed and so I slide even closer, looking at his tense face, his jaw clenched and I can't help it I press my hand against his face.

"Why so angry?"

"Because my morals are spinning." He chuckles and I don't understand so I just sigh and look back to his wrist and I keep just feeling so sad when I look at it. I lean over him, grabbing his other fist and I pull that towards me too and August rolls on his side, watching me curiously as I sit up more, and I look down at both of his arms.

They are both not okay.

"Why didn't I ever notice when we were younger?" I whisper and August tries to pull his arms out from my grasps and then I remember a little story my dad once told me and I link my fingers with August's right hand and I pull it up to my lips, pressing a kiss down on his hand, and then his wrist and then his arm.

And he takes in a sharp breath every time my lips make contact with his skin.

His wrist suddenly is taken away from me and he sits up stressed, angry at me.

"Stop."

I raise my hands in surrender and he shakes his head at me. "Innocent my ass, you know exactly what you are doing."

My eyebrows pull together.

"I was kissing your scars."

"You don't do that Emersyn." He grist and I just sit cross legs in his bed, looking at him confused.

"Why not?" I whisper and he just shakes his head at me.

"Why are you so angry?" I say and August heaves a heavy sigh.

"Because it's taking me all I have to resist you."

My eyes widen at that.

I sit back.

"I am not- I am not trying it on Leo."

He shakes his head at me. "I know."

I am confused.

"Why are you resisting me?" I ask, my embarrassment not coming tonight. I changed very suddenly from oh my goodness I am not trying to do that to slightly offended, why doesn't he want that?

I laughed then, lying down. "Resit me." I snort. "You sound like you're actually tempted."

No one sees me like that.

"Emersyn." August shakes his head and he gets out of bed, standing up.

"Where are you going?" I ask him.

"Out of here."

I frown, reaching out to him. "August why are you leaving?" I whisper.

"Because you are too innocent."

I just stare at him.

"You wanna make me less innocent?" I whisper and he actually groans, turning around away from me and I laugh at that, amused, sort of fascinated actually.

"Leo?" I ask.