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A lot of things have been on my head lately. I feel everyone is drifting and we're not talking as much. Of course i'm with Stoke every day and talk to Miles every day but every one else. Symere, Kim, Jarad, Gazzy, all of them. They're only a call and text away but they're probably all busy with married life.

It must be so nice to be married. I'm so happy for them that they get that type of lifestyle.

At was at lunch with Stokeley and he was sitting across from him. On his phone. I rolled my eyes, he's always on that phone. I sighed, trying to get his attention. He continues typing. I sighed again, this time more dramatic, all he does in sniff. I rolled my eyes and got up to sit near him. I lean my head on his shoulder and look at what he's doing on his phone. He's texting Omar. Something about..weed and smoking. Typical.

I reach over and start rubbing his dick through his black jeans.

"Jahseh." Stokeley finally says. "We're in public."

I continue to do what I'm doing, "So?"

"So..we can't do that in public. You know we can get arrested for doing stuff like that in public."

"In Florida? I doubt it."

"Still."

I groan and pull away. "You're no fun." I said.

He says nothing and continues typing on his phone, taking a sip from his drink. I lean in to whisper in his ear, "I want a baby."

He nearly dropped his phone as he started violently coughing. I patted his back to let him catch his breath, "Are you okay."

"No." Stokeley barely answers. He finally stopped coughing and looked over at me.

"What did you say earlier?" He asked me.

"Are you okay?"

"No before that."

Oh.. you're no fun?"

"No, Jah." Stokeley says turning to me. "About you wanting a baby."

"Oh..yeah I remember. What about it?"

"What do you mean by you want a baby?" Stokeley asked.

"I want to have a baby, what else does it mean?" I said.

"You're a boy, Jahseh."

"So."

"You have a dick."

"Why do you always got to hurt my feelings." I said.

Stokeley sighed, "How long have you been thinking about wanting a baby."

"Actually, I just came up with it." I said, "But now we talk about it, I actually want one."

"And where are we going to get a baby from?"

"Duh. Just contact your local stork and they'll deliver one."

Stokeley looked at me confused, "What the fuck is a stork."

"Issa bird. That delivers babies. We were all delivered by storks to our parents. How do you not know this."

"Jahseh, i'm serious. Do you actually want a baby?" He said grabbing my hands, "Do you think we're ready for a baby?"

I don't even actually know. I just came up with it to get his attention. But all realness, I think we are ready for a baby. I'm just not sure if we should consider one now.. that would mean we'd have to spend our money FIRST on the baby before we do anything else, clothes, food, waking up at random times in the night, we would have to move around all the things in our place to make space and buy a crib and build it and - no, actually, we are not ready.

"Yes. We're ready." I said.

He studied me a little before pulling away, "Okay." he answered, "I think we should get an animal first. Like a dog."

"If we're gonna get any animal it should be a cat." I suggested. It's not that I hate dogs, I LOVE dogs.. I just think that we should have a cat because they're calmer. Of course not every cat is calm and every dog is wild but still.

"Dog." He said.

"Cat." I said back.

"Dog."

"Cat, Stokeley."

"I do not like cats." Stokeley says. I sighed, let's just go home and talk about this later.

We've been out long enough. Honestly, I don't know if we're ready for a child. One, we're not married. Two, Stokeley still likes cancer sticks and weed so that's a no good around a baby. But it's not just Stokeley, it's me also. I don't think i'd be good around a baby. I never taken care of one before.

I guess there's a first time for everything.

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