A/N

This is a very serious subject and has affected me in the past. I hope that this does not affect anyone and if it does you will get over it. I did and so can you if you stay strong! Xx

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Your POV:

I looked at myself in the mirror, ribs showing very clear, cuts and bruises all over my legs and wrists, bloodshot eyes from crying. And I hadn't told nic! All of this had been happening since he had gone to film IT!

I walk downstairs and look in the cupboards, I grab the bottle of pills labelled 'strong Advil take one per day" I didn't care though,

I went into the bathroom and pores out half of the bottle and placed the pills on the side. My phone starts to ring, my best friend is calling me. I ignore it, my friend is the only one who knows about my self harm and I wish I hadn't told her! I receive a voicemail and i open it,

"Y/n call me back now please stop whatever your Doing call me now!"

I pick up my phone and call her back

"Yes?" I reply bluntly,

"Y/n where are you? What are you doing?" She asks worried

"I'm in my bathroom? Why? Oh and y/bf/n(your best friend name)?"

"Yeah y/n?"

"Thank you for being my friend I love you and tell nick I love him and that I don't want him to miss me for to long. Thanks" i reply down the phone crying

"NO Y/N YOU CANT DO THIS TO YOURSELF OR ME OR NIC!!" She shouts, I hang up.

I look at the pills and cry.

I hear the door open downstairs,

"Y/N WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU!!" I hear nick shout from downstairs,

I take 4 pills. I scream, the pain is unbearable!

He runs up the stairs, "Y/N OPEN THE FUCKING DOOR NOW OTHERWISE IM GONNA BREAK THE DOOR DOWN!!

I take the rest of the pills before I stop myself I scream so loud and fall to the floor screaming and crying.

Suddenly the door breaks down, I see nicks blurred face.

"No No no fuck shit. Y/n why this no you can't leave me why!! How many did you take!!!" He holds me crying.

"I t took 11..." and then everything goes blank.