Lisa McCarter

The best feeling on the first day at Hogwarts? When you lay on your bed and can enjoy the smell of the place where you can relax so much. Albus breathed it in as deep as he could. It wasn't any smell, it was his smell. Lemon sweets and Honeycake. And these two make, his so special smell. He sank deeper into the warm sheets, closed his eyes and let out a soft sigh. Albus wrapped his arms around his waist, enjoying how everything was perfect just in this moment. How he felt home. How he felt safe. „Hello, Hello, Hello Mister Dumbledore!" Tray laughed and dropped himslef on the bed next to him. Tray. That boy. One year younger, he is the boy, looking so good on the broom, playing Quidditch every Saturday. „Hey Tray" the older one replied, smiles softly as he sat up, looking directly in the Hazel eyes of the boy. „Merlin, you look good today AlAl" Tray joked as he kept the pure smile on his lips. „I'm always good looking, what did you expect?" The boys bursted out laughing, filling the room with a joyfull sound. „Alright old man, I'mma go in the rest room. Since I know you for a bit; sleep well big boy" Tray winked at himas he got up, grabbed some clothes and left the dorm.

Albus chuckled as he moved to take his shirt of and changes into his pyama. He laid back in his bed, wrapped his red, warm blanket around him and turned to the side. He couldn't get rid of the big grin on his lips. Albus closed his eyes, thought about the chances he would have in this brand new year. He would try the best to be the best. He needed to be the best. For Aberforth and Ariana. For his happiness.

„Good Morning dear students of Gryffindore. Please wake up and get ready for the breakfast in the great hall. Please make sure to arrive at your class in time, I wish you a succsesfull year!" The headmasterof Gryffindore shouted through the common room. Albus was already awake for a while, showered rather quickly and was drying his hair. The towel wrapped around his waist as he looked into the old, dirty mirror, starring directly at the outstanding rips. He hated being this thin, but no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't gain any weight. But he also never had time for trying harder, since he had to take care of his younger siblings the whole time when he was at home and in hogwarts, he spend more time on studying than eating. Or in generall taking care of his body. It is what it is, as long as he was wearing his uniform, it wasn't even noticeble, that is why he wished nobody would ever see him in underwear or even naked. It sounds weird, but this was literally his worst nightmare to be seen in just his skin.

The oldest boy of the Dumbledores walked down the stairs in the common room where Tray was already waiting for him. „Come on Dumble! Let's get some food, I am literally starving!" he whined, grabbed Albus wrist and pulled him out of the room, ran along the halls directly to the door of the great hall. The younger boy got the other inside and, you could say, almost pushed him on a bench and filled both of their plates with amazing looking food. „I'm not that hungry" Albus tried to stop him and pushed his hands away gently, knowing Tray only wanted the best.

Soon enough, Trays plate was empty again, but Albus' didn't even looked touched. It's not like he wasn't thankful for all the food they got while somewhere else in the world people starve because of wars, he was just not able to put it in his mouth and actually enjoy it. But in his mind he knew he was supossed to. „Come on Albus.. But if you are really not hungry, thats fine, then lets go to class" the ginger boy whispered in a soft manner as he stood up, walking out of the hall while he was followed by the older one.

Afew minutes later the boys splitted, Albus was going in the dungeons for his potions lesson, not being really happy to have it as the first lesson on a monday. But it is what it is, at least he had it togehter with Diana. As he arrived he saw how she was talking to a girl, wich looked pretty nice, but Ilvy and Albus never got along quit nicely. No, somehow a deep hate was between the two of them. But since it was the last year, for both of them, Albus kind of stopped carrying or trying to bond a friendship with her. All over he never understood how the hate got there, but he just accpeted it. As Ilvy saw him, she excused to Diana, rolled her eyes and turned around to get in the classroom. „She is such a nice person, youshould really try to apologise to her Albus.." Diana mumbled as she followed her, leaving a confused boy at the hallway. „I-?" he mubled, held his arm and then stepped in the classroom, went to grab a book to finally sit down, close to the teachers desk. He stared into the pages of the book. Great. It was theire first day and they where talking about the love potion amortentia. With what did he deserve that? He'd never find someone to call his own or to ask out for the winter ball. Why did he got tortured like that? The boy dropped his head onto the book, breathed heavily and slowly sat up straight again.

The teacher kept explaining, and telling the teens how dangerous this potion was. But honestly? Almost nobody cared, they all where excited for the smell they would get. I mean, who wouldn't? So Albus carefully begann to prepare everything for the brewing, wich actually worked out pretty good. He started cutting some ingreadings and surprisingly he was done fast. The hour passed by and many of the students where already finished, and telling everyone what they smelled and who they thought it is. Albus stared into his kettle. Everything was correct. The color, the temprature, even the amount. But strangely, it didn't smell like anything. The whole room had a neutraul, potion room smell. What is wrong with him?

Weeks pass by and he still had the same question in his head. What is wrong with him? Why did it smell like nothing? Did his heart want nobody? Would he be alone for ever? As Albus opened his eyes again, he looked at the view he had from the astronomy tower. The cold air widened his lungs as he breathed in as deep as he could. This was his very favorite place in the castle. Especially when it was almost midnight and the stars where shining so bright. Enjoying the light of the white moon wich shined into his face. Albus leaned back slowly, then dropped himslef on the freezing floor. Godric, in less then a year he will be graduated and will have to find a job. How is he supposed to manage all of this? He rubbed his face, ending up with his hands deep in his hair. He moved his wand a bit so a blanket would appear on his body, wich covered him completly and warmed him up surely. A little later he heard steps wich came closer to him. „Hey Mate" Jonnisen greeted him and sat down next to him. „Since I wanted to keep you updated.. Lisa and me are a couple now and Godric I swear, she is such an Angel. I really love her, I never thought I could love somebody this way. Can you believe this? I actually have a girlfriend" he told the older one whispering. Albus sat up, smiled brightly at his best friend. „I am so so happy for you! You did great, I am sue you both will be the cutest couple Hogwarts has ever seen"

The boys talked a bit longer about the new couple, but then Jonnisen ruined it with that one stupid question. „What about you, do you have any girls on hook?" he asked as a joke, but these words cut deeper than a knife. „To be honest with you, no. I don't and honestly I don't think there is any hope for me" he smirked and rubbed his neck as his smile disappeared. „Don't say that! You will get a girlfriend, you will marry her and some day you'll have kids!" Jon tried his best to cheer him up, he really tried. „Yeah.. sure" Albus whispered, stood up and left the place without saying anything else, he just wanted to be alone with the silence in his head.