you know the feeling when you feel all the air has been knocked out from your lungs, and you can't do anything expect kneel on the floor trying to let some air in your lungs again, well, that's what I'm feeling right know.

No, nobody hit me, and No, nobody shoot me. Then why I'm feeling like that? Well I think I'm having a panic attack.

I'm hearing so many voices calling my name, they seem far away, and they get backing too far away, until there is nothing but silence and darkness. I think I black out.

12 hours ago

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"dad, I know I'm in danger, and I know that I need bodyguard to be with me for protection, but don't you think eight bodyguards is to many?" I said rising an eyebrow

Since I told my dad about him, and that he is back, he called my brothers and tell them to come to my old apartment. Once my brothers know about him they become crazy overprotective. Mike called the company and made them send the most successful and great bodyguards, while James said that he will talk to some friend from the army to see if he can help with something, and they told me that I'm going to start learning how to fight again, and I will be train by the best fighter. My dad.

Even my ten years old brother was angry and said that he will kick his ass and made him regret been bourn if he sees him with 100 feet from me. I didn't know what to say about that, so I just smile sadly at him and go to hug him.

But the good think is that, the movers that are supposed to come help me move my things to my new apartment called and apologies saying that they can't come, which made my dad and brothers left, so they helped me moving my things.

And in about four hours we finished, but there was some things that are missing so I asked my mum to go shopping with me.

At first all off them say NO, but when I told them that I need something to do to get my mind of him they agreed, which led us to the task at hand.

"no it's not too many, you have a killer stalker after you." He tell with a glare

"but dad, three is enough, they can protect us just fine" I said frowning

"baby, she's right" my mum said, then add before my dad has the chance to talk, "we don't need eight bodyguards to follow us, three are fine, one for each and the third will looked around us. She don't need to feel trapped right now." She said it softly while looking in his eyes with her hand on his cheek.

And like magic, like any other time, my dad calm down and his eyes gone soft a bit, "baby i don't want to do the same mistake twice. You know what happened the last time." He told her softly with eyes full with sadness

"it wasn't your fault, but don't worry, we will be fine, I promise" she told him, I was standing beside her looking at them with awe, I hope one day to have the same love my parents are having, someone to look at me like my dad is looking at my mum right now, with love and caring.

"okay" my dad sigh, "five of them beside the driver, two for each and one to look around" he said with a finale tone

"okay baby." My mum said with smile, he hug her and give her a kiss then come to me and give me my hug and kiss. Be careful is the last word I heard him say it before we left.

We stop at the mall and get out of the car, mum said that she knew the best shop to look at, so we go to it. After a while I start to feel the familiar feeling of someone watching me, I start looking around me causally, so my mum won't notes.

When I didn't see anyone I continue with the shopping. Once we were done we went to pay for the things I want, I give the casher my Cary card, I'm still felling like someone is watching me, I know that he can see me, but I want to see if I can see him, and I did. When I look across the shop, I saw someone wearing black jeans and a hoody, he was looking at me with smirk on his face then mouthed to me the words "see you soon" .

"ma'ma, are you okay." I look at the girl behind the casher, "huh?"

"you look like you have seen a ghost" the girl said

"sweetie are you okay?" my mum asked with worried eyes, Searching mine, I don't know what she saw but she turn to one of the bodyguards and tell him to bring the things we buy and to follow us to the car.

After he nod, she took my hand and led me to the car. Once we are in it safe, she turn to me, "do you want to talk about it?"

"I saw him mum, he was across the shop smirking at me and telling me that he will see me soon." I said with fear in my voice, and tears in my eyes.

She took me in her arms and hug me to her, "it's okay, nothing is going to happened, you will be all right."

She kept saying words like that and me being in her arms until we arrived to my building. I was about to open my door when my phone rings, I give the keys to my mum so I can get my phone. UNKNOWN, that one word that get me terrified.

"who is it sweetheart?" my mum ask me

"I don't know." I tell her, we enter my apartment with my phone still ringing, my mum sence my fear and stay by my side to see who is it.

"hello." I said softly, when my dad hears us, he come to see if we are all right

"hello my beautiful rose." The caller said, I frozen in my place by hearing his voice

"know know, my rose, don't let your family know it's me, you don't want anything to happened to them, know do you." He said, and I'm sure he's smirking right know

"what's wrong sweetie? Who is it?" my dad ask me, looking concern.

"emm, it's Sam" I pretend to sigh in relive so they believe me, and try to steady my voice so my fear won't be notes, then add with a calming voice and a small smile, " my know friend, I known her from my work."

"then why were you frozen and your eyes wide?" he asked suspicion

"I was surprised how she know my number because I didn't give it to her. But she told me that my boss give it to her." I tell him, when he looked convinced, I execs myself, and went to my room.

"good girl" he said, I bet he's smirking, he always smirking, I hate this term, it's like a big fat old man telling the young girl he fuck with that she did good, I shiver both from my thought and him.

"how did you get my number?" I demand

"watch your tone with me sweetie" he warn, "I'm not one of them, you will respect me." By them he mean my family and friends.

"what do you want from me?" I asked softly

"I want you, I need you, you know? Bruce is missing you, like I do, but I miss you more." He said

"I don't care, I don't want any of you." I tell him, maybe it's harsh for the dog, it's not right to blame him for this mentally action, but I can't help it, I don't want anything from him near me.

"I told you to watch your tone, if you were in front of me i would slap you." He threat me

"why did you call me? What do you want?" I asked him angry

"I want to remind you that you are mine. Don't let any man that you want to be a live near you." He threat me, "You. Are. Mine."

"I'm not yours, and will never be yours, beside not all of the man are like you, you prev." I said pissed, I can't help but be scared, I don't want him to kill anyone because of me.

"all the man want one thing." He shout, I flinch and put the phone away from my ear, "now, go outside and see my gift for you, I will have you know that it's your fault, don't let it happened again." He said laughing at me, then hung up.

I throw the phone on my bed and take deep breaths to try calming myself before I get out. After I calm down I get out and go to the front door, I was near him when the doorbell ring, I open the door to see a man holding a box standing awkwardly there, once the door opened he jump a little then say "are you Rosella?"

"yes" I said smiling friendly at him

"this for you" he give me the box

" thank you, but may I ask who give you this?" I asked him softly

"a guy came and tell me to give it to you." He said it like someone tell him what to say when someone ask him the same question.

"okay thank you." I tell him and close the door, once it close I jump and let a scream because my father with my brothers are standing behind it.

"shit, sorry, we didn't mean to scary you." James say

"who was that?" my dad asked glaring at the box

"some guy that give me this." I told them and made my way to the living room, I put the box on the table and open it, there was another box with another small one on it.

I frown, I take the small one, and open it, I star at the items in horror, there was a ring, and a hairband.

The ring was to someone named Roger, he never will give up the ring easily, he must be unconscious or dead to take it, and the hairband is the same, her owner Edger will never give it up without a fight, oh my god, he kill them, he killed my ex's.

I was brought out of my thought by my brother Lime screaming shit over and over again, I look at him then go to see what in the box that made him like that.

Once I saw it I couldn't take my eyes away, there was a dog head without eyes, it's not any dog it's Bruce. There was a note in there, with shaky hand I rushed for it, every second I look at the dog head, afraid he might look at me or bite my hand, impossible and crazy I know.

Once I read it my breath start to become deep and soon I found myself starting to freak out which led to me having a panic attack.

I told you he miss's you, so I thought you would like to see him, although he's my dog but you were always like him more than me, and you know that I don't like sharing, so... .

And the other gifts, it's a proof to when I say I DON'T SHARE.

PS. You look good today when you were sleeping, I like watching you while you sleep, I know creepy, but what can you say, after all I am creep.

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"when she will wake up?"

"is she okay?"

"how is she now?"

"everything going to be all right "

Mumbled whispers hit my ears. The pain in my head come in full force that takes my breath away. I groan out, I left my hands to hold my head, my body is heavy that it take strength to move it.

"honey, are you okay? Mason will be here soon." I heard my mum say, hearing her voice has me trying to open my eyes, opening my eyes I'm met with white walls, I look around me to see my family, all of them have worried writing on there faces.

"what's going on?" I asked no one in practical

"you have a panic attack after you saw what's in the box." My brother Mark tells me, which earn him a slap at the back of his head from my sister Jasmine. I would have laugh at them or even smile but the memories from yesterday and the day before made it impossible.

Oh my god, it's my fault they are dead, they didn't do anything expect be my boyfriend to die, it's all my fault. And the poor dog, oh god.

"sweetie don't cry, I will make him pay, I promise you." My dad tell me, he came over and hugged me, and my mum came in next.

"I want it to stop" I cried to daddy, "I don't want anyone else to die because of me." My mum held me as tight as she could without hurting me, while dad held us both.

"dad, mum, Mason here to see her." Say my brother Mark, James has been quite the whole time since I wake up.

Mason come in, which made my mum and dad to set aside, he was about to talk when there was a knock on my bedroom door, Liz come in the room while massaging her hair with her pajamas on, and say, "hey, I heard voices is ev—"she stop talking once she saw that I'm a wake, she smile for a bit then turn to my brother James and glare hard at him.

"Liz, what are you doing here?" I ask her softly, she turn to me and run to me to hug me.

"oh my god, are you okay? I miss you." She say with concern then hug me again, I hug her back, and tell her that I miss her too.

"girls, how about you catch up after Mason check up on Rose?" my dad tell us, we break apart and Mason come forward, he ask me questions and did some tests then say,

"she will be fine don't worry all of you, she was just stress out and want some sleep, how many sleep hours have you had in the last two days?"

"seven- eight?" I asked more than answered

"honey, why you didn't tell us?" my mum asked me worried

"I don't want to worry you." I said softly, then add a quite sorry

"don't be sweetie." my dad tell me

"okay, you need to sleep and to stop stress out a lot, we wont let anything happened to you." Mason tell me smiling then turn to leave, my mum went with him to see him the way out and to ask him something.

"we will be outside in the living room sweetie, if you need anything just shout for us. And welcome back Liz." My dad says, they get out all of them expect James and close the door behind them.

Once the door closed Liz turn to my brother with a death glare, which made him rise his hand in surrender.

"you idiot, I told you to come and tell me when she wake up." She says to him

"you were sleeping I didn't want to wake you ." He said softly, and come forward.

"don't, not now." She tell him and made him stop, it's the first time I see him like that with someone other than my mother and sisters, gentle and his eyes softly looking at her.

I look at her and gasp, oh my god, if anyone did look at her he will see hate and pine, but if you look closer you will see that she is trying to mask her love and hurt with hate, I saw it in her face just once, and that when she was looking at her dad.

She was telling me about an army man who she's in love with him, she always call him James.

Oh god, the man she's in love with is my brother

"LIZ" I shout at her pissed

"oh shit."

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