It's me and Juliet's fifth year anniversary since we first start dating, we do celebrate our wedding anniversary too but on a different date. I got her massage oil since she keeps complaining about her shoulders being sore so I can give her a massage, I also got her chocolates, candles and flowers. My mom and Juliet's mom both forced us to go out for a night away.

We told them over and over that olive will cry the whole night and they agreed to both stay at our place and mind olive and we go out to dinner and go to a hotel. Juliet was unsure and so was I but they told us it's only one night and it's our anniversary.

I change into the dress I bought, it's pink and high way up my thighs with thing straps. I bought matching pink heels with diamonds on them and Pearl earrings. Juliet changes into her matching light green blazer and pants. She wore heels too.

"When's the last time we went on a date?" I ask her.

"Around a year ago." She says and my eyes widen.

I do my makeup and hear the front door opening and me and Juliet walk down the stairs and our moms smile at us.

"You two look beautiful." Amy says and my mom smiles.

"Thank you." I say and we walk to the living room and I pick up olive and kiss her.

"I love you princess." I say and fix her hair since it was all over the place. I hand her to Juliet and Juliet hugs her and kisses her and puts her back in the crib.

"If she doesn't sleep call us and we will come back." Juliet says and our moms both nod. We say goodbye and go out to the car.

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We put our bags with our presents and stuff in the hotel room. We walk out of the hotel and down the street to the restaurant. We walk inside hand in hand and Juliet talks to lady at the desk and and man comes over and brings us over to a table. We thank him and sit down.

"This place looks expensive." I whisper and Juliet's laughs.

"Good thing I'm paying." She smiles and I cross my arms.

"No." I say.

"I took your card out of your purse." She smiles and I quickly check my purse and she really did take my card.

"I hate you." I huff and put my purse down and Juliet smiles.

"I like being a sugar mommy to you." She shrugs and I roll my eyes smiling.

"I don't want you to sugar mommy me." I say and she smirks.

"Too bad." She smiles and I pick up the menu.

A man comes over and takes out order, I got rigatoni Fiorentina with wine and Juliet got garlic butter steak with potatoes and wine.

We wait for our food and we start talking.

"What do you want for Christmas?" Juliet asks and I laugh.

"Nothing, you already give me everything." I laugh and she rolls her eyes.

"Let me know if you want anything, have you even read the book I bought you a couple months ago?" She asks.

"I actually started reading it yesterday, I brought it. It's at the hotel." I say and she laughs.

"I'm still surprised you're reading a book." She says and I cross my arms and lean on the table.

"Why?"

"I've never seen you read before." She smiles.

"In high school you did, when you forced me to read in front of the class." I huff and she smiles rolling her eyes.

"You weren't paying attention."

"So you embarrass me?" I smile and she shakes her head smiling.

"You embarrassed yourself, you should of been listening." She says and I roll my eyes.

"Well sorry Mrs." I say and she smiles and lifts a eyebrow.

The waiter comes with our food and we thank him.

"Do you miss working?" I ask her and she shrugs.

"A little bit, it's nice to be able to stay home and sleep in." She says.

"So it's not nice to be able to see your wife all day?" I say and she smiles.

"Oh course it is, being at home gives me more time to sit down and get buried in my thoughts but work helps clear my mind." Juliet says and takes a sip of her wine.

"Julie you know you can talk to me." I tell her and she nods. It's always me with my problems going to Juliet, I can tell sometimes if I'm scared she is too but she hides it and stays strong for me.

"I know Spencer, I don't like to weigh my problems onto someone else. I feel like I'm suffocating then when I do." She says.

"Do you feel suffocated when I tell you my problems?" I ask her.

"No, things I feel about my problems and telling people things it's like the complete opposite for anyone else, I want people to weigh their problems on me so I can fix them and help them. Sometimes I do feel a bit suffocated but I pull through it."

"So you do feel suffocated by me telling you stuff, you could have told me Julie." I say and she shrugs and looks away picking at her food.

"Do you not trust me? Like tell me the truth." I say.

"I do Spencer, more than I trust anyone. I just feel like I can't trust anyone sometimes." She says.

"So you don't think you can trust me sometimes? Julie we're married but you don't trust me?" I say confused, why doesn't she trust me.

"I do Spencer, I just feel that sometimes I can't even trust myself."

"You obviously don't trust me." I say and she sighs and reaches for my hand but I pull it away.

"Why don't you trust me?" I ask her and rubs her temple starting to get annoyed.

"I do-"

"Juliet. You just said you feel like you can't trust anyone sometimes, we are together five years and you don't even trust me?" I say and sit back, a little hurt honestly.

"Spencer I do, I shouldn't have said that-"

"No you shouldn't have. I'm done eating I need some air." I stand up grabbing my purse and walking out of the restaurant.

Why did she marry me if she can't even trust me?

I walk down the street shivering since it was cold and it was only in a dress, I like night walks. They help me calm down. I walk into a corner store and get a packet of cigarettes and a lighter and walk back outside. My phone buzzed and Juliet had texted.

❤️💍

❤️💍

I ignore her message and open the packet of cigarettes and put one in my mouth and put the packet in my purse, I block the cigarette with my hand and light it. I take a drag and start walking again until I see a park, I go in and find a bench to sit on. Not the one I used to go to but it's nice to sit outside in the silence by myself.

I cross one leg over the other and lean my elbow down on my leg. I smoke the cigarette thinking and the only sound being the trees whistling in the wind.

I love Juliet and I hate being mad at her, sometimes I just get annoyed and storm off because I overreact but Juliet mostly stays calm and doesn't get frustrated with me. She's amazing to me all the time even when I act like a dick.

A few people pass and look at me sitting on a bench in the dark, by myself.

A man sits down next to me and I glance at him and move away a little bit, it's a public park Spencer you can't just tell him to leave.

"Hi." He says and I glance at him and flick the ash off the top of the cigarette.

"Hello." I say quietly.

"What's wrong with you?" He asks and I shrug.

"Oh nothing, what about you?" I sit back and ask him and he shrugs.

"Too much." He says and I look at him.

"Talk to me, not like we will ever see each other again." I say and he sighs.

"...I have serious problems. I've been watching someone for a while, it's weird I know and you probably want to run away from me the big weirdo. There's a woman, I've been watching my her for....years now. She's perfect, she's everything I want but she doesn't want or even know me." He says and I look at him confused.

"Stop watching her, talk to her. You never know how people will change your life even after a conversation, I'm Spencer." I say and hold out my hand.

"Justin." He smiles and he shakes my hand.