The concert was crazy fun! Tyler and I had seats on the side of the stage, we could see the whole stadium and crowd from our place. People were dancing and jumping, crowd surfing, it was amazing and the band was insane and so into it. There were tons of people backstage with us, some were famous actors and actresses, some people were in other bands, and then there were a bunch of groupie girls, I can't believe how wild it was, it was a scene that I've never even come close to experiencing before, and to think, this is normal for the guys.

Tuck was amazing, he was so deep into his music that at times I swear he didn't even realize he was on a stage. He'd look up and catch the eye of one of the other guys, and they'd be in their own little musical world. It often seemed like they weren't even totally aware of the crowd, it could have just been the guys, jamming in the back of a room, all by themselves, they were completely in sync with one another. Other times they were feeding off the crowds energy and enthusiasm, I can't believe how lucky I am to be able to experience this.

I am so looking forward to finally talking with Tuck. When he first left, we were calling and texting all the time, after a while it became mostly me calling him, sometimes he'd pick up, but mostly I just left messages. I got tired of never receiving return calls so I just began texting. We still text, but not a lot. I know he's busy, they travel all over, I really miss him, but I know the truth is that his life has gotten huge, it's literally worldwide. My world is still just my life and school. I've seen some of the pictures online and on some of the gossip sites, he isn't hurting for female company. We never even had the beginnings of a romance, those were all just my silly little daydreams. The truth is he outgrew me. I've got to admit, it hurt seeing how fast he left me behind, but honestly, I really didn't expect it to work out any different.

It doesn't matter, we're here to see the guys, have fun, then go back to my boring life at home.

Ty and I are talking when Keller comes running over towards us, grabs me in his arms, gives me a big kiss on the cheek, then basically pounds and bro hugs the hell out of Ty.

"Dude I'm so fuckin glad you guys are here! Can you believe how insane this all is? Every fuckin night it's a raging party!"

Keller is so pumped that he's literally bouncing up and down, smiling and laughing.

All of a sudden, a body slams into me from behind, I know it's Tuck, he smells and feels the same, a wall of handsome, beautiful boy.

"Sky Sky Sky, I can't believe you're finally here! I missed you so much! What did you think? We were fuckin firing on all cylinders tonight! Are you guys gonna stay and go to the after party with us?"

Tuck still has his arms around me, I turn to face him, laughing at how giddy and happy he is.

"Of course, we're going to the party! You don't think we came to just hang with your boring old ass do you!"

I'm laughing at how right this all feels, Ty and Keller, who is basically another brother to me, Tucker and me together, it just feels so comfortable and right. Like we haven't been a part for months, or really haven't even spoken to each other.

"Um I don't know if Sky should head to the party, you know how wild it gets Tuck, do you really want her to see all that goes on, what you're getting up to?"

Keller is giving some major stink eye to Tuck, and Tucker is looking a little embarrassed and unsure, but no f-ing way am I going to miss the opportunity to go to a major band after party!

"Whatever guys, I'm 17 now, I think I can handle it, and you guys will be there, I can leave if you think it's too wild."

There is no way in the world I'm going to leave the party early, but it doesn't hurt for them to think that though.

"Yeah guys, I'll watch out for Sky, she'll be by my side the entire time, don't worry, you guys go off and get wild."

Tuck has his arm around my waist, holding me tightly against his body, I don't think I EVER want to leave his side.

Kell grabs Tuck by the arm, and stares hard at him.

"You know what the fuck I'm talking about Tuck, don't fuck this up! Be careful with Sky!"

Keller and Tyler head out to the meet and greet room in the back of the stage, I can hear that it's already pretty wild, I know my brother and he's kind of a slut, so I bet he's hoping to get a couple of Ty's groupie leftovers.

After a couple of hours the party moved from the venue to the hotel, it's being held in a giant suite on the top floor of the hotel. There must be a couple of hundred people here. My brother and Keller disappeared into a bedroom with some girls a while ago, so Tuck and I have been able to just be together, talking and having fun with no stress.

Tuck has been confiding in me how the whole touring experience was way more than he expected, he even admitted that he's been drinking more than he ever had before. I asked if he's been doing drugs too, he was pretty evasive and wouldn't look in my eyes when he answered, so I guess that not answering me was confirming my suspicions.

I can tell from all the girls around that he's probably been hooking up quite a bit also. Some of these girls are literally having sex and giving BJ's out in the open, if I look over to my right, there is a girl without a top on, sitting in some guys lap grinding on him, while he plays with her breasts. This is way beyond what I thought I'd see, and I bet this is what Kell didn't want me to see. But I only get to see Tuck tonight and tomorrow night, so I'm not going to complain like a whiney little girl.

I pop up off the couch telling Tuck that I need to go to the restroom, and I'll be right back. He gives me the sweetest kiss and tells me he'll be waiting for me, and that he'll ALWAYS wait for me, God I think I just melted!

On my way to the restroom, I passed 3 different couples having sex, out in the open! Yikes! After freshening up in the bathroom, I head to the bar to grab a couple of waters, then go back to where I left Tuck.

At first I don't see him, because there's now a topless girl in his lap and blocking his face from me. When I realize that a girl is with him and then I see he's sucking on her breasts. There's a naked girl next to him and he's fingering her, his hand is buried between her legs while she grinds on it. They're all moaning and so into it they don't see or notice anyone else around them.

I'm stunned, just standing there for a minute or two, I was gone no more than 15 minutes, and now it's a porno starring Tuck and the big titty twins.

I walk up closer and hear one of the girls talking to Tuck.

"Tucky, you finally got rid of the boring little baby from home, let's finish this party, just you me and Jasmine, remember how much you like it when we all fuck together? You feeling the X I gave you? I'm rollin baby, rollin so fine. Fuck me Tucky, do it right here, right now baby!"

"FUCKING TUCKER!! I told you to watch out for Sky!"

Keller is running in from the side of the room, with my brother close behind. I'm sure they were doing what Tucker is doing now, because both of them are zipping their pants up and my brother is missing his shirt.

Tucker looks up, his eyes are unfocused and he looks a little dazed and lost.

"Hey, there you are Sky, wanna come over and party with us? You look so hot tonight, so sexy baby, come here, I want you so bad Sky Baby."

He's slurring his words, and the girl that was in his lap is now between his legs with his dick in her mouth. The other girl is still grinding on his hand while she's trying to get him to look at her.

All of a sudden, I'm grabbed and pushed through the crowd, and out of the room.

In the hallway with Ty and Keller, I expect that Tucker will be following out after us any minute.

"Sorry Sky, Tuck is kind of going for it hard groupie and party wise. I mean the guy is going full on slut. And to be honest, I'm kind of worried about him. He's playing around with some drugs, even though he won't admit it, it's kind of obvious."

Kell is running his hands through his hair, he's obviously pretty concerned about his brother.

Shaking my head, trying to collect my thoughts and process what I just saw. Tears are flooding my eyes and overflowing down my cheeks.

"I was only gone a few minutes, I mean we were talking and having fun, then I went to the bathroom, I grabbed some waters and came back and he was with those girls, and he was totally out of it! We weren't drinking or anything while we were here tonight, he was totally sober when I went to the restroom, what happened Kell?"

"Fuck, I'm so sorry you saw that, but this is what he's been doing. Those girls probably gave him something, X, coke, it doesn't take long, he's been doing this so much, fuck, I'm worried about him. Fuck it, let's go back to your rooms now, we'll get you in bed, then go check on Tucker."

Tyler and Kell start to pull me towards them, but I think we should wait for Tucker.

"We can't just leave him, he's probably coming out right now to get us!"

I pull back from them and then open the door, pushing my way back into the party. I look over to where we left Tucker and the two girls. But now it isn't just two girls, there are several more girls, and even a couple of guys. They're all naked and fucking. I see Tucker is fucking a girl doggie style, while another guy is in the girls' mouth. Tuck wasn't looking for me, or coming to get me, or saying good-bye to me. He didn't even remember me, he forgot all about me, because I'm just an unimportant and distant memory. While I've been missing him and our friendship, reaching out to him, trying to keep a connection, he's been living his new wild life and I'm not even a blip on his radar anymore.

Fuck Him.

I turn around and walk back out of the room, meeting the guys where I left them in the hallway.

"Yeah, I get it, let's go back to the room, I'm going to go home early tomorrow. Sorry Kell, I don't think I'm going to stay for the concert tomorrow night. But you stay Ty, you have fun, c'mon, let's go guys."

As we leave the room and walk down the hallway, I'm super sad about Tucker, but I kind of knew that this was probably what he was up to. I realize that we didn't have a romance, but damnit, he was my friend, my best friend. He just totally ditched me, he didn't even care about me, he totally and completely forgot about me, and well, now I'm going to have to leave him in my rearview mirror. Not that he'll notice or care.