How can you stay with me when even my shadow even leaves me at night?

-Damien

I looked ahead of me to see Rain has fallen down on the ground with a thud.

I never wanted her to see this. I looked around me in the corridor to make sure Amber wasn't coming. I got inside the room as I shut the door.

Amy would come here any time. So I wordlessly picked up the body and dumped it in the bathroom.

Rain hadn't moved an inch. She was in shock.

I dragged the carpet and put it on the blood stained floor so that Amy couldn't see the blood.

Just a moment later there was a knock on the door. I knew it was Amy.

I made my way to Rain and I gently shook her. She looked up at me with tears filled in her doe eyes.

"Please act normal in front of Amy and I will explain you everything later.", I pleaded and she wordlessly nodded her head while wiping the tears that were about to fall.

I opened the door to see Amber standing there with Coco in her arms. She let go of Coco as she hugged my leg tightly.

The noise must have scared her.

I picked her up as I wiped her tears. She looked shaken but not as much as Rain. But again she didn't see me murder a man even if it was to protect Rain.

"It is okay Amy. Dad is here. Someone just burst a cracker.", I smoothly lied.

She nodded her head as she snuggled in me.

I heard a tiny bark and realised Coco was going in the direction of the bathroom. Damn! Maybe he could smell the man.

He started clawing the door trying to open it. I let go of Amy as I went and picked him up before he could reveal anything to Amy.

He barked again and started struggling.

"Shut up.", I growled and he let go of a whimper but ultimately calmed down.

I took him and put him inside his cage which was in Amy's room.

I went back in Rain's room and I looked in the direction of Rain to see Amy in her lap as she was singing a lullaby for her making her fall asleep.

Once she has fallen asleep which was quite easy I went to pick her up but she stopped me.

"I will do it.", Rain said. Her tone sharp. I clenched my fist as I kept them to my sides.

She got up with Amy in her arms as she left. I followed her as she placed Amy on the bed in her room. She placed a kiss on her forehead.

I wanted to do the same but she stopped me and motioned me to come out with her.

I agreed as we left Amber's room. She closed the behind her as she leaned against the wall.

I heard her sigh.

"So this is your dangerous world.", Rain stated.

She looked at me and the intensity in them knocked the air out of my lungs. I could just nod my heard.

"You were like a professional. The way you shot him, hid his body without worry and covered the blood. You have done it before. Haven't you?", Rain asked.

"Yes.", I stated. Never in my life I felt so ashamed of what I am.

"God. What have I got myself into.", Rain cried out making my heart clench. Her voice didn't show disgust. It showed hurt and betrayal.

"Why Damien? Why couldn't you tell this before? Were you waiting for someone to shoot me and then on my death bed you would tell me.", Rain asked. Her voice getting softer with every word.

"I don't know what to say.", I stated as I moved forward to wipe her tears but she flinched.

"You are involved with the underworld. Aren't you?", she asked.

"No. I am not involved in the underworld. I am the king of underworld.", I stated truthfully.

There was no need to hide things from her now when she had seen everything.

"So you are also a bad man like Marcus.", she stated. Her world hurt but they were true.

I let go of a humorless chuckle. Nothing even. Just broken.

"I am not a bad man love, I am the worst man.", I stated.

A loud noise echoed in the hall and the pain on my left cheek made me realize Rain has slapped me.

"You take pride in it.", Rain said with a spark.

It has been more than than ten years since someone had slapped me. I growled as I neared Rain and had caged her.

"Damien what are you...."

Before she could complete her statement I smashed my lips on top of her. She tried pushing me but I took both her hands and pinned them above her head.

She responded to my kiss in a few moments. The kiss was filled with brutal emotions and the most lethal one from my side, love.

I wanted to invade her mouth and explore every corner of it. Thus, I bit her lower lip making her gasp as I got entry inside her mouth. Our tongues did a furious dance.

Once satisfied I let her go. The only sound that could be heard in the corridor were of our panting.

"Come with me.", I stated and before she could reply I took her hand and started dragging her to my room.

I entered my room and turned on the lights. I made Rain sit on the bed as I locked the door behind me.

I sat beside her. Waiting for her to say something but nothing came out her mouth. Neither curse not please to let her go.

"You hate me. Right?", I asked. I already knew the answer but still. Being the man I was, I wanted to drown myself in self pity.

I looked at her. But to my surprise she shook her head. I furrowed my eyebrow.

"I feel betrayed. I opened up to you. Told you my biggest secret and I didn't even know a bit about you.", Rain stated.

"I never lied to you. I just hid a few things from you but my love for Amber and eagerness to know you were real. I just wanted to keep you both safe from the world's evil.", I said.

"Why are you in it?", Rain asked a straight forward question.

I didn't know how to start. So I did the best thing I could do.

I got up from the bed and turned in the opposite direction and removed my shirt.

A gasp left her mouth.

I waited for her to way the words like disgusting but no words left her mouth.

I waited patiently. Something I am know not to have.

I felt movement behind me.

I felt hands wrapped around my torso from the back as Rain put her head on my back.

I didn't say anything because I liked this comfort. Soon I felt something wet on my back.

"I am so sorry."

I heard her sob.

I turned around as she threw her hands around my neck as she snuggled in my chest.

I was shocked. I wanted to see disgust or pity but the only thing her voice gave away was genuine care.

My heart soared.

I wrapped my arms around her as I pulled her impossibly close. I put my nose in her hair as I inhaled her intoxicating scent. It was addicting.

"I am sorry. I never meant to make you cry.", I said as I took her face in my palms and wiped away the tears with my thumb.

"How?"

She asked me. I knew she would ask this to me today or tomorrow. But how much I prepared myself. I wasn't prepared. I could never be prepared.

"Sit.", I said.

She nodded her head and she settled down. I sat beside her.

"My parents did it.", I stated not looking at her.

"I already know that. Tell me something more.", she urged.

I was stunned. How she could. I never told her or a single soul. Then how she knew.

"You have a lot of nightmare. I could hear you shouting for your mom and dad to stop. I never brought up the topic because I thought it was personal. But I didn't think it was that bad.", she said as she traced a long scar that I remember I got when my father sliced my arm like a piece of pork.

"I was born in a mafia family and in our family cruelty is the first thing you learn. Things like power is everything. Women are mere toys and children are just to put forward your generation. This is what I learnt from a young age. But I never liked it but I was forced in it and when I did anything wrong I was brutally punished.", I stated as I looked in her direction.

"You had no one?", Rain asked.

"No one. People below us feared us, so no friends. My mother was just there to show me of and her diamond jewellery. My father didn't even want me to call him father. I always addressed him as sir. So I grew up fast. Learnt everything at a young age. From dressing to cooking. Everything.", I stated.

"Then why are you in mafia today. If you didn't like it?", Rain asked.

"Once I did a grave mistake of poisoning my father's food. He died on spot. News spread fast in our world. If I shouldn't have taken his position then I should have been killed. So I joined it and grew till the time I didn't reach the top.", I stated.

"What about your mother?", Rain asked.

"I shot her on my eighteenth birthday.", I stated.

"I cut her allowance so she decided to plot against me. So I removed her from my way.", I said shrugging.

I looked at Rain to see she was in deep thought.

"How can a mother do this to her child?", she whispered.

I chuckled.

"You live in a world of oblivion. For us the grass is not green on any side. Being born in mafia is like born with a curse. Look at me. These scars are like those magic spell that bound the curse that are meant to hurt me.", I stated.

"You are no curse. You know how difficult it is to live without hope. More difficult that to live without oxygen. But you did it.", Rain stated.

"How couldn't have I when a six yesterday old girl gave me courage. I had to breathe to meet her again and return her what she gave to me.", I stated.

"These scars make you beautiful.", Rain whispered.

"I am a person full of flaws.", I argued.

"Idiot. It is your flaws that make you beautiful. I am sorry to judge you. What you did was wrong but for the right cause.", Rain stated.

I smiled at her.

"You know the saying that you should not judge a book by its cover but in your case you should be judged by your cover because what you are today is the best of you. Best of what you could have ever been.", Rain stated.

"One thing I have learnt in my life is that you pay for your sins in this life and I seriously don't know how I am paying for them by having you.", I said as I pecked her lips.

Rain laughed as I followed the lead.

"When did Damien Black became this cheesy?", Rain teased.

"Dont tell it to anyone. It is a secret in between us.", I said seriously while a permanent smile was tugged on my lips.

"Even walls have ear.", Rain whispered.

"I am blessed to have you.", I stated.

She blushed at the compliment.

I heard a knock on the door.

I opened the door to see it was Amy standing there with a soft toy. She was sleepy but again I knew full well that she cannot sleep without her mother.

I picked her up as I moved towards the bed and placed her in Rain's lap. She snuggled in Rain and within seconds fell asleep.

"You know what instead of Amy, you should call her koala.", Rain suggested.

"When she grows up, we will call her that to tease her.", I stated as both of us chuckled.

"What about the man you shot?", she asked.

"Sleep love. That is for me to know and for you to never find out.", I stated.