Tw: Social anorexia, hard to breathe, stress, self harm, starving, not enough sleep and long imagine:)

A/n: Hi loves a new imagine! A James one! Don't read this if you are sensitive just so you know:). Thanks for so many readers I'm so thankful! I think this will be long. I don't have a lot to say enjoy!

Love G Xx.

Good to know:

Y/b/s/n: Your big sister's name.

Quinn Jamie Phelps: Your daughter.

Quinn is five in the end and Carly is one.

Carly Olivia Phelps: Your youngest daughter.

You have social anorexia which means you don't like a lot of people. Being James Phelps wife and have hard wit that is sometimes very enjoying.

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You and you husband for three years was about to go to his fans. James Phelps was your husband and you really loved him. It was just he was really known and you didn't like many people. But you really wanted to be there for James and meet his fans since it meant so much to him.

"Love are you ready to go?" He asked you with a smile.

"Yeah just one sec." You run upstairs and back a little bag with things you needed. James knew you were self harming because of your social anorexia. You really liked people you did but you didn't understand why you always got so stressed. Anyways he thought you had quit doing that but you hadn't. You just couldn't so just in case you set your pocket knife into the bag.

"Love we need to go now!" James screamed from down stairs.

"I'm coming." You said and run down the stairs.

"Well then we now we go."

"Yes indeed." You said and you went to your and James car.

"My lady!" James said and opened the door.

"Well thank you mr Phelps."

"No worries mrs Phelps."

James sat in the driver's seat and drove away.

"I'm nervous." You said.

"Don't you worry love everything will be just fine. Just breathe with me okay?"

"1234 good job now again 1234. Do you feel better?"

You breathe with him.

"Yes thank you James I love you."

"No problem my love I'm always here to help! I love you too darling!"

Then he parked the car and went out to open tryout door.

"My lady."

"You know that you don't need to do that every time right?" You said lathing.

"What can I say I'm a gentleman." He said and smiled widely.

"Oh shut up." You said lathing.

"Just if you kiss me." He said smirking.

"Alright." You said and kissed him sweetly on the lips.

"Wow I can't believe I still feel fireworks when we kiss." James said with a smile.

"You know you aren't the only one I feel it too my love."

He smiled sweet at you which you returned even if you were scared and stressed.

"Let's go my love." He said and lead you to the back of the stage.

"Are you sure you will be okay?" He asked friendly.

"Yes James go out there now! I love you!"

"I love you too my love." He gave you one last kiss before he was heading out to the stage. As fast as James left your stress got worse. You were really stressed and had hard to breathe. Please say that James couldn't come to you. But you know that he couldn't.

"Mrs Phelps do you need anything?" One that worked there asked.

"No- emmh we're is the toilet?"

"To the right." She said and pointed.

"Thanks you." You said and tried to breathe. Then you got to the toilet and went in and looked the door. You began crying because of your hay stress and social anorexia. You pulled out the knife form your bag. And started to cut deep into your skin making you sob. You know there was a better way to not have that much stress and social anorexia but to you this was the easiest way. You continue to cut deep into your bare skin. All that blood pored out of your arm.

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James POV

I was done with all the questions and went back stage.

"Where is Y/n?" I asked one of the workers.

"I don't know I haven't seen her since a half an hour ago."

"Why didn't you tell me! What if she is hurt or worse!" I said worried.

"Sorry she went to the toilet." She said.

"Okay thanks."

I went to the toilets and heard sobs coming out of the toilets.

"Love is that you."

"No-" She said through sobs.

"Darling please open the door please. I know what you are doing and it's not good. Please let me help you."

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James POV

You slowly opened the door looking at James with tearing eyes.

"Oh love."

He said and pulled you into a hug. You sob against his chest feeling worthless.

"It's okay love everything will be okay I promise. I love you so much and if hurts me so much when you do that, kind of stuff to your self. Please can you try to stop, for me?"

"I-I can - try..."

"Very well my love should we go and clean this?"

You nodded and he went out to get some bandages and then he went back.

"So my love everything is going to be okay! This would maybe hurt a little bit but just for a while. Ready?"

You softly nodded your head with tears in your eyes.

He kissed your forehead and started to clean your cuts. You began to sob of the pain.

"It's going to be okay my love. It soon over I promise." When he was done he bandages your cuts and kissed your nose.

"I love you and please don't do this to yourself. Come to me instead. I can't live without you. You are the best thing that happened to me. I can't lose you."

"I love you too." You said sobbing.

"Let's go home my love dose that sound good."

"Yes." You said weakly.

"Well come on then love." He said and took your hand.

"Here we go lovely." He said and opened your door.

"Thanks." You said weakly.

"No worries love!" He kissed your forehead and went to the driver's seat.

He drove home.

"So my love we are home now."

"Thanks James..."

You went out the car and locked up the door.

"Lovely of you want something to eat?"

"No thanks I'm going to bed. Good night James."

"Good night my love I love you so much sweet dreams my love!"

"I love you too James. Night night." He kissed your lips and you went to bed.

You slept for awhile before James come in.

"Oh lovely." He whispered to you.

"God how much I love you my heart."

He laid in the bed and cuddled close to you.

"I love you." He kissed your forehead and drifted asleep.

The next day you woke up early feeling so insecure.

You really wanted to pull out the knife and cut into your self again but would James be mad at you if you did so.

But before you thought any more James come in to the kitchen.

"Love I need to go with the acting to another country for awhile."

You were kind of sad that he couldn't be with you.

"I really need to go now my love. I love you so much. Promise me that you take care of yourself when I'm gone.

You softly nodded but you knew you weren't going to keep that promise. When James was gone you did really bad things to yourself like starving, cutting and you didn't get a lot of sleep.

"Bye my love. I love you so so so much."

"I love you more." You said and hugged him tightly you didn't want to let go. You wanted to be there forever just hold him close.

"I really need to go now my love. Bye." He kissed you good bye and left.

"Bye James I love you so so so much."

"I love you more." Then he left and went to his car and drove away. You got really sad when he left even if you did hurt yourself when James was there you were even worse when you were alone because you had a little of separation anorexia. You decided that there was nothing to do you just needed to hurt yourself really bad. So you went in to your and James shared bedroom and open the drawer on your nightstand and pulled out your knife. James didn't knew you had a knife in your nightstand you always kept it from him so he wouldn't have to worry for you. You went to the bathroom and began to cut deep into your bear skin. You froze a little of the feeling of the knife against your arm. But you did it anyways you cut deeper and deeper in to your skin feeling all worthless. You cut deeper until you felt dizzy. Would you call James? Or would you call a ambulance you felt like you needed one. So you called ambulance and the last thing you heard was the sirens before everything went blank. When you came to the hospital the doctor's called James.

"James Phelps."

"Well hello mr Phelps. We are from the hospital well your wife is here. And she is pretty hurt if you don't have anything urgent to do we hoped that you could come here."

"Yes I will come." He was actually very worried for you he couldn't leave without you. The thought of losing you were to big. What if you didn't survive would he be able to move on and live a life without you. The answer on that question is no James knew he couldn't live without you. And you couldn't live without him. He went to the airport as fast as he could and took the plane that came first. He got really stressed because he knew you were at the hospital. When he finally was at the hospital he saw you hooked up in all these kind of machines.

"Lovely."

"We think it's going to take some days before she wakes up. You would have to leave at the night we promise to call if she is waking up." He nodded and went back home. He didn't get much sleep that day knowing that you weren't safe. He wanted to protect you and be there for you but he couldn't.

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You woke up 3 days later through all these kind of machines.

"Love love can you hear me? Are you okay?" James asked worriedly. You looked at him weakly and smiled at him. He gave you a tight hug and his eyes were red and puffy. You saw that he had been crying probably a lot. Because usually you don't see that James have been crying if he has.

"I thought I lost you! I was so worried for you why did you do that?"

"I had to."

"Love you don't have to do something like that. Okay I love you very much and I can't lose you. I wouldn't survive that okay."

You softly nodded.

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Fast forward a couple of days.

A couple of days after you woke up you could finally leave the hospital. You and James went out to your car. As usual he opened the door for you.

"My love."

"Thank you." You said quietly.

Then he drove home to your house.

"We are home now my love."

"Yeah." You went to the house and locked up the door.

"Love?"

"Yeah?"

"I love you so much."

"James?"

"Yes?"

"I think maybe I will be with my sister for a while."

"And why is that my love?"

"Because she is really a good listener and she has done this to her self too. So she knows how you are going to stop. Because I can't do that for myself."

"But love-"

"It's not saying we not are married anymore I just need to talk to her okay?"

"Well if you think that is helping you my love then I'm glad."

"Thanks James I love you so much."

"I love you too my love."

You hugged James and took your car and drove to your sister.

"Hi sis." Y/b/s/n said.

"Can I talk to you?"

"Yeah of course."

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Fast forward a year later.

A year later you had stopped harming yourself and you and James were happier than ever you had get birth to your first child.

"I love both of you really much." James said with a smile.

"We love you too James so much." You said and looked at your cute new born daughter.

"Isn't she beautiful?" You asked James.

"She looks like her mother so she is for sure the most beautiful creature in this world." That made you blush madly. He kissed your lips and kissed Quinn's head.

"Quinn Jamie Phelps. What do you think?"

"I love it. Wait do you remember wang to name her after me?"

"Of course Jamie." You said and lathed.

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Fast forward five years later.

You and James had welcomed your second daughter and you named her. Carly Olivia Phelps you named her form her uncle Oliver. You were really happy for your children and that was a dream that came true. You always wanted children and now you had two beautiful daughter's.

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A/n: Hi loves! This was kind of long but not my longest but still it is. Finally it felt like it was long time ago I had enough ideas to write this long. Sorry for that but I actually did have a lot of ideas for this one! Anyways I hope you all enjoyed this imagine! Next one will be a imagine with Oliver! Do you want more James and Oliver? And do you want me to make more George and Fred imagine too? I really like to write all there even if it takes pretty long time it's so much fun. Anyways I hope you all enjoyed this imagine. Hope you all had a great day. Love you all take care.

Love G Xx.