i'm not really good at sad moments. i'm never really sad so i don't know how to react. i don't like this attention. i make myself laugh, it's the only way i know how to lighten a situation. or in this case, make a situation less awkward.

"i'm really sorry bri." he puts his hand on my shoulder, offering support. "it's fine. whatever." i shake my head. "how do you feel?" he asks with his hand still on my shoulder. "good question," i try to add some humor in my voice.

"i don't know... i'm really confused. my parents literally never fight and out of nowhere they're getting a divorce. this feels like a dream." i throw my hands up. i shake my head in disbelief. i still can't believe it.

"maybe they did. you never know." mason said. "i don't get it!" i get frustrated.

i get off of masons car and i take a few steps away from it. i have so many emotions right now. i groan trying to let my frustration out. "i just want to yell."

"then yell." he says. "what?" i look at him crazy. "yell, no one is going to see you." there's no way i'm actually yelling. "this isn't a movie, i'm not yelling." i walk back to where mason was. "then punch me."

a wave of excitement runs through my body. "really?" i get excited. "no! i'd rather you yell out your frustration than hit me." booooooo. i kind of wanted to punch him. "you really want me to yell?" i cross my arms. at least there's no one up here. he nods.

i look around us. why not? i scream as loud as i can. this lasts for about eight seconds. i stop then i laugh. mason laughs too. "wow... that really did help." i catch my breath. "told you." he smiles. i stand there and admire him. mason was actually very attractive.

i sat back on his hood next to him. "thanks mason." i hug him. "anytime." he hugs back. honestly i could stay in this position forever. there was something about his hugs, they made me feel safe. "i can't believe i just cried and yelled in front of a complete stranger." i tuck a piece of hair behind my ear.

"hey, i don't think i'm a complete stranger now." i feel like i offended him. i seriously need to watch how i say things. "i don't even know you." i say back. "then what do you want to know?" he leans back. "i don't know..." i also lean back. mason plays with his hands. "well there's nothing really special about me. i have a dog, a sister, a single mom. ohio was pretty cool but i'm starting to like it out here."

"you have a dog? what kind?" i get excited. "a husky." the second he said the word i almost had a heart attack. "no way! you have a husky? that's like my dream dog!" i grab his shoulder out of excitement. "woah, it's just a dog." he stares at me like i'm crazy.

"it's a husky!" i say. husky's are the cutest dog breed in my opinion. "okay okay, maybe one day you can come over and see her." he offers. "maybe? i'm definitely coming over now."

maybe i should calm down.

"what's your dogs name? i have to know." i ask. "nova... don't look at me! sophia picked it out." i shrug. "it's cute," i smile. i calm down and remember the rest of what mason said. "wait you said your mom is a single mom? where's your dad?" i question.

masons looks away. are his parents divorced too? "my dad... he... passed away two years ago."

and just like that, i killed the whole mood. "oh shit mason, i'm sorry." i frown. fuck! "it's okay it was a while ago." he says and i feel so bad. way to go bri!

"two years ago wasn't that long ago," i rub his shoulder. "do you want to talk about it?" i wait for him to look at me. "actually can we change the subject?" he does. "of course! my bad." i feel absolutely terrible.

why am i like this?

"want to go get something to eat?" i suggest. i'm so hungry. "it's like you read my mind. i'm starving." masons face lights up and he jumps off the car. i do the same. we get in his car and he starts it. "what are you in the mood for?" he asks.

"a huge cheeseburger." i say so excited. "a cheeseburger? nice." he says. "i know just the place."

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i watch him closely as he takes the first bite. "so what do you think?" i ask before he can even chew. masons eyebrows go up as he chews and he starts to smile. "ha! i told you." i smile feeling successful. he puts his finger up until he finishes chewing. "it's so good." he admits.

i put my hand behind my ear and i lean in towards him. "really?" he grabs his water. "thank you." he says and i applaud myself in my head. "you are totally welcome." i take a bite of my own burger.

when we get done eating, mason drives me back to my house. "your parents are probably worried about you. you've been with me for a few hours." mason parks in front. "yeah right." i sigh. i really don't want to go back home.

"thank you mason. for making me feel better." i smile. kiss him on the cheek. why not?

he looks nervous as i stare at him waiting to make up my mind.

i kiss him on the cheek and i get out of the car. "see you at school?" i ask before i walk away. "yeah, see you at school." he says with a big smile on his face.

"bye." i wave then i start walking up to the door. here we go.