The next morning Louis goes to work. He is not in the mood, not at all. He can't face Harry, which is something that he will have to do. He has been ignoring his messages all day yesterday and also this morning.

The fact that Taylor doesn't want to see Louis' face ever again and threw a bottle of water over him, doesn't really help his mood, he deserved it though. He has messed up both of his friendships only for a nice night and it makes Louis want to throw up.

When he takes his phone while he is in the elevator, the first thing that appears is an article about 'a romantic date between Kendall and Harry', dating from before yesterday right before Louis shared Harry's bed with him. God he feels sick, he has to vomit.

He arrives in the office and Zayn is already there, waiting with a cup of tea for Louis.

"Hey mate, how are you feeling? How did things go with Taylor."

"Let's say that starting from yesterday you and Liam are my only friends on this planet." Louis sighs, resting his face in his hands. "Fuck, Zayn I messed up. I'm the worst person ever."

"You are not, Louis." Zayn shakes his head. "This is not only your fault. Taylor also should hear you out more. I can't believe she throws years of friendship away just because of a small mistake."

"I get her, I'm a jerk." Louis shrugs.

"Louis, stop this." Zayn shakes his head. "Have you talked to Harry about all this?"

Louis shakes his head. "I really don't want to talk to him."

"Why? You said that you have feelings for him. Maybe you should talk to him. You don't know how he feels about all of this Louis."

"Oh I know very well." Louis rolls his eyes. "Haven't you read the article about his super romantic date with Kendall the day that stuff happened between us? It just- It went all so fucking fast Zayn. I was talking about something in the past and then he we got really close and he kissed me and I let it happen because secretly that's what I have been wanting for so long already but- He is not available, Z. He has a girlfriend and I betrayed my best friend. I lost him and it hurts."

"Nobody said that you lost him." Zayn shakes his head. "That's your choice."

"There is not even a choice, Z."

The boys stop talking when the elevator beeps, and a boy enters the office. His brown curls are neatly pulled to the back, his long legs are hugged by a skinny jeans and he wears a floral shirt, the upper buttons opened.

Louis can't help but stare at him, his heart beating out of his chest. He looks incredible, and when his green eyes connect with Louis' blue ones, the boy is out of breath.

Louis quickly turns around and stares at his screen, opening his empty mailbox.

Harry wants to walk up to him, talk to the boy that has been ignoring him now for more than 24 hours an confront him about it, but not here, not in his working environment. He only communicates to him what he has to do.

"I have a meeting with Simon." Harry breathes out. Louis only nods, doesn't remove his eyes from the screen. "Okay, good."

"Right after we have to shoot the commercial. Will you be there?" Harry's voice sounds hopeful and Louis has to fight every urge to just hug him.

"I will see, I have a lot of administration work to do as well." He lies.

"You are going with him, Tomlinson." Simon gets out of his office, starbucks cup in his hand. "Hey mister Styles, glad to see you are here. Mind joining me to my office so we can start the meeting?"

Harry has his fake smile plastered on his face, Louis knows because he knows Harry's real smile, he always shows it to Louis.

"Yes. I will see you later then, Louis." Harry tries to sound cheerful but Louis hears the crack in his voice, the crack that shows Louis that Harry isn't happy at all and he is a part of the cause himself. He hates it.

"If I were you, Louis I would talk to him."

Louis shakes his head and quickly wipes away a tear.

"It will only hurt more, Zayn."

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Louis managed to arrange so he could drive to the shoot of the commercial without Harry with an excuse that he first had to finish something. So when Louis enters the studio, Harry is already there.

"Louis, there you are!" Carlos says, smile plastered on your face. "Just in time to snap some pics of the recording. Look over there." Louis follows Carlos' finger and there is Harry, laying in a bath full of roses. Only his naked chest is visible, his tattoos on display and the only thing Louis can think about is that how he was the lucky, or one of the lucky ones to touch him, kiss him there. His mark has been covered up with make up but Louis can still see it, can still feel how it was to mark him up. He wishes that it actually meant that Harry was his now, but it's not. He goes on stupid romantic dates with Kendall. It makes Louis' blood boil.

Louis makes short videos, snaps pictures and shares it on the different social media platforms of the company. The shooting is over pretty quickly. Louis intends to leave before Harry can catch them, but of course Harry thought about that so he runs over to Louis, still only wearing his skin colored boxers he wore for the clip.

"Louis, wait!" he jogs over to the older guy and grabs his hand.

"Please not, Harry." Louis sighs. "I don't have time for this. I really want to go home."

"I can drop you. It's just- We have to talk about this. You can't just ignore me forever." He shakes his head. "We were fine again, finally. You were okay after it happened, what changed in the morning?" Harry looks desperate. "You know how much you mean to me and losing you again... I can't, Louis."

"Well, you should." Louis tries to stay strong. "Because it's a mistake. I told Taylor the truth about what happened and she hates me. I- I don't want to lose you Harry but I can't lose her either. I hurt my best friend, I slept with her ex-boyfriend while you have a bloody girlfriend. I feel disgusting when I think about it. I'm not a homewrecker, I don't break the friendship code but I did both. I- I can't be around you knowing that every single second I spend with you, I lose Taylor more and more. I never wanted to choose between the two of you. I told her she was crazy for thinking there would ever be something more between us, but it seems like she was right and I broke her trust. Harry, I can't see you, I can't be around you, at least not for a while, not until Taylor has forgiven me and she understands that it was only a stupid mistake."

"Would it also have been a mistake if everything wasn't around Taylor?"

"Harry..."

"It's a genuine question, Louis. Would it?"

"I don't know, why don't you ask your girlfriend Kendall?" With those words Louis walks passed Harry, tears streaming down his face as he calls a taxi home.

He has to go over to Taylor later, talk it out, and maybe then there is a little chance that he can be civil with Harry again, that their friendship without anything more can grow again because the whole time Harry was in front of him and he missed him like crazy. He can't be around him as long as those feelings are in the way. He has to get over him and fix things with Taylor, and then everything might be alright again.