"I'm losing him." Harry mutters as Louis walks out of the door again. They are not fighting, but the light disappears out of Louis' eyes and that's even worse. It's cruel to watch even, seeing the person you love losing energy, knowing you are the cause of that.

That means that the fire of willingness to fight is slowly fading out...

"You are..." Taylor agrees and hearing that from someone that knows Louis by heart hurts even more.

"I can't lose him, Taylor." Harry shakes his head. "You know how long I have been crazy about him and I know he loves me too but- I honestly can't stand to watch him like that. I fuck up his health, not only mentally but physically because of this shit. I can't keep doing this to him. It's eating him alive."

"So are you breaking up with him then?"

"No, I'm too selfish for that." Harry shakes his head. "I can't let go of Louis like- ever."

"So what's the plan then?"

"I'd give up everything for him." Harry breathes out. "Literally everything. I love him so much, he is my sunshine and I hate it that I'm taking his rays away, I should let him shine brighter."

"That's poetic shit, Styles. " Taylor chuckles. "But if you are willing to do that, then why don't you?"

"What do you mean?" Harry gives Taylor a questioning look.

"Risk it all. What's Jeff going to do when you come out? The worst that can happen is that you pay him a fine, but honestly Harry I'm willing to give you some money to pay that shit. I care about both you and Louis and it hurts me to see you miserable like you are now. If he drops you he is the one losing money. Every single management would kill to have you, also when you are out. It doesn't take your talent or your fanbase away."

"Do you think I should risk it?"

"If you love Louis like you tell me you love him, you really should."

--

When Louis left Harry's house three days ago he asked him for some space and really, Louis appreciates it a lot that Harry listens to him, but he misses him as hell. He doesn't text him, though. Time apart helps both of them to figure out what exactly is going on and how they are going to fix it.

Louis really wants it to be fixed because he misses waking up sneezing because there are curls in his nose.

"Are you ready to go, Louis?" Liam asks. "The interview is in an hour and we still have to drive there and you have to pass hair and make up."

"Am I not pretty enough for you?" Louis teases as he walks downstairs together with Liam. "I'm really not in the mood for the interview."

"I know it's a shitty topic, but I think it will help you. They will stop stalking us when you give one interview and answer all the questions about Harry and Taylor. James Corden is the best option, isn't it?"

"It is, I guess. Sometimes I wish all of this never happened and I would still be in Donny with my mom and sisters. I want some peace and quiet, Li."

"I get that." Liam nods. "But as the Beatles said: You can't always get what you want."

"That were the Rolling Stones."

"You know what I mean! Now step into my car, the interview will be over before you know it."

And Liam is wrong, so fucking wrong, because Louis feels like he has been sitting on this chair for ages and James barely even asked him some questions.

"We haven't seen you lately with Harry nor Taylor. Is everything okay between you guys?" James asks.

"We're good." Louis puts on a fake smile. "I don't want to disturb those two. Third wheeling isn't my favourite hobby, you know." Louis tries to joke and apparently it works because James and the public laughs. Louis does too on the outside, in the inside he is crying though.

"Yeah, I understand that. Are you happy that they are back together?"

"As long as Harry and Taylor are happy, I am as well."

And that isn't a lie, Louis means it with all his heart. He wants them to be happy. He wants to see Harry smile everyday, something that Louis feels like he can't give him anymore because of all their fights. Louis hurts him and he knows he does, but Harry hurts him too very much.

But he is willing to do it. He is willing to just ignore the dates with Taylor, the paparazzi questions, the pictures everywhere. He wants to make Harry happy, wants to show him how much he loves him. He wants to fight everybody and everything with him by his side.

"Aww, isn't that the sweetest!" James coos. "I guess someone backstage will love your answer. Ladies and gentlemen, give it up for Harry Styles and Taylor Swift!"

Really, Louis wants to be annoyed but he can't ignore the warm feeling he gets when he sees Harry again. He really just wants to run up to him and kiss him. He misses him so much.

"Harry, Taylor, welcome!" The crowd goes wild and Harry takes place next to Louis, making their knees touch. He looks for eye contact with the older boy and then he grabs the shoe necklace. It brings back the butterflies in Louis' stomach.

"So, Harry and Taylor, you requested to be on this show tonight together with Louis. Could you explain us why?"

"Taylor is an amazing person." Harry smiles. "And she has been a great help and support."

"She's a good girlfriend." James smiles at him.

"I honestly don't know."

And Louis' eyes grow wide and he stares at Harry.

"What do you mean you don't know? Harry, you're a funny guy!"

"What I mean is that- Everything you have seen between Taylor and I, it's fake." He breathes out. "Because I wasn't able to be myself, I was scared to be myself. But there is one person that has always made me feel safe and made me feel good about being Harry, just Harry." Tears appear in Harry's eyes and Louis immediately takes his hand, knowing that he needs the comfort during this moment.

"When I was a kid I used to be bullied for being extra; I went to school with painted nails and I was jealous of Gemma's dresses. Gemma and her friends talked about hot guys and for some reason I perfectly blended into that conversation, agreeing or disagreeing with them. My family and closest friends have always been supportive, but the music industry hasn't. Not being the person that they want you to be is a sin, but I'm ready to be a sinner. I'm close to losing the one person I love with all my heart and then I started to question: why? Why am I letting this happen? Why am I being pulled from girl to girl while I never really liked girls?

I'm not going to lie, I'm scared of the consequences that this will have, but I'm even more scared of losing you." Harry turns to Louis as he speaks the last words, tears streaming down his face.

"I want us to be free, I want everybody to know that my boyfriend is the cutest, funniest, hottest and-" Harry laughs through his tears as Louis rubs his thumb over the palm of his hand. "I love you."

The crowd gasps and Taylor looks at her two friends in awe, just like James.

"I'm Harry Styles, I'm gay, together and madly in love with Louis Tomlinson and I don't care anymore what anyone thinks. The nonexistent time of playboy Harry, flirty Harry, womanizer Harry is over and done. Now it's just Harry, plain old Harry and his amazingly sweet boyfriend, Louis."

Louis cups Harry's face, thumb stroking tears away from his cheek.

"I love you, my cabbage." He whispers against Harry's lips before kissing him passionately.

"I love you too, shoe."

They are free, finally free from a toxic relationship full of lies and hiding. Finally their love can be how it was always supposed to be.

Free.

Love Island, an entertaining dating show that airs a queer edition for the first time during pride month.

Featuring:

Harry Styles, a 22 year old that's looking hopelessly for love.

Louis Tomlinson, a 24 year old that is signed up by his best friend during a night out.

Or

The queer love island edition where two oblivious boys pretend like they are best friends and looking for anyone except each other while the whole nation keeps voting for them as a favourite couple because everyone else can see it but them .

-jealousy

-drama (because no book of mine without drama)

-sexual tension

-the summer vibes you all need