Surprisingly, therapy was going great. I hated to admit it but Reece was right. I had only had a few sessions so far but it was massively helping. We had now been dating for about 2 months as it was now April and we couldn't be happier.

Today was the day I was going to come clean to my friends. They deserved to know and now I was feeling a lot better, I decided to tell them about therapy and the reason behind it. I had told my dad after the first session and he was so sad for me that I was experiencing it but was happy that I was getting help. I still had nightmares but they were so less often and I hardly ever woke up in a bad state.

Hardly ever was the key phrase there. There were still moments when I believed it was real but after a call with Reece, he would always ensure me it was ok. Reece told me that he didn't care what time it was and to always call him afterwards. Ever since we became friends he had a way of comforting me and making me forget all about what was bothering me

And I loved him so fucking much for it.

Annoyingly Reece was out of town with his mum and Ellie so he couldn't be here to talk to them with me. I laid on the couch waiting for my friends to arrive. It was early evening and my dad was out with Ali so I had the house to myself.

Speaking of Ali, she was great. I had got to know her more and turns out she has a son a few years younger than me that goes to my school. I didn't recognise him at first but he knew who I was. Apparently to the freshman's I was known as the girl who beat up Amber. I didn't realise that she made the lives of them horrible too so I guess it was pretty cool to them.

According to Harrison I was a total hero.

The sound of the doorbell snapped me out of my thoughts as I jumped up to get it. Taking a deep breath, I walked to the front door and pulled it open.

"Yo. Yo. Yo." Jake called, pushing past me with his usual floppy grin. I rolled my eyes, smiling at my other two friends.

"Hey Sam." Jodie smiled widely, following Jake into my house.

Cole raised an eyebrow. "How you coping without lover boy?"

I narrowed my eyes at him. "Fine."

He chuckled. "He's been gone two days and I can tell you miss him like mad."

"I do not." I lied, I missed him a lot. He was going for a week in total and we had really amazing goodbye sex, not that you need to know.

Sam who the fuck are you even talking to?

Shaking my head to escape my strange thoughts, I allowed Cole to step in the house and closed the door behind him. I took another deep breath before turning to my friends who were already raiding the cupboards and making themselves at home in the living room.

Shaking my head at them, I followed them into the room. Nerves swam around in my stomach at the thought of coming clean. I don't know why I was so nervous, after all they were my best friends in the world but maybe that was the problem.

They were my best friends and I never told them what I was going through.

I took a seat on the single recliner, pressing the button so I was pushed back comfortably. Jake sat on the other, it fully reclined as he slightly dangled off the edge, stuffing his face with crisps. Jodie and Cole sat on the couch, arguing over who would have the last brownie I baked earlier. They literally got here five minutes ago and they were all gone.

Here goes nothing.

"Guys I need to tell you something." I said, making all three heads snapped to mine. Cole's mouth was full of brownie as it was hung slightly open. Jodie sat with a scowl, letting me know she had in fact lost.

"Oh my god!" Jake yelled with a happy smile. "You're pregnant!"

Chucking, I shook my head. "Oh my god are you?" Jodie joined in, them all staring at me with shock and disbelief.

I narrowed my eyes at them. "No. I'm not pregnant." I replied slowly.

Cole grinned. "Yet."

Rolling my eyes, I sighed. "Um so the thing is." I paused, glancing between them as they all stared at me. Jake had his head tilted with furrowed eyebrows, waiting for me to elaborate. Jodie had a raised eyebrow and Cole had a frown, still chewing the brownie.

"I've been going to therapy." I blurted out. My eyes moved between the three to see their reactions but they didn't look shocked at all.

"Really? That's good." Cole said, smiling.

"Yeah." Jodie added with an encouraging nod.

I furrowed my eyebrows at them. "How is that good?"

Jake rolled his eyes. "Come on Sam, what you went through was fucking awful. It's no surprise and were happy for you that your getting better."

Getting better? Did they know?

"Wait." I narrowed my eyes at all of them. "What do you know?"

Cole sighed. "Um well we-" He stammered. "We heard you once and well we didn't want to bring it up because we know how you hate to talk about things but then Reece said he would help you and convince you to get help and- "

"Reece knew?" I cut him off.

Jodie nodded with a small smile. "It wasn't his idea to keep it from you, in fact we kind of made him."

So that entire time I expressed to Reece how guilty I felt about not telling them, the fucker knew that they already knew.

What a dickhead.

"Don't hate Reece." Jake said, turning my attention to him. "We just didn't want you to feel as if you had to explain yourself to us."

Cole and Jodie nodded in response. "Yeah he wanted to tell you but we convinced him not to."

I nodded slowly, taking in everything they just said. I then raised a brow at them. "So you're not mad that I didn't tell you for months?"

They all shook their heads. "Of-course not." Jodie smiled.

I chuckled lightly. "I'm glad."

Jake then stood up, grabbing my hand and pulling me up. "Can we have this conversation in the kitchen while you make more of those delicious brownies because I'm still fucking starving."

He literally just ate half the batch.

Yawning loudly, I practically collapsed into bed. I smiled to myself when my head hit the soft pillow, snugging into it as I grabbed my phone. Today was a long and tiring day, I had spent it with Jodie as we went on a 'shopping spree' according to her. My legs ached, no scrap that, my whole fucking body ached.

Jodie was one of those girls who just loved shopping and getting her hands on any bargains and unfortunately being the only other girl in the group I was dragged along.

I totally didn't buy some new lingerie for a particular person.

Speaking of that particular person, he was back in two days. School had been fucking crap without him there. Maths was so depressing I literally wanted to die sitting alone. It made me realise how much I appreciated his company even before we got together. I hadn't not laughed in a math lesson in months and this week I was bored out of my fucking mind. He had only been gone for five days and I wanted to ring him as I didn't speak to him yesterday but was I being too needy? The last thing I would want was to become one of those needy girlfriends that need to speak to him 24/7.

Fuck it.

Dialling his number, I leaned my head against the headboard and listened to it ring. It rang for a few seconds and just as it was about to go to voicemail, I heard a female voice on the other end. "Hello?" I heard a chirpy female voice.

"Hey is Reece there?" I questioned, after all it was his phone.

"Um I think he's in the shower. Who's this?" She asked as I narrowed my eyes against the wall.

"His girlfriend." I replied bluntly.

The girl laughed. "Reece has a girlfriend? No fucking way."

I furrowed my eyebrows. "Um yeah but I'll just call back la- "

"Oh my god!" The girl squealed. "Is that you Sam?"

My face shrivelled up in confusion. "Yeah." I said slowly. "Who's this?"

"Oh sorry." She laughed. "This is Natalie, remember we met at Ellie's party?"

I thought about it for a second and then found myself smiling. Natalie was Reece's younger cousin who I met months back. She was so sweet. "Oh yeah I do. How are you?"

"Who cares how I am?" She beamed. "I fucking knew it! I so knew you two would get together!"

Why did everyone around us know that we would get together apart from us two ourselves?

Thinking about it, I now remember that Natalie said she lived in New York, where Reece was currently. I chuckled into the phone. "Well some things happened." I replied.

She sighed. "Yeah I know I heard, I'm so sorry you had to go through that. Are you ok?"

I nodded and then I remembered she couldn't see me, this was a regular occurrence when I speak to someone on the phone. I would have face timed if I didn't look like total dog shit and plus I was in the pitch black so he wouldn't have been able to see me anyway. Because fuck getting up and putting the light on.

It was kind of embarrassing how lazy I was.

"Yeah." I breathed. "So how's you, anyone you got your eye on?"

She chuckled. "Yeah there is actually."

"Really?" I grinned. "Who is he?"

"Um." She sighed awkwardly. "It's a girl actually, I'm gay."

My eyes widened and I grinned wider. "Oh wow that's cool, so who is she?" I questioned.

She chuckled quietly. "Her names Rose, we've been dating for a few weeks. Reece really likes her so that's nice."

I smiled softly at the thought of his name. God, I was such a simp. "That's great, I bet she- "

I was rudely interrupted by the sound of a deep voice. "Nat why are you on my phone?"

"Oh." Natalie teased and I could Imagine she was smirking. "I'm just having a nice chat with your girlfriend."

"You're such a dick." He murmured but he laughed anyway. I laughed into the phone as I heard them fighting over the phone before I heard a sigh of relief. "Hey Sammy."

"Hey." I smiled widely. I listened as he shushed his cousin out of the room and then there was a soft click of the door. "How's New York?" I asked.

"Good." He replied. "Would be better if you were here with me, this big king sized bed is lonely without you."

I grinned In the darkness. "Well you're gonna have to make it up to me." I flirted.

He chuckled lowly, a sound I had become to find incredibly hot. "Oh don't you worry, I definitely will."

I smirked to myself. "Me and Jodie went shopping today."

He hummed. "Oh really? What did you get?"

I bit my lip, running my fingers through my hair. "Um not much really." I sighed. "Just a new set from Victoria secret."

He sucked in a breath. "Don't start, its dinner time here and I'm not going down there with a hard on."

I laughed loudly, slamming a hand on my mouth when I realised my dad was asleep in bed. "Sorry." I mumbled. We spoke for a little longer until I began to yawn heavily and we quit off after an exchange of I love you's. I rested my head against the pillow with such a large smile on my face as I closed my eyes.

When Reece was in the hospital, I thought I couldn't love him any more than I already did but that wasn't true. Everyday together I loved him more and more and sometimes I still had to do a double take when he called me his girlfriend or said I love you.

It was so unreal that he was mine and it was difficult to come to terms with.

If I could hug Mr Harvey right now I honestly would. He was a teacher I had disliked since freshman year but now I literally loved him. Him forcing Reece to tutor me was the best thing anyone could have ever done and I'm so fucking glad that I failed that test.

So fucking glad.