Xaloni Denae Carter

|| Loni || Nae || Lolo ||

|| 17 || lesbian ||

I woke up next to Sage and Inari in my room. Inari was already awake.

"hey pooh." I said getting up.

"hey Nae, how you feeling." she asked hugging me.

"I'm good." I said dryly remembering what had happened yesterday. "Where's Lee"

"Still at the hospital" she said putting her phone down. "He dropped us off last night, and went back."

I nodded my head and grabbed my phone from my jacket. I looked for Lee's contact.

I pressed call and waited for him to answer.

📌🩸

"How is she?" I rushed out.

"...umm"

"pl-please be honest with me."

"she flatlined again last night when we left, and twice this morning."

"o-okay im coming."

"no Xaloni stay and get some rest."

"b-but I love her."

"yea she told me that." he laughed a little. "just promise me you'll stay home."

"no"

"Xaloni" he gave me a glare.

"I promise" I mumbled.

"good ... I'll update you later love you." he said.

-

I hung up. I feel like I need to cry but no tears are coming out.

voice #1: just kill yourself. there's a razor right infront of us.

"no" I whispered to myself. "we've changed."

I haven't heard the voices in three years now they're back.

voice #1: she's dead Xaloni might as well be dead too.

"fuck" I said as I grabbed the razor blade and my lighter.

voice #1: good, now end us.

I walked out my closet and into my bathroom.

"m-my bad" I said walking in on Sage using the bathroom.

"n-no" she sniffled wiping her nose. "y-you're good." She pulled up her pants and walked to the sink .

I walk to the shower and turned it on.

"Me and Inari going to the my house to pack some clothes, if you need anything call us and Nova is in her room also."

voice #1: great, they're leaving.

I nodded my head and she walked out.

I waited for a little bit.

I heard my room door close, I locked the bathroom door and sat in the tub.

voice #1: now you have to be quiet don't think of the pain.

I got this ...

I got the lighter out of my joggers and lit it holding it over towards the blade.

Once the blade turned a little red. I threw the lighter on other side of the tub.

I decided to reopen my old scars so I wouldn't have any extra scars.

I went for the long scar on my arm "shit" I hissed at the pain.

voice #1: keep it down.

my bad

By the time I opened my second scar on my stomach all the pain went away.

voice #1: burial or cremation?

burial

voice #1: open or close casket?

i don't know yet ... i gotta think about it.

voice #1: well hurry up you about to die.

I felt myself drift off, I looked at my phone once more then but then I seen a text notifaction from Lee saying

' she's up and doing good😮‍💨. the doctors are going to put her in a recovery room. i'm finna come get you be ready❤️.'

SHIT, he text it that 18minute ago

voice #1: well too bad ... ig you're the only one dying ... lol

I tried to get out the tub but my body was weak and I was in a pool of blood.

"NOV..."

𝚟𝚘𝚝𝚎 && 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝❤️‍🩹.