Dion's pov

I'm not a fuck boy. Well, i don't think I am.

I don't use people for sex. It's different to sleep with someone and then kick them out.

And tells them the stakes and drive them home.

Or at least I'm living in that idea.

My relationships. I will be selfish enough to think the break ups were not my fault.

Yeah. I know. Boo.

But listen. If someone is using me to get money I worked hard for , I'm not going to blindly over look that.

No body wants to date a gold digger. That's a big red flag.

I don't want a partner that is unhealthily

obsessed with me. Needs my 24/7 attention, schedule, date every other day, constant need of telling them why I love them.

It's too much for me. I can't handle that. Especially not with my work duties.

People told me I should be glad they are so in love with me.

You shouldn't talk about things you didn't love through. It's not a big sun shine.

And then the classic problem of every relationships.

"We should get married young"

"We should by a house together and a dog"

"We should have kids. The younger the better. How many do you want? Boy or a girl? What about the names? Where will they have rooms ..."

I'm the type of person who doesn't want family young.

I did not want to have kids at twenty four. I wanted a great career and money.

To be more wise so later on I can be a good husband and dad.

I'm twenty eight now. Everyone is waiting for me to be married with kids soon enough. I'm not a baby machine!

A child is not accessory. If i don't feel like it, i shouldn't have it.

But it's useless. People don't get these things.

They don't see reasons. They see my break ups and think I'm a player.

That I'm so unlovable ... Or a cheater.

Why should I be the cheater? Because I'm richer?

I hope Caspian is just shocked by the number but he will realize I'm not a bad person.

Also the sex. Well, people don't believe me there is a difference between 'just doing it' and 'making love with passion'.

For me there is.

And I totally split those two groups of people.

I would definitely not want Caspian to fall in the first category.

-

I watch him finish his dessert as he talks about Orson and his neighbor hood.

"He is so strange but nice. Do you know he has a cat?

I wanted to get one so I'm not so lonely in the flat.

But then i would have to admit that I'm lonely and that's ... Pathetic " he mumbles, "what ever.

I don't know why I'm saying it."

I can relate to him in that.

"Not to brag but ... My house is kind of huge "

"Right."

"No. That's not the point. I like loving in it, it's so amazingly build and put together.

But at night, when there is no staff, no friends and I'm just sitting in the huge empty house.

I have this weird feeling. I guess , yes ... It's probably loneliness.

And the walls are getting bigger around me. It's get cold and scary.

I always have the tv on, my fire place and listen to earphones so i distract myself."

"Oh. I didn't know rich people had such problems."

"Rich or not. You are still a human seeking for love ." I look at him. "why did you chose to be a lawyer?"

"Money " he smiles.

I chuckle. "Not to help get criminals to jail?"

"No. Lawyer was in the top five most payed jobs.

I didn't want to be a doctor. So, i chose lawyer."

"Do you get enough money?"

"Enough. That's a tough questions.

It's more than average. But not as much as I would want." He shrugs, "why are you a business man?"

"Money " i smirk.

He rolls his eyes. "Of course. And I KNOW you would also want more, you told me."

"Yes."

"Maybe we should both humble down and be grateful for what we have."

"I'm grateful. I just know how good it feels to have a rich privilege.

I want to enjoy life. And ... My Future family too."

"So, rich privilege?"

I chuckle. "Yes. That's why I'm on freedom.

Sitting on top of a five star restaurant with you.

Doesn't it feel amazing?"

"I don't want to get too spoiled with this."

"You can." I smile at him. I wouldn't mind.

"I'm sorry I freaked out because of your exes. I shouldn't have asked.

Every time, I just feel like I don't even have enough experience to date.

I'm digging the hole for myself."

"You don't need experiences. Even if I was your first person, it would change anything for me.

Don't be hard on yourself. You are not hard to be interested in."

"Well, it feels like it " he shrugs.

"But it's not."

-

I drive him to his place. He looks so beautiful today.

"Don't forget your flowers." I remind him.

"Oh, sure." He puts them in his lap. "So," he looks at me, "it was nice today.

I'm glad we ... were together."

"Yeah. Me too."

We both stare at each other. I take the chance and lower myself to him.

I gently kiss him on the lips.

"I'll text you " I say.

He blushes a bit. "S-sure, sure. Text, call." He grabs the flowers and bag, "okay.

Bye now. G-good night " he waves and gets out the car.

I watch him walk inside the building.

I put my head on the seat and smile. That was kind of hot from me.