I ring on Caspian's flat.

"Hi. Who is it?" I hear his voice.

"It's Dion. Can I come over?"

He doesn't say anything and answers the door.

The unlocks his to me.

"Hi." He smiles. "Is it because of Asa?"

"You know?" I ask shocked.

"It's a huge fight." He sighs.

"What? How come? I don't know about it?

Did he say something?"

"Yep." He looks at me sad. "And then I said something and it all went down."

"Can we sit down and... Explain it?

I don't know what he told you.

I don't want us to get the wrong impressions."

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He looks at me on the couch.

I sip on my tea.

"I should have called. I just didn't know what to say."

"I didn't know you knew so ... That's why I didn't say anything.

Should I start or what happened here?"

"War."

I laugh. "It can't be that bad."

"No. It is.

But what did Asa tell you? Did he ask about your exes?"

I gulp down. "Well ... In one sentence or paragraph?"

"Please. One sentence. I'm so over it today."

"We can talk tomorrow then?"

"No. You are already here."

I kiss his cheek. "Don't be stressed.

It's okay, I just freaked on Asa.

In one sentence. He said that he's glad that we are together, I joked it's not a competition and then he implied it's for me since I've been with so much people."

"How rude."

"No. I just panicked.

I felt ... Embarrassed you know.

To me it sounded. Oh, so you have my brother just as another number."

"Well. I'm sure he meant it like this.

I'm so mad." He frowns.

"Caspian. Calm down.

It was just in the moment. I was just ... Taken back.

Now i know it was wrong from me."

"No. It was wrong from him.

He can't judge you because he sleeps around all the time.

And I told him that."

"You told him he sleeps around?"

"Yes."

"Cas."

"Yes. I'm on your side."

I sigh and rub his hair. "I'm happy you are on my side but this is not about sides.

I just felt bad because I know how it makes you feel.

Are you insecure because ... I've been with so many people?"

He blushes. "No. I- ...this about Asa sticking his nose into things he shouldn't have.

He should worry about his own sex life and not judge you."

"Yes but do YOU judge me?" I look at him.

"W-what? Why would you think that?"

"It's just a question. I want to know.

Do you mind?"

"Well it's not like you can change it now.

I just feel like an idiot.

You probably already tried our every sexual things there is.

From both men and women and then .... Here I am.

With my three lame boyfriends. I can't even give a proper blow job.

It's -it's awful."

I try not to laugh. "Caspian." I rub his hair, "I don't care."

"No. But I know you do.

Asa always tells me about his dates and what he did.

Even when I don't want to here.

His legs here, there. He did this and that.

I can't do that.

I can't even flirt with people."

"And yet you still got me." I grab his hips and try to put him on my lap.

He twists.

"Sit on my lap." I push him on me and he pouts.

"Caspian. I'm sorry I made you insecure.

I didn't realize it would be a big deal for you because no one before complained.

But it's okay to have a different opinion.

For me. I really split people who I love and care for and the ones I just sleep with.

They do get a different treatment. And also memory in my head.

I barely remember the second group and my exes ... I remember them more for what they've done wrong to me than their abilities in bed.

I don't care if you had zero boyfriends or three. "

I kiss his nose, "I'm really trying to find someone who will finally be good for me.

Not a person who wants my money. Not someone who is awfully obsessed with me.

Not people who try to force me into marriage.

Just a kind, smart person who wants me for me."

"I can be that." He gives me big eyes.

"Don't feel bad that I have experience.

At least I can use it to please you." I kiss his lips, "that's important."

"I called Asa a whore."

"Then you should apologize." I raise a brow.

"But he-,"

"But you should apologize. Or I will be mad."

"He gave me the flowers."

I look at his counter and smile. "I'm glad he did.

Do you like them?"

"Yes."

"I'll have to pay him for them. And buy you more."

"Do you want to have sex?" He asks.

I shake my head calmly. "Not today, Caspian.

It's not the time." I kiss his hand, "don't press it.

Can I stay over?"

"You don't have clothes here?"

"Actually I have a bag in my car." I smile.

"Oh " he blushes. "Okay. "

"Can we not fight because of my exes anymore?"

"Yes. I'm sorry." He hugs me,

"Should I cook?"

"I'm cooking. You just sit here."

I watch him in the kitchen.

"Should I call Asa?"

"No. I will see him." He huffs.

It was my fault anyway.