I laid on my bed as I watched my phone ring. Aliyah was calling

It rang for a while, then a text buzzed in

"I'm coming over" it reads

I sighed

I stood up and walked lazily to my bathroom. I took my pills quickly before entering the shower

I stayed there longer, letting the cold water touch my skin.

I felt blank

It's all coming back to me. The reality i wanted to forget

I walked out of the shower in my towel. I heard a soft knock on my door

"Come in"

I watched Aliyah walk in

I took in what she wore. She had on a white tee and a black biker short

She smiled at me

"Hey"

I nodded weakly before walking over to my wardrobe.

I guess I'll throw on something big and maybe shorts

I brought out my extra large 'hate me you die' t-shirt

I felt her presence behind me, her scent was all over the room, so intoxicating.

She moved closer, wrapping her hands around me. I wanted to melt in her embrace.

This is too much for me

I tried to wiggle myself out but she tightened her hold

"I'm sorry"

She brought her jaw to rest on my shoulder

"Forgive me"

I was confused.

What's she apologizing for, she did nothing wrong.

I cleared my throat

"Why?" I asked

"Cause I am stupid" she said placing a kiss on my shoulder

She turned me around gently, I watch her eyes. She looked sincere but I was still confused

"I don't think you're stupid. Don't say that"

She pulled me gently into her. I wrapped my hands around her waist. We stayed like this for a while

"I know you're mad at me"

Was I?

Friday was the biggest realisation of my life.

After Aliyah left that evening I had one of my episodes and was immediately rushed to the hospital

I couldn't breathe, I honestly thought that was it for me. The doctors had said I really do not have much time

I spent the night at the hospital because they said I needed close supervision

They had to place me on sedative so I could sleep

For a while I had forgotten what it felt like. What the pain felt like

Aliyah had been my remedy. And now here I am too scared to tell her what went down on Friday

"I'm not mad at you" I finally spoke

"Okay. I won't push it" she whispered kissing the top of my head

"I still need to get dressed tho"

"Ooh" she said releasing me

I chuckled

I let my towel fall down from my body, not minding that Aliyah was right there

"Shit" she muttered turning her body quickly, facing the other direction

I chuckled at her reaction. She's cute.

It's pains me that she would have to go through pains when I'm gone. Or would she?

"You don't have to act like you're not curious" I smirked as I applied my body lotion

She remained quiet

I got dressed as she faced the other side of the room.

Everything was overwhelming but I tried my best to keep it in

You know what, I'm going to die anyways. I could even die right now, so fuck it

I tugged on her arm till the turned to face me. Since she was taller I had to stand on my toes

I put my hands around her neck pulling her face closer to mine. I need an escape

I connected our lips, kissing her with so much passion. She held on to me tightly as we kissed, her hands were around my waist

The feeling never gets old. Her smell, her touch, I want to drown in everything

Aliyah pulled back still holding onto me

"Ava we need to slow down" she said panting

"No" I said slamming my lips back into hers

We fought with our tongue. I needed this. I pulled back pushing her into my bed.

I pulled my shirt leaving my chest exposed

Her eyes scanned my body. I climbed on top of her connecting her our lips without hesitation

She flipped us over pinning my hands above my head

Her eyes met mine

I could tell she was trying to fight this

She brought her face slowly to mine. She tugged on my lips, pulling on it softly. My hands were still pinned above my head.

She kissed from my mouth till she got to my neck. Bitting and sucking on my sweet spot

I let out a soft moan

She traced her lips till she got to my chest. She hesitated but slowly brought her hand to cup my left boobs, releasing her hold on my hands

She kissed around the skin gently like she was scared her lips could burn me

She squeezed tenderly before applying a little force to it. I couldn't suppress my moan. It felt so good.

I threw my head back as she continued the sweet torture

She twirled her tongue around my hardened nipple before sucking on it. I grabbed onto my sheets, trying not to be loud

She continued to do this before moving her attention to my other boobs. My mind was foggy. I needed this. To forget the pain, to forget everything, even if it's just for a night.

She moved her lips back to mine kissing me passionately. I returned the kiss with just as much passion.

She pulled back slightly staring at me. She slowly pecked my lips repeatedly

"I love you" she muttered against my lips

She kissed me again

"I love you"

I brought her lips close to mine

"I love you too"

"Forever" she whispered

I felt my heart skip a beat.

We don't have forever

I wrapped my hands around are neck

"Then let's make this moment last forever"

She nodded, smiling against my lips

"Okay" she said, connecting our lips back.

The night was filled with passion and all I could do was let it cloud my mind. From now, every moment with Aliyah must be treasured

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