Aliyah's POV

"It meant nothing to me Aliyah"

"Mmhmm" i said with ice cream in my mouth

"I'm not even like that, I'm straight"

"Wow, aren't we all"

"I'm serious Aliyah"

"Come on Ben, you can't fuck a dude and claim to be straight, that's like calling a rainbow horizontal"

"Yeah i know, but it was a one time thing, i just felt confused"

"Ben, I'm sorry okay. But you got to tell me what happened, how did that happen?"

He sighed

"Well, i went to his party last night, the one we got invited to"

I rolled my eyes remembering Clair

"i got drunk and we kissed. I felt so sick so i went home" he stopped, watching me

"Go on" i encouraged

"well this morning he stopped by.

I was shocked to see him right outside, i was too tired to tell him to leave, plus, i felt bad for how things went down last night"

"He stayed, we talked and he listened to the things i had to say. Quite different from the first impression we had. I don't know why but in that moment i was caught up" he shrug his shoulders

"I'm not even attracted to boys it's so confusing"

"I'm not even attracted to girls either" i shrug

He looked at me like i was crazy

"What?"

"You're dating my sister"

"Correction Ben, I'm Married to your sister" i smiled

He raised his brows

"I'm serious, Ava is the only girl I'm attracted to" i stated plainly

"Is that even possible?"

"I don't know" i shrug

"Does it matter? I see other girls and I'm like, ney, even Megan Fox, the one most girls go crazy about"

"Are you sure you're human" he chuckled

"Yup, i was made for one girl only"

"I find that hard to believe" he licked his ice cream

"Believe whatever you want Ben"

He shaked his head

"I just know it would never happen again" he sighed

"You can tell yourself that" i laughed

"You're not helping Aliyah"

"Come on, what do you want me to say? I know you'll figure this out but please why you're at it, try not to hurt anyone's feelings"

He looked at his empty ice cream cup

"Sure"

Gosh i miss Ava

"How's Ava"

He looked at me, he had this sad glint in his eyes

"She's fine"

He wasn't telling me something

"When last did you contact them? I've been trying for like forever"

"Uhm, last night i guess"

I raised a brow

"You guess?"

"Yeah, we spoke last night"

I stared at him to see if he was telling the truth

I could pick things up when i stared into Ava's eyes, it was the same for Ben

He kept looking at his empty cup

"Can we have more ice cream?" he spoke raising his head but avoiding my gaze

"Yeah sure"

We remained there till we finished our extra cups

He said nothing else to me, which was devastating and disturbing but i said nothing either

"Okay so I'll see you in school?"

He said when we got to his place

I nodded

"Sure"

he smiled weakly before getting out

he didn't even spare me a glance when he got out

I waited till he got in before driving back home

Why do i feel like crying?

Everything's fine, i just need to shower then I'll feel good, right?

This is all in my head

BEN'S POV

I closed the door quietly as Aliyah drove out, why didn't i just tell her

"Hey"

I turned to face Chris

"Why are you still here"

"Ouch, you don't say that to the guy you had hot sex with" he laughed, clearly finding this amusing

I walked passed him to the kitchen, please don't follow me, i feel like a time bomb

He followed

"Did i say something wrong" he asked moving closer to me

I stepped back

Everything about him is messing with my head. This isn't me

"Look Chris, I'm sorry if i gave you the wrong impression but this" i pointed between us

"This was"

"Don't" he cut me off

"Don't say what i think you're about to say"

I shrug

"Fine"

"I get it you're confused, it's obviously your first but you can't deny what we have"

"We don't have anything Chris"

He kept his hands in his pocket, still keeping his composure

"So what now?"

"I don't know"

"you want me to leave, pretend like nothing happened?"

Isn't that obvious

"Yeah"

"So last night meant nothing?"

"I was drunk Chris"

"What about today, we had sex multiple times even before your friend interrupted, and if i recall correctly, you were sober"

"It was just sex"

"You're such a jerk"

he turned around to leave. I watched him walk out of the kitchen and into the living room

I should be happy right, this is what i want

Fuck

I ran after him, just before he could open the door

I stood in front of him

"I'm sorry I'm stupid" i said before crashing my lips on his

I don't know what I'm doing, I don't know if I'm thinking

He pulled back

"No"

I tried to kiss him again

"No, i get it you're grieving, but i won't let you use me like that Ben"

I took a step back

"I genuinely like you Ben but not like this"

I looked at the floor

This was stupid

"When you're ready, you know where to find me if you need me"

I simply nodded

He walked out, leaving me alone in this big house

I sat on the floor

My mind was blank, i had no thoughts

I stayed like that not moving an inch

What do i do now?

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