leaving shisui and the itachi person behind i left the forest to go see if the kids had killed Queeni yet since i hadn't told them i was leaving.

hopping over the fence i wished desperatly to go back and practice the new jutsu Rama-sensei had me learning.

it was call mind shadow and it basically let you write messages into someones head without opening your mouth and to them its like they are reading it out loud to themselves.

i was really excited about this jutsu and i really wanted to try it out on my friend, instead i have to leave to go see all of my nii-sans and they are going to be angry.

won't that make them mad or upset???

i will try it on the kids when i get there i don't want to upset anyone i don't know.

shadow walking (i don't remember what i said he called it) over the roof tops with practiced ease i silently thanked Rama-sensei for teaching me how to jump them.

i reached the forest next to the orphanage much faster than normal and I'm certain the training rama sensei put me through was the cause of it.

nervously scratching the back of my head i walked through the forest and headed to the house that i had lived in for the 4 short years i was there.

smiling at the house i watched from a distance as all the kids ran around playing ninja or hide and seek outside.

no-one had noticed me yet, and i was looking for queen until i heard a muffled scream coming from inside.

shadow stepping past all the kids i sprinted towards the house.

i was going so fast the door was gone in an instant and i was already at the kitchen before i had even registered that i was inside.

walking around the corner i could hear a voice of an older person speak with a sinister tone.

"what have you done to him, you wench TELL ME!!!"

when i heard the familiar thud of a kunai hitting the wood i decided to make my presence known.

rounding the corner the shock must have been evident on my face.

there was Queeni tied by sheets and bound to the wall with kunai. her face was red and her eyes were wide. kunai surrounded her frame

in front of her was a girl...

she WAS one of the special people i had here at the orphanage her name was yuchika

she was 18 and a chuunin ninja that was assigned to keep me company a year back when she was a genin and i think she became really close with me.

after she stopped coming i had to once again scavenge for food on the streets, until Queeni came along.

silently looking at there faces i made a huge smile adorn my face to greet her when really i felt empty inside.

she's the one who left me on my own the one who didn't show until she was ordered to.

she's the one who's hurting Queeni the one who WAS there for me the one who STOPPED the mistreatment.

walking over to queeni i expertly pulled out the kunai and caught her before she fell.

waiting for queen to steady herself i lost my smile and glared at yuchika with an icy anger.

she visibly flinched and i could feel the snarl that Rama-sensei was letting out at the sight of her.

looking over at queeni i decided to attempt the jutsu i was working on.

making the single ram seal i focused on visualising a notepad in my head and writing the message on it.

i then used chakra to make it appear as a genjutsu in her head.

are you okay Queeni it wrote

you could see the shock in her eyes as i waited to see if i had managed to do it

she nodded to me before she glanced at me using more chakra i attempted the jutsu on a larger scale.

carefully writing the words down i started looking for all the chakra signatures of the kids before sending it over like email to them.

"hey everyone its naruto theres a mean person who's being mean to queeni in the kitchen" it wrote and then for added effect i wrote on the end "I'm scared"

it took less than 4 seconds till we heard the sounds of angry running. i looked over at queeni and saw her grinning evilly at yuchika

i had made sure to send the message to everyone but yuchika so queeni knew what was about to happen.

she looked over to me and grinned when she saw the smirk on my face, quickly resuming the I'm scared roll.

i began to shiver and i hid behind queen's leg with my BIG blue eyes watering slightly to give added effect.

as the first few kids saw me i watched fascinated as there eyes gained an evil glint and some even started going red in the face.

i watched as the army of orphans advanced onto the chuunin and as she started backing away nervously.

having to peel the kids off of her i watched as she left as fast as she could, i smiled at all the kids and they all instantly tackled me in a hug.

i frowned i hadn't grown used to hugs and i flinched slightly at the contact like i had done the thousands of times before.

Queeni was watchig all the kids with a small relieved smile like she thought she would die if i didn't visit.

silently giggling at the kids i held my arms up to queeni, a habit i did when it was just the kids and her.

she leaned down and picked me up and placed me on her shoulders. while walking to the kitchen to help make everyone breakfast.

she just setting down the last bowl when i did the ram seal and spoke to her again

ne Queeni i cant stay, the hokage wants me to move to my own apartment... could you tell the kids?

she was frowning again and i began to feel guilty, i just upset queeni. she gave me a grim look and stood up to make the announcement.

the guilty feeling in my stomach intensified after she told the kids and they all had tears rolling down there cheeks i felt so bad it reminded me of why i didn't speak in the first place.

keeping my lips tightly sealed i waved goodbye and left to see how good the boys had gotten since i had left

my shoulders were heavy with guilt when i walked through the forest of death i was barely keeping the tears out of my eyes, i had left them crying and sobbing.

looking over at the clearing i had left itachi at i frowned when i saw he wasn't there.

i could see all of the marks from the kunai that had been added to my targets, feeling bad for just leaving them there i walked over to shisui's clearing to find him and itachi talking on the floor having lunch.

walking over i plonked myself down next to them not feeling hungry at all after what i had done.

sitting silently i saw itachi look over at me, i met his gaze but immediately looked away

he frowned, i was nervous and i started tapping out morse code on the ground subconsciously, unaware that itachi was picking it all up.

im so stupid

why do i always mess things up

can't i be normal

im a monster

a demon

a murderer

i make everyone upset

its always my fault.

I don't deserve the food i need (changed what it said cause people had a problem with it XD)

looking down i stopped tapping at the dirt and looked up to see itachi staring intently at me, avoiding his gaze i looked over at shisui who was smiling and munching on some odd looking things on a stick.

i felt so sick right now that even the thought of food made me want to vomit, looking up i saw itachi pick up one of the odd things on a stick and hold it out to me.

when i didn't move he frowned and got up walking over to me, flinching i backed away towards shisui.

he kept getting closer to me and my eyes widened when i ran into shisui who didn't move still munching on his food oblivious to what was happening.

shrinking into a ball i started to shiver and flinch as he paused slightly his eyes held something in them i'd never seen before. was it concern?

he kept walking and when he was right in front of me crouched down i squeezed my eyes shut, when i felt something get shoved into my mouth i froze.

it settled hard into my unsettled stomach and i knew it wouldn't stay my face went pale and in reflex i stood and ran to a bush vomiting out the sweet thing.

i kept vomiting until i was dry wrenching i felt incredibly weak right now and i collapsed onto the dirt coughing violently

looking over to itachi i saw his eyes wide with concern and shisui seemed to be horrified as he hurried over to me picking me up and taking me over to the camp fire they had set up.

as dizzy as i was i kept my eyes open watching as shisui checked my temperature. after everything was done itachi asked me a question one i hadn't been expecting.

"when was the last time you ate?" he said

i frowned trying to think of when it last was, and came up with a blank, i remembered eating a small bird i had caught 2 weeks ago but i never finished eating it, it had made me feel sick.

to weak to think properly my mind wouldn't focus enough so my photographic memory was no use.

looking up at shisui and itachi i held my arm up, itachi reached forward and allowed me to tap i don't know onto his palm before collapsing back onto the ground.

i watched as iachi's face began to look worried and he grabbed shisui taking him a little away from me.

with my sensitive hearing i could hear them anyway, "shisui i think naruto might develope a mental condition if he isnt looked after properly soon he is already sick" itachi said

"is it to do with how light he is, i don't think he weighs more than one of his wooden targets"

"yes but right now he is fine just a little weak from not eating anything he should be okay after he gets a good rest"

"but we need to make sure he keeps eating otherwise it could get bad very quickly" itachi said

sick of listening in on there conversation i fought off the dizziness and rose from my spot on the floor and shadow stepped back to my apartment for a good rest.

walking through the streets i was suddenly caught in a dizzy spell and almost collapsed my mind left me before i hit the ground, not noticing that itachi had grabbed me from my fall.

ITACHI POV

after naruto left me i concentrated on the challenge he had left for me, I'm still not convinced that it is logically possible to hit that many targets in one flip, but that sure as hell wasn't going to stop me from trying.

after many failed attempts that went on for about 3 hours i began to feel tired and left to go find shisui and the little guy naruto.

walking into shisui's clearing i saw him fall from his perch on the tree and caught him before he hit the ground, looking at him i asked where naruto was.

"Naruto huh, i thought he was with you?" he said i frowned when i realised he left us in the forest but figured he would be back soon.

i made a fire in the clearing and sat down in front of shisui and unpacked my lunch that consisted of a large bag of dango on a stick and poky, shisui pulled out a similar bag with rice balls in it.

shisui was happily munching on our shared food and we began to talk mindlessly about something.

all of a sudden i stopped talking i felt naruto's presence and i waited, i watched as he came through the trees i looked back to shisui to see if he had noticed he hadn't.

naruto sat down on the other side of the campfire his eyes looked up for a second and i was instantly worried, his eyes they were so broken almost unfixable, i frowned

i watched as he looked down not wanting to meet my gaze suddenly his fingers started moving, it took a second before i realised he was tapping morse code

i don't think he realised he was doing it but i grew more and more concerned about him as the words went on

he seems to think he is the sole cause of everyones problems and that he's some kind of demon or monster. i thought

when i heard the last insult to himself i froze and began studying him,I don't deserve the food i need, he'd said and i was instantly worried, looking over him i saw how skinny he was and i could see his ribs through the long shirt.

looking down i picked up a stick of dango and i held it out for him hoping desperately that he was fine and it was just my over active imagination.

when he ignored it i frowned and got up to go give it to him i watched as he flinched away from me his eyes wide with fear.

i was getting more and more worried about this small boy i had only met this morning as he kept backing away i kept walking but when he hit shisui he seemed to panic his breaths coming out in small pants.

he curled into a ball and started shivering i paused very concerned about him and i stopped in front of him.

i crouched down and shoved a piece of dango in his mouth, i had to know it would eat me up if i didn't my eyes widened when his face went deathly pale and he flew from his spot next to shisui to the side of the clearing.

he was vomiting and i was frozen, it was exactly what i had feared, he doesn't look after himself properly and this is the result.

it hurt me inside seeing this boy younger than my own little brother be in so much pain he was now dry wrenching and he seemed to be swaying on his feet.

looking over at shisui i noticed he looked absolutely horrified and suddenly he ran forward to naruto carrying him back to a spot near the fire shisui then began checking his temperature and he told me that he had a small fever.

once he stopped his limited knowledge of medicine i asked naruto the question i needed to know the answer to.

"when was the last time you ate"

he lay there for around 10 minuets and i was worried he wasn't going to answer until he held his arm up, i placed my palm under his dangling fingers and read the morse code to my self "I don't know" was the answer

i winced slightly at that thought and took shisui to the other side of the clearing

shisui i think naruto might not be looking after himself well enough" I began

"is it to do with how light he is, i don't think he weighs more than one of his wooden targets" he said, i frowned those were pretty light and to only weigh that much...

"yes but right now he is fine just a little weak from not eating anything he should be okay after he gets a good rest" I said shaking the thoughts from my head

"but we need to make sure he keeps eating otherwise it could get bad very quickly" I said

he nodded, glancing over to the makeshift bed we had set naruto in i started looking around for naruto.

shisui was helping, in his condition moving around too much wasn't a good idea.

shisui went to the orphanage to see if he could find him and i headed in the direction of the hokage tower hoping to find him.

after running for a while i saw a swaying figure with a hair of dull yellow hair, i picked up speed as he began to fall and caught him before he hit the ground.

lifting him up i froze when i realised shisui was right and he wasn't much heavier than one of the targets, carrying him with his chin on my shoulder i took him home to the uchiha district.