"Sir, you drank too much tonight. I think it's time for you to go home." I told my customer. He's a fifty year old man, bald headed, rich and no different with other men out there...a pervert.

I was only having a chat with him for almost two hours now and he did nothing but tell me his story and drink. He didn't even bother telling my his name. He just said that ever thing is not fine with his wife and they are gonna file a divorce soon. But does it look like I care?

"Go home? I can't go home drunk like this! My wife is gonna kill me. Because she surely know that I went to have fun" he slurred. Gosh, his breath smells awful.

I just let out a fake smile and laugh "Well, sweetie this is your fault in the first place. Just tell her that you drink with your friends."

Then he gives a loud laugh, almost enveloping this side of the club. "She won't believe me 'cause...um...she knows I'm here."

"Oh..." guess I'll be stuck with this old man longer. I turn to look around the club, the band tonight is actually cool. The lead singer is kinda hot I must say. I think they call themselves The Alpha.

Catalina is on the other table, also entertaining a customer but her customer looks better than mine. I mean they are laughing on their table. But mine is a drunk pervy old man.

Jeez, what should I do with this man? I might get fired if I leave him alone. Ms. Dane surely won't like that.

Actually, I am just accepting everything Ms. Dane assigned me to because I've been gone for almost a year, I want to gain their trusts back so I can stay longer in this job. Well, I should really work hard then.

"So, Lilian...what's your plan with your life?" The old man asked.

I let out a laugh "Plan? Well, just flirt with you here the whole night, baby." I flirted with him but of course, I don't have a choice.

"Flirt with me?" A smirk formed from his lips. "You want to flirt with me the whole night."

Shit. "Um...only if you pay me triple." I joked.

"Sure. Then let's get out of here." He starts to stand up making me confused.

"Wait...what?"

"We are getting out of here, Lilian." He smiled, but there is something in his voice that is making me nervous. "One night, darling."

"P-pardon?" My voice croaked. Is he trying to say is...?

"I will pay you triple -no, four times higher that what I paid you this night. Just spend the whole night with me." He slowly trail his fingers on my exposed arm, causing me to shiver...in disgust.

"F-four times?"

He nods his head. "Lets go now, darling. We both know that we don't want to be alone tonight, right?"

Four times higher...that means 300 dollars. Fuck, that's big. He will give me 300 dollars, with that I can finally leave this town.

But in exchange, a night with him.

That's so gross.

I can't sleep with an old man. Especially if this my first time! Give him the virginity that I have been saving my whole life then just give it for money.

But I really need money.

"Fine." I accepted. Shit, is this the right choice?

A wicked smile formed in his face. "I'll just go ready my car, then." He stood up ahead and left the club to go to his car. Quick decision, Belle. You still have time to back out! Are you really ready to give your maiden's name to that man?!

I thought I was gonna loose it to Rafael... guess I was wrong.

Shit. You can do this. For once in your life, have courage!

I took a deep breathe before I head outside. The parking lot where he parked his car is far from the club. When I followed him, my feet are shaking in my stilettos as my steps gets closer. Can I do this? Can I really?

Oh God, help me in this decision.

I saw...the old man, damn I don't even know his name. He stands near his car, waiting for me. He quickly grab me by my hand making me yelp a little. Okay, abort mission, I can't do this.

"Um...where are you gonna take me?" I questioned, my heart is beating too fast.

"Where else? To the nearest hotel that we can find." He suddenly lowered his face near my neck and started kissing me! Oh my, no! No, no! I don't want this. Damn, what have you got yourself into, Belle?! You always make the wrong decision! Shit.

How unlucky.

"I-I think it's better if we just talk. Hang out or...flirt, don't you think, sugar?" I mumbled, trying to push him away but he is holding me too tight. This is so disgusting. God, help me.

"Hm...I don't think so, honey. I don't have time for that. I'm too old to flirt with a whore." He spoke, harshly as his hands starts to roam to my body making me frightened.

"Let me go" I pushed him away. I'm not a whore! I'm not!

"No can do. Too late for that!" He hissed, then in a second he throw me inside of his car and hover above me.

Then I started screaming. "Let go!!! You pervert, fuck you!"

"Don't act so innocent, whore." Then all of a sudden, he slapped me right on my right cheek that stings painfully. Oh no, it's happening all over again! Then I just started screaming my throat out.

"You son of a bitch!" I started to fight but he was too big so my thin figure has no good at all. "Someone help me!"

Oh God, no one is gonna save me. Someone save me, please.

I clenched my eyes and still tried to fight. He was on kissing my cleavage. I can't do this, I really can't.

"Shut up, you whore!" He slaps me once again then all of a sudden, his weight was lift off from me.

"You asshole!" An angry voice spoke as I hear some grunts. With a blurry vision, I sat up to see...oh my God. Knight in shining armor.

"Rafael?" My voice cracked.

Rafael keeps punching his face while my husband nearly broke his face. I can see blood already coming out from his nose and mouth.

Oh my...

"Rafael!" I grab his hand and tried to stop him "Stop this please." I begged, but I didn't have to say it twice. He stopped his punches then turn to face me with a very serious look. His eyes are so cold as they pierce through mine.

"Come now." He took his jacket off first then place it around me then grab my hand to pull me away from this empty parking space and leaving the old man's body lying on the floor.

Rafael was dragging me on the rocky sidewalk, "Slow down, Rafael! Its hard for me to walk on these shoes." I told him, because I am being left behind.

"Damn it." He muttered, then he stopped to lift me up from the ground and put me over his shoulder like what he did before. Urg! I'm gonna kill this man! Why is he making everything so complicated to me?

"Rafael! Put me down!" I started punching his back and started wiggling on his shoulder.

But it seems like Rafael doesn't care as he carry me effortlessly to the streets. Its almost midnight so there are only a few number of people around.

"Where are you taking me?!" I wiggled once again.

"Just shut your mouth, will you?" He mumbled, then I felt him slap my butt! This man!

He did save me from that pervert old man so he can just continue what he is gonna do. Is that his thinking?

He stopped when we reached a nearby abandoned playground. No one is around so it's only me and him.

"Why did you take me here?" I asked, rather arrogant than be thankful that he saved me.

Rafael chuckles huskily, burying his hands inside his pocket. "Well, it's nice to see you too, wife. I'm pleased with your heart warming greeting"

I groaned, rolling my eyes at him "Then I am not pleased with your sarcasm, Mr. Knight."

"Oh are gonna talk formally now, Mrs. Knight?" The boyish teasing smirk formed from his lips. Damn it, I still hold his name, I forgot about that.

I just try my best to ignore his teasing remarks and looked at him, with one hand on my waist. "You know, you should have just dropped me at the club than be here listening to your nonsense nags."

"Seriously, Belle. After I saved your life and this is how you express your gratitude?"

"Saved my pussy not my life, you asshole." I muttered, not wanting him to hear that but unfortunately he did because he laughed.

I got irritated when he even laughed more. Is there something wrong in what I just said? It's true, he is jumping into saving my life but he just saved me from not being raped.

"I'm leaving." I turn away from him to leave but he stopped me.

Jeez, I'm done with these kinds of talk. Over and over.

"Seriously, Rafael. What do you want. How did you even know that I'm leaving with him in the first place?" I questioned, slapping his hand away from mine and stepped back a little.

"You still don't know? Didn't you noticed that I am always watching you. Every time you go to the club, leave the club when your shift ends, the men you escorted to their cars...all of those things...you haven't noticed." His voice was low but full of emotion.

"You did show yourself once to me when I noticed you following me. But those different cars that was outside the club. That was yours?"

"Yes" he answered, taking a deep breath before he talks again. "But you are too busy with those men to notice me."

"How the heck will I notice you? Those cheap cars they you have been using are so not you. And did you even show your face to me even once in two weeks?" I blurted. "No, you didn't because you're a coward."

"Tsk, me a coward?" He narrowed his eyes at me. "Then why not ask yourself? What really are you? I thought having sex is not your thing. Then I will just find out that you agreed a night with that...pervert old millionaire. Are you even thinking right, Belle?"

"Fine, call me a whore! If that is what you think -wait, everyone thinks I'm a whore now. He told me three times. But who cares? I need money! I'm not like you, money is easy for you!"

"You just need money? That's why you are gonna have sex with that old man? Are you that desperate?" His eyes focused into mine, like he is really digging for me to say the truth.

"Desperate if that's what you want to call it. But I don't care anymore. Right now, money is what I need and I will do everything I can to have it." I told him, full of determination in my voice. I want to prove to him that I'm not weak.

I hear him take a deep breath, scratching the back of his head. "You don't have to go that far, Belle. I'm just here. I will give you money before you even ask me. I promised that I am gonna help after marriage, right? Besides, I'm still your husband.

"No."

His eyebrow touched in confusion. "I'm notgonna ask money from you, Rafael. I want to stand on my own feet. I'd rather die."

"But you've already prove that. Just you working in such place just to live yourself and your friend is absolute amazing, Belle and that is what I always like about you." He spoke, avoiding an eye contact with me but his voice is full of sincerity and gentleness.

I was just stunned, making me speechless. But I closed my eyes tightly and took a deep breath before I look at him. "But still not enough. I need to work harder."

"Then I will give you a job that you'll be rich in instant"

I laughed at what he said. "And what kind of job will that be for a woman like me. Rafael, I didn't even finished high school. What do you expect from me?" I raised an eyebrow at him.

Rafael eyed calmly and smiled "You didn't finished school, Belle. But that doesn't mean that you're brainless, wife. You're smart, and I know that"

I snorted. He and his sweet tongue. "You're not gonna fool me again, idiot"

He let out a chuckle. "Who says I'm fooling you?"

I was taken back a little...well, he does look serious but a little cheerful than his usual vibe. Something is really wrong with this man. He's twisted, right?

"I really have to go, Rafael." I sigh coming to my senses, while rubbing my head as I try to walk away. I need to get away from here "Thank you for saving me, Mr. Knight but I have to go back to the club. I-I...I...um...I still have work to do and Catalina is waiting for me." I stuttered, damn I'm not good at lying, am I?

I was gonna escape when suddenly, his hand grab mine and pulled me to him and just wrapped both of his strong arms around me, hugging me tightly.

"R-Rafael...let me go~"

"That's not true, right?" His voice was so husky that is very near my ear. His hugs got even tighter causing my eyes to widen and teary.

Why am I crying?

I know why...

Because I miss him.

I miss him so much.

And love him too much it hurts.

"You just don't want to be with me, alone. Am I right, my wife?" He whispered, making me shiver, his hot breathe hits my skin that can weaken my knees.

Don't do this to me, Rafael. I'm begging you, leave me alone and let my heart rest...just for a little while.

"You're still in love and hurt that's why you can stand being with me again." He loosened his hold on my arm and held both of my arms as he looked at me with his eyes filled with pain.

Pain?

I am just mistaking this. There is no way Rafael would feel hurt at simple things like this. I am nothing to him.

"Do you still love me, Belle?"

My body froze as my mind suddenly went blank at his question. I stared at his mesmerizing hazel brown eyes that is staring deeply back at me. The sensation he is giving me with just a single glance and touch from him can really make my heart burst. I can't stand his looks.

I gather up all of my courage just to look at him in the eyes and raised my chin confidently "What if I still love you, Rafael? What are you gonna do?" I'm glad that my voice didn't shake or stutter but my knees are shaking though.

He lowered his head, probably thinking of what he will say next. He looks uncomfortable and quite hesitating to talk. But Rafael's grip became tighter on his hold on the side of both of my arm. Say it, Rafael. Tell me what you feel. Just tell me you love me too, I am ready to forget everything.

"Come with me."

My eyebrows touched in confusion. What?

" Be with me, Belle. I was assigned by Dad in the Philippines next week. A new branch of The Knight Groups is being built there and Dad trusted me that on that one." He explained, his eyes still not leaving mine as his hands travel to cup my left cheek. "I will took me a year to come back...or so, but I wanted you to be with me. Come with me and I will help you. You don't have to work so hard, just to earn some money. I'm gonna give you without second thoughts, my darling. Please, come with me."

I was crying hard, already. I don't know what to say to him.

Be with me.

Come with me.

Such adorable words that you won't hear usually from Rafael.

My face fall and I removed Rafael's hands on my cheeks. Those are not the words that I wanted to hear.

"So what? I will be your pretend wife again, is that it, Rafael?" I asked, bitterly. "I will suffer myself and pretend that it's okay...that I'm fine with pretending?! Well that's bullshit!" I snapped, pushing him away from me.

Rafael looked shock at my reaction. He must have expect that I will agree at his stinking plan again. Bullshit!

"Belle~"

"~No! Just shut up, okay?!" I shouted at him, "You...you're such a coward, Rafael. You're so afraid to love again and you just let yourself suffer on your own. So what you do is, you shut everyone out! You're a big boy yet you are a coward. Such a shame, you know?" I laughed, sarcastically. "The first billionaire who is a coward to get hurt. Wow, husband! You're so brave!"

I spoke bitterly and full of sarcasm. "You know, Rafael...I just want to hear those three words from you but you are still dumb enough to know and say it." I started to walk again but I stopped then came closer to him because I wanted to do the to him a long time ago.

I slapped him.

Very hard.

But it made me release some thing heavy in my chest.

"Leave me alone, Rafael. I hate you" I told him before leaving him at the abandoned playground then I just run, even if these shoes are killing me. But the pain in my heart is more painful.

"I won't give up on us, Belle." I heard him shout but I just ignored it.

Won't give up. Tsk, I'm gonna kill him

I just run and run. I don't give a damn anymore if my shoes gets broken and in don't have anymore to wear. I just don't care!

To be honest, also don't care that I look like an idiot running on the sidewalks crying with my make up surely is ruined from the tears. Damn.

But when I reached the club, I just dropped on the cold floor and cry.

I just feel so stupid right now. I don't know if rejecting him is a good decision but this is the only way how I will save my heart again. Like I said earlier, I want to rest my heart this time. Just for a little while.

But he will leave me soon.

He will be gone and I will not see him again.

God, why does everything in my life so difficult? Why am I feeling such pain in my heart but all I did is love? I just love like normal people do. Is there something wrong with that?

Maybe...maybe it is simply that I don't deserve him. Or I don't deserve love at all.

Love is so weird.

But this is a wake up call.

Telling me that love is not for a person like me.

Not for a person like Rafael too.

But now, I really learned my lesson. I should not trust on love anymore. I don't need it in my life anymore.