I couldn't believe it.

He had flown all the way here?

Alone?

I quickly got up, running over and pulling him into a tight hug, feeling my heart jump as he squeezed me tighter, his hand moving to the back of my head, his fingers gently tangling themselves in my hair. Peeking over his shoulder, I saw that it really was just him.

"What are you doing here?" I asked, moving away, but still clinging onto his shirt. He gently caressed my face, staring back at me with those dazed eyes and soft smile.

"I didn't want you to have to do this alone again." He said softly. I still couldn't believe it. I couldn't believe that he was here. I hugged him again, hiding my face in his neck as I felt his fingers lightly grazing up and down my back. He smelt like I always remembered, freshly showered, so crisp and clean and.. just like home.

"You must be Josh." I heard from behind me, my aunt getting up and making her way over. I carefully moved away, slowly sliding my hand into his as he reached out his other one for her.

"Yeah, hi." He said cheerfully. "Nice to meet you."

"I've heard so much about you." She said, smirking over at me. I avoided her eyes, leaning my head back onto his shoulder as I heard him giggle to himself.

"All good things, I hope."

"Very, very good things." She said, shaking his hand.

"We're.. just gonna go outside for a minute." I said, subtly pulling him towards the door. She nodded, motioning away as he closely followed me out.

"What are you doing here?" I asked again, still not able to grasp that he was standing in front of me. I leaned back up against the building, staring back up at him as he glowed so beautifully under the lights. His smile grew as he shrugged, reaching back for my hand. I let him, intertwining our fingers as I pulled him closer.

"I just.. I needed to be with you.. just in case anything happened. I.. I know how you get and.. I know you had her here with you but.. I just.. I wanted to take care of you."

"But.. what about the show?" He shrugged, holding his stare on me.

"The show went fine, and I left right after we finished." I bit down on my lip, trying my hardest to resit asking what was eating me alive, but I just couldn't anymore.

"Jake didn't want to come with you?" I asked. His face dropped. I shook my head, looking away, not even wanting to hear what excuse he might've made.

"N-no, it's okay, I.. I don't want to know." I sighed. "You.. you're more than enough." His smile grew as he looked down at his feet, his cheeks burning red.

"When do you have to leave?" I asked.

"In a few hours." He groaned, playfully rolling his eyes. "I also didn't want you having to fly back alone, if.. if you even wanted to come back. If you felt comfortable." I couldn't help but smile, feeling tears come to my eyes.

I think he was one of the only people who's only ever made me cry happy tears.

"If she's doing okay by morning.." I said, still unsure. "I.. I want to come back with you." He nodded, now gently rubbing his thumb across the top of my hand. His touch, so gentle, but one of the most loving things I've ever felt, no matter how soft, how casual. I felt all of him every time he touched me.

"You're probably exhausted."

"It's okay." He lied, forcing a smile. "I.. I slept a little on the plane." I could tell from his eyes he hadn't had a good nights sleep in days.

"No you didn't." I said, pulling him back into another hug, leaning my head against his chest, the sound of his gentle heart beating lightly echoing in my ear, his quiet laughter slowly becoming my favorite song.

"You should sleep." I whispered, slowly running my fingers up the back of his shirt, feeling him shiver as my cold hands glided across his warm skin.

"I'm okay." He said. I shook my head, peeking back up at him.

"Come back home with me." I said. He nodded, understanding that it wasn't a question.

"How did you get here?" I asked, looking around.

"I got dropped off at my house and then took my car."

"Okay.. wait here. I'm.. I'm gonna tell her we're gonna head home." I said, hesitating for a moment before leaning in, gently kissing his cheek. His eyes instantly lit up, nodding as he looked down, shyly avoiding my eyes.

When I went back inside, I could see my aunt already looking over at me, her head propped up onto her hand, flashing me a tired smile.

"Hey, um.. we're gonna-"

"Go ahead." She said simply. "I'll wait here for her. You guys head home." I bit down on my lip, trying to contain my smile.

"I'll come back in the morning, he's gotta leave tomorrow so.."

"Are you gonna go with him?" I felt my face get hot, still unsure of how to respond.

"She's gonna be okay, Jaime." She finally said. "And.. if it means you not having to travel alone then.. I think you should go with him."

"Only if.. she's okay. I'll.. I'll see tomorrow."

"Okay. Now go get some sleep." I nodded, leaning in and hugging her tight before quickly making my way back out into the parking lot.

"Everything okay?" Josh asked, pushing himself back up from against the building. I nodded, reaching out and taking his hand, leaning my head on his shoulder. He lead us to his car, opening the passenger side door for me. I smiled back up at him as he carefully shut it behind me, quickly making his way around, hopping into the driver's seat. I waited until he pulled out of the parking lot before reaching over for his hand.

"You know what you did is crazy, right?" I giggled, peeking over at him. His smile grew into a satisfied grin as he kept his eyes forward, subtly nodding and slowly intertwining our fingers again.

"I do." He sighed. "But.. I would do anything for you."

I couldn't take my eyes off of him the entire way home, him only peeking over every so often, giving me a smirk before looking back at the road. No one had ever done anything like this for me before. I still couldn't believe it.

But at the same time.. I could.

Because it was him.

It had always been him.

And.. I had just been too blind to see it.

He then pulled up to my house, staying silent for a moment after turning off the car, as if waiting for me to say something first.

"I want you to stay with me." I finally said, feeling my face get hot.

"I was hoping you would." He said, then getting out and making his way over to my side, opening my door for me again. He held out his hand for me, helping me out of the car and following my lead as I led us up the front steps.

"You can help yourself to whatever you want, if you're hungry or anything, and then I'll meet you upstairs. I just.. I need to call him." I said. He nodded, giving me a gentle smile as he went inside, closing the door behind him. I waited a minute for him to be far enough away before finally pressing call.

"There you are." I heard Jake sigh. "You've had me worried sick."

"I'm sorry, I just got home now. How was the show?"

"Oh, it was great, how's everything with your mom?" He asked. I bit down on my lip, hesitating for a moment, just feeling weird about this whole thing. He was so calm, so casual.. meanwhile his brother had gotten on a plane as soon as he got off stage and.. that wasn't the first thing he brought up?

"She's fine." I said simply. "Hey, um.. Josh is here." He was quiet.

"Y-yeah, he.. he left right after the show." He said, his voice instantly becoming more serious.

"Did he.. tell you this was where he was going?" I asked. Maybe Josh had just.. decided it on his own. Maybe Jake didn't even know. I couldn't be too upset..

"Mhm.." He finally said. I sighed. So much for that.

"And.. you're still there?" He was quiet again.

"Jaime, we.. we have another show tomorrow." I nodded, feeling tears fill my eyes. "That's.. insane."

"You're right.. it is insane, but.. he still did it for me." His silence was excruciating.

"Jaime, are.. are you seriously mad at me?" I know how ridiculous it sounded, I did, but when Josh was here, he made everything seem a little less ridiculous, and like.. maybe I wasn't asking for too much at all. Not when someone showed me how much they were willing to do for me.

"Yes, I am." I said plainly. I hated fighting with him. All I wanted was for things to be the way they were in the beginning but.. they just couldn't be anymore.

"Jaime, I don't want to fight with you, not when you're upset. Let's just.. talk in the morning, and then we can figure this out."

"What is there to figure out? He decided to come and you didn't. What else to it is there?"

"It's not that simple."

"It is though!" I snapped, now feeling my heart racing. "Because he did it! He didn't think twice about it! He knew I needed him, and so he made sure he was here! It's as simple as that! He decided to and you didn't!"

"You knew what it meant for me to be on tour, I can't just-"

"But he can?"

"Jaime, stop!"

"No! You made your choice and he made his, and.. that's okay, but.. I guess it just.. helped me see things a little more clearly." He was quiet again, longer than usual.

"And what's that supposed to mean?" He said, his voice quiet, almost chilling. I stopped, suddenly regretting saying anything at all. I didn't want to fight with him, all I wanted was for him to be here.

"N-nothing. I'm sorry, I just-"

"No, you meant something by it, so.. what is it? What do you see more clearly now?" More tears filled my eyes, not wanting to have this conversation but.. maybe it was time we finally did.

"Jake, I love him." I whispered, wiping my eyes.

"I know you love him, but.. Jaime, you said-"

"I love you too, I do, but.. with him it's just.. it's different. It's always been different."

"Jaime, are you seriously breaking up with me over the phone right now?" He snapped.

Was I?

I still wasn't sure what I was doing.

I just knew that Josh was upstairs waiting for me.

And all I wanted to do was get back to him.

"Jake, I-"

"I can't believe this." He said. "So.. what? He shows up on your doorstep and you make a quick call to me just so you can have a clear conscious when you decide to sleep with him? Cause that's what you're doing, isn't it? So you can technically say you didn't cheat on me?"

"Jake, no.. of course not, that's.. that's not-"

"You know what, if that's what you want, Jaime.. then fine. Go ahead. Go fuck him again and see if I care. I've done nothing but give my all to you. I have never been this open with anyone before and what did it get me? Nothing! I trusted you and.. this is what you do? After everything we've been through.. after everything you've ever said to me.. and this is what you're gonna do?"

I had to take a minute, wiping my face again, now trying to catch my breath between my cries.

"You have no idea how hard this is for me to do." I muttered. "But.. I just think.. that it's right."

"I just don't understand where this is coming from. I thought.. everything was fine."

"Then why didn't you fly back with him, Jake?"

"Seriously, Jaime?"

"Yes. Why did he come to see me, and you didn't."

"You want me to hop on a fucking plane now? Then fine! I'll do it! I'll do that for you if that's what it takes then fine!"

"Jake, that's not the point and you know it."

"Because I'm on tour Jaime, you know how much this means to me, and.. to even ask that of me-"

"That's the thing. I.. I didn't ask. He just did it. Because he wanted to. Because it was important to him. I'm not mad at you for putting your dreams before me, I think.. deep down I always knew it would come to this.. and maybe I accepted that already but.. he's loved me through everything."

And then there was silence again. I thought I was going to be sick. I couldn't believe this was happening, shouting at each other like this, I never thought this would happen, never in my life did I think he would ever yell at me like this.

"Jaime.." I finally heard, his voice now soft and sad, trying his hardest to keep it from cracking. This only made it that much harder to stop crying, knowing how hard he was trying not to.

"Yeah?"

"Please don't do this." He pleaded. "I.. I'm begging you. Please. I'm sorry. I mean it. I should've came with him. You're right. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Jaime, I.. I can't lose you. Not after how long it finally took us.." He stopped, trying his best to calm down. "Please.. can we just talk about this in the morning. I promise, I'll make it better."

"How?"

"I.. I don't know, but I will. I'll figure it out. I swear." I bit down on my lip, looking back up at my window to see the light now on. My heart beating faster at the thought of Josh making himself comfortable in my room, and how badly I just wanted to join him.

"Fine." I sighed. "We can talk tomorrow."

"Am I still yours?" He asked, and I felt my heart drop.

"Yes." I finally whispered.

"Forever?" I felt more tears come to my eyes.

"We'll talk tomorrow."

"I love you, Jaime."

"I love you, Jake."

And then I hung up, turning off my phone and quickly made my way upstairs.