I walked into my apartment

I pulled off my jacket and lighted a cigarette

I sighed looking at my phone

No messages

I knew i was denying that i was fancying van but i wanted him to say goodbye since he was leaving in a few hours.

I got up and poured myself a glass of wine looking outside.

A few hours later van still didn't call or visit me

I was kinda upset about it

I went to bed but heard a door open

"Hello?" I said "it's me mate" i heard Becky say

I sighed actually hoping it was van

"In the bedroom" I said turning around in my bed "you okay?" She asked looking at me

"Yeah why wouldn't i be okay?" I asked

"You look fucked"

I sighed "it's nothing honestly" I said

"You are lying" she said "it's nothing" I said again she studied my face and nodded

"It's about van isn't it?" she asked me sitting down "no" I whispered

"You are such a terrible lair" she chuckled

"I'm not lying"

"Mate, i know you two kissed and he took you outside last night at the bar"

"So?"

"You like him."

I woke up late, too late for work

I must of forgot to set the alarm

I turned around seeing Becky sitting up in bed on her phone

"I woke up in the middle of the night hearing footsteps, was that you?" i asked she nodded "Bob called me" she said in a morning voice

I frowned "did he visit you though?" I asked

"Yeah yesterday before i came here we went for dinner"

I turned around facing the wall

I stood up and grabbed my oversized t-shirt

"You wanna go out today?" I asked her

She nodded

I sat in this new bar with Becky

"You okay?" She asked

"Yeah why?" I asked looking at her

"You don't look okay" she whispered

I sighed "didn't sleep very well" i lied, well it was the truth but not the main reason

She nodded "when are they coming back?" I asked her "who?" She said handing me a glass

of wine "Bob and that" i whispered

She licked her lips and studied my face

"It is about van, isn't it Lexi?" She asked me

I sighed finally giving in "it is" I said

"You do fancy him don't you?"

I looked at her

"Yeah i do, but it's whatever right" i said

She shook her head

"No mate, it's not whatever it's sweet, seeing you having feelings for someone again and that" she said smiling i knitted my eyebrows together looking at her "no? It isn't is it? It's not sweet it fucking it fucking terrifies me how i fancy him, i met the guy three or four days ago becky, and he didn't even say goodbye, we kissed didn't we?" I said looking at her

"Right, he should've said goodbye, they aren't coming back soon by the way" she said

I shook my head "twat" I said under my breath

"Van?"

"Van yeah"

"They are coming back on nine December" she said, my facial expression changed "but that's not so long i mean-" I started "December 2016" she whispered with a weak expression

That's a fucking year.

I stood up "where ya going?" She asked

"Home, i have work in the morning"

"You always say that"

"Well it's the truth innit?"

I walked home on my high red heels

"Oi oi" i heard behind me i turned around

"Ah Collin haven't seen you in a while" i said sign pure sarcastic "you okay?" He asked

"Of course i am!" I said laughing

"You don't seem like okay" he said with a nervous unsure chuckle

I studied his face "you fancy drinking a beer at mine?" I asked "sure, class" he said with a grin laying on his lips

We walked into my apartment as we arrived there and walked into the kitchen

"That black jumpsuit looks amazing on ya" he whispered looking at me

I grabbed two bottles of beer and handed him one "cheers" I whispered lighting a cigarette

"How are you and rockstar, first you leave me alone when i was having a class night with ya and then you don't even show up at work" he said with a smirk on his face

I took a drag of my ciggy and nodded

"We talked outside of the bar and i forgot to set the alarm last night" i said he nodded

I looked at my beer and then at him

"You look very attractive tonight Collin" I whispered smiling up at him

It wasn't myself who was talking

"Oh?" He said with a cheek smile on his face

I nodded "yeah you do" I whispered leaning in

"So do you darling" he whispered leaning in as well "can you do me a favor?" I asked he nodded "can you kiss me?"

"You didn't fucking pick your phone up, you didn't even open the fucking door" Becky said talking on the phone with me

"I'm sorry i was asleep" I lied

"Sure you were asleep" she chuckled not believing me "listen, i can explain don't get angry on me, can you visit me tonight?" I asked she sighed "sure I'll be there" she whispered

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"Honestly it's okay Lexi, just don't fall into your old habits again yeah?" She whispered

"Old habits?" I asked

"Drug, alcohol, guys" she whispered

I sighed "you know I'm not like that anymore" I said looking at her with blank expression

"Yeah i know" she whispered

"Becky can you do me a favor?"

"Yes mate what is it?"

"Can you stay the night?" I asked

She nodded

"Of course i can" she whispered hugging me

I had a shit night, Bob kept calling her and van, he didn't even send a message

"Can we go to bed now, I'm exhausted" I yawned she nodded "yeah course, i just gotta take this yeah?" She said i nodded grabbing my phone walking into my bedroom

I looked at my phone ones i lay in my bed

I didn't even have him number, but he had mine.

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Thanks for reading this shitty chapter, it gets better though, i promise x