"I'm going to hit a pub with Kathleen tonight" van said looking at us

It was pissing me off.

He met a girl who is now out merch girl.

He is flirting around with her and that.

Of course van didn't know i fancied him but still.

"Have a good one lad" Bob said

"You wanna have a few drinks tonight?" Bondy asked me sitting next to me

I looked at him "sure" i whispered standing up

Bondy was a good mate, everyone thought we were a thing nowadays.

I stood up, bondy offered his hand

I chuckled and took to smiling at him

We walked towards a local pub and got in

"What do you want, lass?" Bondy asked me

"I would like a red wine please" I said sitting down "can i have one red wine and a beer please?" He asked

I looked around

"So, you like tour so far?" Bondy asked me

I nodded "it's amazing really, me and Bob explored London yesterday" i said with a nod

"Yeah me and van had an interview yesterday, I like it though, it's the best talking about music and people that are interested and that" he said smiling "that's great, i wanted to be a rock star when i was younger" i chuckled

He's eyes grew wide "were you any good then?" He asked i shook my head "I just wanted to play gigs and that" i whispered smiling

"It's the best really" he said

"So what's going?" He asked

"What do you mean bond?" I asked taking a sip of my wine

"Between you and van" he said

I shook my head "nothing honestly" i chuckled

He raised an eyebrow

"His fancying the Kathleen girl right?" I asked he shook his head "she's just a mate, he fancies you" bondy said i laughed softly lighting another ciggy "what makes you think that?" I asked him

"We all see the way he looks at you, Lexi"

I sighed and shook my head

- 3 weeks later

"Goodnight, love" van said looking at Kathleen

She smiled and walked out of the tour bus

I sat in the rest room smoking a cigarette

He sat down opposite me

I looked at him

He looked at me

There was a long silence before i spoke up

"You two look cute" i lied

"We aren't together" he said

I finished my ciggy

"Why?" He asked

I knitted my eyebrows together

"Just, no reason" i said looking at him

"Lexi?" He asked

"Yes?"

"Why?" He asked again

"Why what?"

"Why have you been ignoring me?"

"Cause i don't feel the need to talk to you"

"Everything was good a year-" he started

"A fucking year ago when you told me you fancied me and just disappeared for a year!" I said raising my voice

"I was on tour, Bob and Becky never had problems" he said

"Yeah that's cause Bob called her afterwards" i whispered looking at him

"You told me you didn't fancy me and told me to go away" he said

I sighed "you know what van? Never mind alright, pretend this never happened-" I started and stood up

"No fuck that, i don't want to pretend anymore" he said standing up

I knitted my eyebrows together again

"What are you talking ab-"

"No fuck off!" Becky yelled walking into the room "Becky mate, what's going on-"

"We are going home, Lexi" she said with tears in her eyes

"We are?" I asked confused

"Becky don't leave" Bob sighed walking in

"You screwed up you" she said looking at him

I looked at them awkwardly and walked to the lounge room where my stuff was "where are you going?" Bondy asked as i grabbed all my stuff together "home i suppose" i whispered

"You what mate?" He said "Bob and Becky...they kinda- I think they had a fallout and now we're going home" i said

"Are they nuts? Can't lose me mate 'ere" he sighed standing up i smiled at him

"I'm so confused honestly but I'll miss you that's for sure" i sighed hugging him

He nodded kissing my cheek "I'll miss you more" he whispered

We pulled away eventually when van walked in

"I'm sorry i didn't mean to- becky's waiting she said" he told us looking at me

I grabbed my two bags and walked out of the door walking past van

"I'll phone you" I said to bondy he nodded with a weak smile "take care, love" he whispered

I walked out of the bus without saying goodbye to any of the other lads

I was kinda upset about that

I saw Bob standing outside with Becky

She was obviously mad you could tell

"Take care, Bob" I said with a half smile being completely confused about what was happening "I'm sorry for everything have a safe trip back" he whispered with a weak smile

I nodded walking away from the bus

"What's going on?" I asked Becky

We walked towards a taxi

"Me and Bob broke up."

"That's it? No explanation?"

"Well obviously"

"Obviously? I fucking quit working to go on a fucking tour for you with absolutely non of my friends and no money!" I yelled being obviously angry at her

"Non of my friends? You and bondy, and Larry, and van-" she started

"Just shut it ,okay?" I said

I stepped into a different taxi as her

Luckily we were close to home.

I sighed as i walked into my apartment

Becky's brother probably didn't even know where she was.

I sighed lighting a cigarette

Yes i stopped but i guess I was starting again

I shook my head putting my jacket off

Van.

Van was on my mind the whole time

I called bondy "hello, love" he said

"I'm home" I whispered "you alright, lass?" He asked i closed my eyes "no, no I'm not" i whispered "what's wrong?" He asked

"I'm not sure if I'm ready to talk about it, I- I'll call you later yeah?" I asked "sure, love of of course, take care" he said "cheers, bondy" I whispered hanging up

I sat down with my eyes closed

What the fuck was i supposed to do now?

I had no Job

No best mate

No money

No one.

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