"Tell me Pooja do you hating me or love me" Rishi asked me our faces was close to each other his breath was falling on my face.

I am loving you.........

"What are you talking Rishi" I asked him "I am asking that are you loving me or hating me" he asked me stressing each word.

"I love you Rishi" I said his grip on me loosened "because I can't hate you, I may say hating you jokingly but truth is how can I hate you" I asked him.

"Do you think I can survive without you a minute" I asked him "I know sometimes I may irritate you but I always wanted your happiness" I said.

"As a best friend I love you" I said tears formed in my eyes I am holding it back.

"Then why did you say 'I hate you' ha?" He asked me i rolled my eyes "I told you right I am joking" I said.

"I can take all your anger but I can't bear your hating" he said cupping my cheek with one hand.

We both lost in staring at each other didn't realise our closeness we hear Rishi phone ring.

Immediately I pulled myself back from him he take out his phone when he saw caller ID his eyes showed disappointment.

"Hello suji" he said lifting the call tears formed in my eyes I turn away from him and walked away to car.

I can't bear your hating Pooja!

I don't know why I am feeling completed when I am with you!

I don't know why I am feeling happy when we are acting like married couple!!

I don't know why I loved holding close to me!

I don't know why I am being sad when you move away from me!

What is happening to me?

In all of these days I am only thinking about only you when you are with me I think about you when you are away from I still thinking about you!

I didn't even get thought about suji don't know why?

"Hello Rishi, are you there" I hear suji voice I brought back from my thoughts.

I saw Pooja was going to car "yes" I said over phone "I am here" she said I didn't hear what she was saying I am only looking at Pooja.

"when are you coming" suji asked me "what" I asked her "didn't you hear what i told" she asked me.

I rubbed my temples "I said i am in Kerala with Sri, when are you coming" she asked me all my disappointment came back to me when I hear suji is here.

"What are you doing here" I asked her "what! I came because sri and raj invited me, do you want me to go away" she asked me with sad voice.

Damn it!! Why I am behaving with suji like this!!!

"I mean you didn't told me about this right" i asked her "you didn't even lift my calls since you went to Kerala" she said.

Yes I didn't accept her calls I was busy in showing Kerala to Pooja that I didn't even realise I am ignoring suji!!!

"Sorry I was busy with preparations etc" I said walking towards car where pooja was waiting for me.

"Come home we will talk" she said "I love you" she said today today I felt nothing hearing these words.

"Bye" she cut the call I sat on passenger seat Pooja started driving car.

In whole driving Pooja didn't said anything to me just keep looking at road and driving.

She stopped car at home and got down I also got down "go and take rest" she said to me while taking out medicines from car back seat.

I held her hand she was avoiding eye contact with me "why are you avoiding looking into my eyes" I asked her she turn her head away.

"I am asking you something Pooja" I asked her sternly "it's nothing Rishi" she said and freed herself and went inside.

I groaned and followed her inside she stopped in her tracks outside itself looking inside.

I confused and looked inside saw suji was talking with Sri and raj.

I totally forget about her again!!

I find myself hurt when Pooja didn't talk with me a minute!!!!

Pooja retain herself and went inside smiling at suji. They both hugged each other but suji wasn't have happy face.

"When did you came" Pooja asked suji "I came in morning" suji said and looked at me.

But my eyes were on Pooja who is avoiding me "Rishi take her to her room" sri said to me but my eyes were only on Pooja she wasn't even looking at me.

I don't know what happen to her and I don't understand what did I do that she wasn't even looking into me.

"Rishi" raj shook me I looked at me "take suji to her room" raj said I nodded and walk with suji.

After we are in suji room she came and hugged me tightly but my hands are not hugging her back.

"I missed you so much" she said and lift her head from my chest "do you know how much I fight with my dad for coming here" she said and move closer to me.

I was feeling suffocating suddenly suji held my cheeks and try to kiss me but I pushed her away.

She looked at me shockingly "what is this suji" i asked her angrily "what happen Rishi" she asked me tears are formed in her eyes.

"Why did you push me when I was kissing you" she asked me i shook my head "you know that I don't like it" I said angrily.

"But we are lovers right these things are common" she said "but I don't like these things" I yelled at her.

"And you know about this and behave like this" I yelled at her "loving is not about touching and kissing it's about feeling each other presence in their absence moreover it has to be both sides that's why i never kissed you and I didn't feel like to initiate" I yelled at her.

I left that room and walked outside angrily in hallway I saw Pooja was coming this way probably going to her room.

She saw me but lowered her head and walking past me I held her arm and dragged her to her room and closed door.

"Rishi what are you doing" she yelled at me I held her arms but she was pushing me.

I pushed her to wall and caged her between me and wall "why are you avoiding me" i asked her angrily "I am not" she said struggling to get out from my grip.

"Don't lie, you are not even looking into my eyes" I said she raised her head "I am" she said.

"Oh god stop struggling" I groaned she looked at me with teary eyes "what happen" I asked her "you are hurting me" she said.

I loosened my grip on her she take deep breaths "I need to go" she said not looking into my eyes.

"Why" I asked her caressing her cheeks she looked at me with her beautiful eyes.

We didn't said anything I felt relaxed after she looked at me and become normal with me.

"Rishi leave me" she said suddenly "what" I asked her not understanding she pushed me lightly.

"Rishi leave" she said sternly freeing herself from me. "Go" she said I didn't understand.

"I need to talk with someone Rishi" she said "who" i asked her "Vivek" she said i got angry when she mentioned his name.

"Why" i asked her angrily "why it is matter to you" she asked me i fisted my hands and left that room.

I didn't understand why I am behaving like this!!!!

What happen to me!!!!!