I sat on the kitchen island as I ate my toast quietly. Kyle picked up his phone and began playing a few games while we sat there in silence.

Sometimes, it was the silent moments where everything felt realistic and normal. It was as if nothing had to be said or even heard of, things just fell in to place there and it gave you chance to really take in what is happening.

But suddenly, our silence was rudely interrupted by a hung over and almost sullen looking Matthew.

"Morning," he croaked out. Kyle put down his phone loudly.

"Matthew!" He replied loudly as he got up to clap his back. "How are you pal?" Matt grimaced as he laid his hands to his head.

"Be quiet," his eyes squinted and he waved him away. I laughed behind my toast quietly.

"What's the matter?" Kyle asked as he tried to suppress his smile. The wind up.

"You know what's the matter, now please get out of my grill," Matt waved a hand in front of his face before Kyle chuckled and moved away to give him the peace he needed.

Kyle came to sit beside me on one of the kitchen stools and Matt made his way to the fridge.

"So, when's the honeymoon?" Matt asked as he poured some milk into a glass which was already on the side.

Beside me, Kyle moved in his chair.

"Ah," was all he replied. "There's actually a problem with that," he looked almost sheepish as he looked to me.

"What?"

"It was hard to get anywhere this time of year even for the honey moon suite things," Kyle waved his hand slightly. "I couldn't get us a room after, I spent most of my time worrying about the house rather than the honeymoon," Kyle looked to me and his eyes were screaming guilt.

I looked to him but shrugged my shoulders slowly in reply.

"It's okay, I'm not feeling up to it at the moment anyway, we'll sort something out," I smiled to him as reassurance before taking another bite of my toast. I gulped it down. "Besides, we don't need a honey moon just yet, we have forever for a honey moon, doesn't have to be traditional and after the wedding, let's just take one step at a time," Kyle smiled in reply but I could still see the look on his face. That look of guilt and sadness.

"I just want to please you,"

"Believe me, you please me enough," I took hold of his hand softly. Before I could get another word in, Matt got there first.

"Did I hear the word 'house' in between all this love stuff?" He asked. I looked to him and nodded my head enthusiastically. "Wow, a house? Where?"

"Not too far away," I stated quickly. "I'm not leaving you, Matty, don't worry," I reached over to pinch his cheek before sitting back down.

"Good," he nodded his head as he smiled my way. "I'd have to force you to stay otherwise, and we all now you'd stay with me rather than him," Matt pointed to Kyle sharply.

"You're quite mistaken, Matthew, my girl wouldn't leave me," Kyle stated back. Matt smirked but nothing more was said.

"So do you want to go out today?" Matt asked as the silence descended upon us again.

"Cali's not well today," Kyle stated as his thumb smoothed the skin of my palm. Matt looked to me worriedly.

"What's the matter? You don't look ill,"

"She was being sick earlier," Kyle replied. Matt looked to me again.

"Really?" He asked. I nodded in reply. He made his way over to me to check my temperature. He laid his hand upon my forehead. He frowned slightly. "Can I just have a word?" Matt turned to Kyle.

Kyle looked towards us with apprehension and curiosity etched upon his face.

"Why?"

"I just want to have a word with Cali," he stated. Kyle still wouldn't budge still. "About girl things," he kept stating as if Kyle was stupid.

"You're not a girl," Kyle stated as he looked to him with narrowed eyes.

"I like cock, now go," Matt shooed him away with his hands and with a large sigh Kyle sulkily made his way out of the room.

Matt turned to me and looked at him with my brow arched.

"What's that about?" Matt sat down on the chair beside me, just where Kyle was sat.

"I think I know why you're sick," he stated. I looked to him.

"Do I want to know?" There was a nervousness in my stomach and I didn't really know why.

"Most probably not, but I'm going to have to ask you a few questions anyway,"

"Um-"

"Have you and Kyle been using protection?" Matt asked as he cut my words off.

"Matt!" I spluttered. My heart began racing. Shit, I couldn't be thinking what he was thinking.

"Well have you?"

"Yes...I mean, I think so." I looked to him worriedly. Crap, crap, double crap. Protection wasn't really on the top of our list most of the time. Sometimes the passion just took our minds away.

"You haven't have you?" I shook my head in reply.

"Look, I'm not pregnant if that's what you're thinking. I can't be, I would know wouldn't I?" I'm sure I've seen it in films, the women usually know don't they?

"Not usually, especially when it's your first time," Matt shrugged. "You'll need to get a test just to make sure," I laid my head in my hands and groaned.

"I can't be pregnant, I just can't be," I whined. "It's not true," I didn't know if I was ready for that. I was still young. I was married and now there was a possibility I was pregnant too. Wasn't this just all too soon? I was still a teenager.

"Just do it to make sure, that's all I'm asking, baby girl," he laid his had on my shoulder.

"I'm scared now," I looked to him. His eyes looked down to mine but surprisingly he didn't seem worried.

"Listen to me, you don't need to be, if it's true then that kids got uncle Matty, it's got you and Kyle," he stated.

"No I'm scared because I'm young and what if Kyle doesn't want it?"

"Don't worry about that, Cali, stop being silly. This will be the best thing to ever happen to you two-"

"If I am pregnant," I pinched the bridge of my nose.

"If you are pregnant," Matt stated as he sighed. He smiled my way. "Just get a test, okay?"

"Okay," I let out a breath as I nodded. I was going to have to get a test, there was nothing else I could do.

My heart was still racing. I was totally out of my depth and I was totally out of control. My nerves just wouldn't stop, they couldn't.

What was Kyle going to say? What was he going to think? He couldn't say much, though, he didn't pressure us to use protection either. I should have took the pills I had, but it completely didn't come to my head. Why was I so careless?

Just as we finished talking, Kyle came barging into the kitchen.

"I'm back and I'm not leaving again, Matt your time is up," he pointed to him and Matt just smiled.

Afterall, Matt knew he was one above Kyle at the moment anyway. Matt knew there could be a possible baby in my stomach whereas Kyle was clueless. Matt needn't say no more.

Fuck. A baby? Could I really look after a baby? I'm sure I was near to freaking out.

Matt left the kitchen as his eyes found mine. He took his glass and I looked to him with panic. He didn't say anything before the door was shut behind him.

"What's the matter?" I looked to Kyle quickly. I wasn't any good at lying.

"Nothing," I replied. "Nothing at all," I smiled his way but I couldn't stop the feeling in my stomach.

"Okay," he looked unsure but he didn't press it any further.

We sat there in silence again. I couldn't stand it now, my mind was packed with too many things.

I got up from the chair and made my way to the sink.

Why were we such careless fools? Careless careless careless. I was already beating myself up about it and I didn't even know for sure yet. I was too scared to become a mum! I hoped to God I wasn't pregnant. Not yet.

I grabbed the bowl and a glass from the side and began washing them thoroughly. My mind was just else where, I knew I was doing a shit job.

"What did Matt say?" Kyle asked. I could feel his eyes on my body, I still got the prickling skin and the goosebumps now.

"Nothing," I replied distractedly. I couldn't force myself to say anything more. I was almost freaking out.

"Are you sure you're okay?" Kyle asked. I could hear him make his way over to my body and the next thing I knew I felt his arm come over my waist.

I hated this lying. But I couldn't tell him until I knew for sure.

"Is it because of the honey moon thing? If it is I'm sorry and I'll get something booked as soon as I can," he said into my ear quietly. I shook my head.

"No, it's not that I promise, I just don't feel too well," I lied through my teeth; almost, anyway. I wasn't feeling too well, but I missed out the part that a baby could be growing inside.

Oh god even the thought got me frightened to death. How was I going to cope?

"Want to go back to bed?" Kyle kissed my cheek. I shook my head.

"No, I need to go out," I stated as I leaned over to grab a towel from the side. I began drying my hands. Kyle still had me tucked under his arm.

"Oh?"

"Yeah, I need to get some... New conditioner?" I sounded unsure even to myself.

"You say that as if you're unsure, are you hiding something from me?" My eyes widened and my heart started beating. Shit. I knew I couldn't get anything passed him.

"Yes, I'm on my period, okay? I need things," it came out of the blue and as soon as it was out I almost wanted to slap myself, yet applaud myself for being so quick.

"You could have just said, baby, we're married now, you can tell me that and I won't judge, Christ my mother went on about her 'time of month' like every month and even in between," Kyle stated with added humour to his voice. I knew it wasn't aimed at me, but his mother instead.

I let out a breath of relief. At least he believed that.

"I know, just a tad bit embarrassing though isn't it," I let out a nervous laugh as I pulled away from Kyle. I gave him a quick peck to the lips.

"Are you going now?" I nodded my head.

"I won't be too long,"

"I hope you won't," Kyle gave me another peck to the lips but harder this time. I smiled his way before leaving and going to the living room.

Matt was slumped on the sofa as he watched tele. His feet were on the table and his head was in only one of his hands.

I went over to him and pulled him up from the sofa.

"What are you doing?" He asked as he looked almost bewildered.

"We need to get that test," I whispered in his ear.

"Thank God!" Matt let out. "Let's see if you've made me an uncle," without another thought, Matt pulled me out to the car.

I was already regretting my decision. Oh fuck.

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