I used to like being alone

Alone in my room

Alone in my bed

Alone in my head

But while alone was once wonderful

It feels so empty in my room

Empty in my bed

But much too full in my head

Sometimes my thoughts just will not stop

I wonder if other people feel the same way

All day I am thinking

When I am alone

When I am alone in a room of people

When I am alone with myself

By myself

Do you think about me when you are alone

Alone in your room

Alone in your bed

Alone in your head

I think about you when I am alone

I do not like it

I hate it more than I can express

Even when I love you

Even with the few thoughts I have that are not thorns in my sides

I liked being alone

Thinking about anything else but you

Who am I by myself

Who was I when I was truly alone

Who am I now

Now that I can be defined as yours

Why does being

His sister

Their daughter

Their friend

Feel so much different

Than your girlfriend

Alone

I want to be alone

But I do not want to be alone

Because I love you

And that is why I am alone

I try to deal with it alone

Madeleine