I can't stop myself from thinking about last night that I'm with Khaira. I don't know how to comfort her at that time. So I hugged her without thinking that she could be mad at me. And I'm thankful because she didn't. She just let me hug her.

I knew that she was crying at that time. I asked why but she keeps on hugging me back. So I decided not to talk about it.

I told her that whatever it is, it will be okay. Whenever she needs me, I'm just one call away. And with that, she made a space between us and stepped back a little. She wiped out her tear, then chuckled and said she's alright. How cute of her.

I was wondering at the thought of how she was able to act normal in front of me and my family by the fact that she's not really in a good mood. She even overcomes the uneasiness she felt before with my family. She easily creates a good relationship with them at that dinner last night in a short period of time. Especially with Mom and my youngest brother Riley who really likes her so much.

After that dinner, she refused me even my Dad and Mom to take her home. She insisted that she will be okay and will get home safely. So we have a no choice but to let her go home alone. I told her to text me when she got home and she did.

But that was the last message I received from her.

Khaira's P.O.V

"Be ready for a long test next meeting. Class dismissed." Sir Chava says then leaves our room.

Haaaay.. sa wakas, makakahinga na ako ng maayos. Nagkaroon kasi kami ng biglaang graded recitation. Ewan ko ba, meron pa din nun sa college. Mabuti na lang nasagot ko yung question sa akin.

We're here sa canteen. Break time na pero heto ako ngayon, nakatulala lang sa pagkain. Wala talaga ako sa huwisyo these days. I feel like I want to rest and sleep for a whole day. I want to breath. I want to---

"Uy Lynn, masama na yan. I mean, tahimik ka oo we knew that. Pero may iba eh. Kaibigan mo kami, mind to share your problem?" Dallia interrupts me from day dreaming.

"Sinong may problema? Ako?" I asked.

"Eh sino ba ang laging bad mood sa atin? Di ba ikaw? Nung Monday ka pa ganyan. Soooooobrang tahimik mo." She's over acting.

"Oo nga bes! Tapos kahapon, hindi ka man lang nag-online which is not usual!" Aliyah added.

I don't even know what's the problem with me. Maybe ayoko lang talagang pag-usapan. I glanced at them. They are all looking at me intently especially Dallia. Kinakabahan ako sa mga ganyang tinginan nila eh. I feel like they know something. Na parang hinihintay lang nila akong magsalita.

"C'mon Lynn, tell us", Jenny.

"What happened that night?" Dallia asked which makes me look at her. Sabi ko na nga ba eh. May alam sila. Madaldal talaga si Charlotte. Naikwento ko kasi sa kanya na we had dinner pero yun lang naman.

"The question is, may nangyari ba talaga that night bes?" Jenny

"Nothing. Nothing happens. It's just that I---"

"Kyaaah! You did what? OMG! Kyaa---!" Binatukan ko si Dallia. "Aaah! Ouch! It's so hurt you know!"

Baliw talaga yang babaeng yan eh. Ang seryoso kanina tapos biglang inatake na naman ng kabaliwan. ˋ︿ˊ

"OA mo Dal! Wala pa nga eh. Panira ka, alam mo yun!?" Jenny shouted. She looks annoyed. Lokaret kasi si Dal eh.

My phone is ringing. I checked on it. It's Ricci again.

"Baka gusto mong sagutin?" Aliyah asked.

"Hah?"

"Hah? Anong Hah Lynn? May tumatawag oh, sino ba yan? Ako sasagot." Masyadong mabilis ang mga pangyayari. Nagulat na lang ako na hawak-hawak na ni Dallia yung phone ko. She answered the call. What the fudge!

"Ohmyghad! It's Ricci!" Dallia excitedly whispered it to us. Baka may makarinig. They knew that Ricci and I are friends. And I don't want others to know about it.

"Anong sabi Dal?" Aliyah asks.

"Okay naman siya. No worries. Gusto mo ba siyang makausap?" Dallia says while talking over the phone.

"Gaga! Syempre oo, kaya nga siya tumawag eh. Para kausapin si Lynn!" Jenny shouted to Dal.

"Akin na yang phone ko." I said to Dal with a serious look. Tumahimik silang lahat.

Naiinis talaga ako. I'm scared of I'll hear his voice again. How will I forget him if I will talk to him?

Dallia gave back my phone. I glared and rolled my eyes on her but she keeps on teasing me. I just ignore it.

"Hello." Walang gana kong bati.

"Hello." He sounded unhappy. "Sorry, mukang ayaw mo pa din akong kausapin. It's okay, ibaba ko na la---" I cut him off.

"Don't. Why did you call anyway?"

Ang tagal niyang sumagot.

"Miss na kasi kita." What? What did he says? He misses me? Haha, yeah yeah I forgot na we're friends pala. That's why. Bawal assumera Lynn.

"Hellooo.. Still there? Sabihin mo lang kung ayaw mo ko ng kausapin. Ibaba ko talaga tong call. Ayaw kong magalit ka na naman sa akin." I miss that caring and sweet voice of him.

"Who says?" I paused for a moment. "I'm not mad at you." I say sincerely. Totoo naman eh. Hindi ako galit sa kanya. Why would I? I hate myself instead.

Kapag pinagpatuloy ko to, magiging selfish lang ako. Ayokong dumating sa point na magtetake advantage ako sa kanya because we're friends. Ayoko ding dumating sa point na siya na mismo yung iiwas sa akin pag nalaman niyang mahal ko siya na hindi naman dapat sa magkaibigan lang. Hindi ko kayang makita siyang iniiwasan o tatalikuran ako. Mas maganda na yung ganito. Ako lang ang masasaktan.

"Galit ka nga talaga sa akin... Kanina pa ko salita ng salita dito, pero hindi ka naman sumasagot." Sabi ni Cci ng dahan-dahan. Naiimagine ko tuloy siyang nakapout.

"Sorry." Hindi ko talaga alam kung anong sasabihin ko.

"Pwede mo naman akong sabihan kung may problema ka. If I did something wrong para magalit ka nang ganyan sa akin, tell me para alam ko." He really sounded sadly. Ang sama ko. Alam kong pagod siya because of trainings pero heto ako, napaka-walang kwenta kong kaibigan sa kanya. I want to see him, right now. I want hug him tightly. I want to say sorry. But I can't. It can't be.

"Sorry." I say it again.

"Kanina ka pa nagsosorry." He answered.

"I'm really sorry... Its just that, I'm not in a good mood." Wala na ako sa katinuan. Ganito ba talaga kapag in love? Hindi ko malaman kung ano ba talaga ang dapat kong gawin.

"Yeah, its obvious. You're in a bad mood because I called. I'm sorry talaga at naistorbo kita. Sige na, namiss lang kita kaya ako tumawag. Huwag ka papalipas ng gutom ha? Always take care okay? Bye." Then he ended the call.

Aish! Stupid Lynn! I am stupid! What did I just told him? I don't mean in that way. Does he think that he's the reason why I'm in a bad mood. Aish! Of course he's not. He will never be.

I frightened at the thought of him getting mad at me now. Could he? What will I do? Will I call him back?

"HUUUY! LYNN! ANO NA? NAKATULALA KA DYAN? ANONG NAPAG-USAPAN NIYO?" Dallia suddenly asked.

"Anong ANONG NAPAG-USAPAN KA DIYAN? Eh halos iilang salita nga lang lumabas sa bibig niyan eh. Tingin mo meron?" Jenny says loudly.

"True! Agree ako jan, wala!" Aliyah added.

I looked at my friends. They are waiting for me to speak.

"I already fall for him." I confessed. "That's why umiiwas ako sa k-kanya... at heto, I dont know what to do... That's my problem..." I looked down. "I f-fall in l-love with my idol, with my... friend." Dahan-dahan kong sabi. A tear escaped from my eyes.

They are all quiet. Nakatingin lang ako sa pagkain ko. Hindi ko man lang nagalaw.

Time is ticking fast. Malapit ng matapos yung break time namin.

Silence is eating us right now. Tahimik lang sila habang kumakain. Ako naman, kahit anong gawin ko, wala akong ganang kumain.

I checked my phone if there's a message pero wala. I found my eyes staring at my wallpaper. It was Ricci and I. Our face were close. His cheeks are on mine. It was the day when we had a friendly date. Selfie daw kami. Nailang nga ako that time eh. I was shocked when his cheek met mine. I blushed at that thought. I will not forget that day. I can't forget him easily.

I don't know how to forget him. Will that be possible? To fall out of love? Sana sa love, meron ding delete button. So I can delete my feelings for him in just one click.

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